Mr. X

Hai All,



My post tonight gonna be something emo. Due to some technical problem with my brain wiring, Im a bit ting tong. I need your opinion. What do you think about Mr. / Ms. X ?? What I mean is your future husband or wife.



We never know who is our wife / husband. Never know when he/she will appear. Never know how he/she will look like. Never know his/her behaviour. Never know where is he/she. But what we know is at one time, in a moment, somewhere he/she is our Mr/Ms X.

Having experienced of unworkable relationship really give a big impact on me. Its not that Im not happy now but I can't stop thinking what is going to happen if the same thing occur? You may say I had a day dream or my expectation is too high but the reason of Im having a relationship now is only aim for marriage. Perhaps its too early but I take it seriously.

I know its beyond my control. What can I say " If its stated that he is destiny to be with me, make our heart closer. If he is not, hopefully my heart can accept it calmly and peacefully. Yes, he is the person that Im looking for but Im not sure what is His Plan. Can I be with him? "

What I know, I love him. ( If you feel like vomitting, please do so. I dont care.LOL).

p/s: need to get back to my report. =D adios amigos!!

Congratulation =D

Hai everyone! Say cheeseeee =D

Im officially announce that I wanna get married! teeeeet! Absolutely not. hehe. I would like to tell you that Im done with my internship. Yeay! I had learnt lots in 7 month. Of course its nothing much about my studies but I do learnt about life experience.

So, after this Im back to student lifestyle. BUT. I wanna make it more interesting rather than just test, quiz, exam, project and assigment. ermm one of the reason why is because errrr because errrr on June Semester errrr hehehe dont wanna tell you =D

Thank you for your moral support ( listen for my complaints, etc), comments, opinion, care and help. Congratulations peoples!

p/s: Ending of Something is The Beginning of Another Things

Super Eira ^_^

Hai all!

Im back...hehehe..I thought I wanna update my blog once I reach my room but something wrong with my account and it fixed around 9 sth. Then I watched variety show "Running Man" till now. So what happened today? Let me begin with a few scenes occured today.

Scene 1: A married couple with one kid (Ah Boy). Both (husband and wife) are blind and the kid is not. Imagine inside the bus, the kid sit on the end left, mom in the middle and dad on the right. How do they communicate? Through sense and touch. Mom passed the junk food to dad without knowing where is his hand but imazingly, the food didnt fall of even a single of it. I cant imagine the boy bring his parent from the bus terminal to their destination. He is approximately 10 or 11 years old. I am amaze with them espeacially their relationship and bonding.

Scene 2: An old man approximately 60++ years old inside the STAR. Looking around with unsure face. Asking a girl " Adik, do I need to change to another STAR to go to Puduraya?" The girl " No need uncle. Just stay here. That one going to Ampang". The old man" ooo.That day I need to transfer to another LRT." The girl smile. Once reach the station, the old man just sit. The girl told the old man, he needs to take off from this station. The old man hurried and left the LRT.

Scene 3: A lady approximately late 50 outside of Masjid Jamek LRT station. Trying look around and finding someone to ask for help. Suddenly " Adik, which way to go to LRT?" The girl " Which LRT?" The lady " Kelana Jaya". The girl, " ooo im heading there too. Just follow me and I'll show you". Smiled. They crossed the road and the lady said" This way is it? Its ok I go first". The girl let her go by herself. Guess what? The lady queaue at the worng counter. The girl called her and said its not that way. She shows her the right way. She thank her and said this is the first time for her.

Scene 4: In front of Putra LRT door. While waiting for the LRT, a man approximately 40 sth approached the girl. He asked " Adik, which way is going to Setiawangsa". The girl said " this way". Smiled.

Scene 5: 2 young couple. One couple approximately 20 sth and other one approximately 30 sth. Now we focus on the 1st couple. They are sitting.The girl leaning her head on the guy shoulder. Without a word, the guy's hand hug her from behind and the other hand holding each other. Feel soo comfort. Now we talk about 2nd couple. They are also sitting. The girl didnt talk much. They guy tease her, make jokes, and they laugh. I would say, they are playing around. Haha..

Lesson Learnt:
1. He had a better plan for us. We can plan but doesnt ensure its gonna work
2. When we love someone:
- We dont need to see them
- We dont need their shoulder
- We dont need to have them all around
It is because
- We use our heart to feel / sense their love, not by our eyes
- We use their strength to keep motivated and be strong
- We will always feel their presence eventhough they are not near
3. In life, they are peoples who are willingly help others with no reason. Find them!
4. Sometimes we cant see our partner, cant cry on his/her shoulder, cant be with him/her. Let's think about it. Why do you need your partner? For his/her eyes? shoulder? Mouth? We are made to complement each other. They cant be around 24 hours. Because they are your 911.Operating 24 hours. Be there asap when you need them but not always there with you =D

p/s: simply share my thoughts. Inpire by the blind and young couple, a lady and the old man.

What About Now

Hai all,

Welcome back to myself!! A lot of things happened in the last few days. There are fun, sad, emotional, and joy. Someone told me that " Why should we care if people care about us or not", " Why should we depends on others to help us".

Ermmm I would say, what happened in the last few days makes me realise something.

1. No matter how hard we try hard for others, they never see what we have done for them. The more we give, the more they request without noticing our effort to get it done.



2. When we do something, we just need our effort to be acknowledge and feel like being appreciated.



3. When we do something, others may not noticing it for the sake of their goods.



4. Word "HELP" can be interprate as ' can you do this for me? I need to submit it to the boss'



5. Phrase " Thank you for your help" is equal to ' you help me with my KPI'



6. Phrase " its important for me" is equal to ' it shows how my perfomance is. Please do it asap as you can'



7. What goes around will comes around.

My internship experience is not as good as others. Obstacles, hard times, bitter and sweet moments will make me who I am next semester. I always tell myself, " its ok ira, at least you experience something that others dont. What they give what they get. Patience".

Finally, I learnt to say " I dont care"and "Whatever". It may sounds selfish but who cares!

p/s: I might be by myself but Im not alone.

Mission

Mission : Complete the progress report and sleep
Mission's Status : 95% completed and cannot sleep
Current status : Dangerous. May lead to tears eruptions
Agent's status : Emotionally injured
Causes : Eyes and Heart attack
Victim : SNZ
Strategy : Launching self - reflection application and press the self-control button

Time reporting 4.40 am in agent's secrete room.

p/s: Pretending like I dont know. Im respecting yours as someone's and please do respect mine as someone's.

^_^

Hai All,

Being someone who live in her own imagination life is not that bad either. Why? Because her imagination can make her happy eventhough its not real. BUT! There is a big BUT there. When the truth appear, it smash on her face until she can't get up.

A said that, " u watched movie too much. Its just a movie, not reality" . I do admit that sometimes when I watch a movie, I did smile by myself, imagining it happens to me and I even cry myself, imagining what if it happens to me.

So, lets ask yourself. When is the last time you imagining things? Is it during primary school? or earlier than that. I do not feel ashame to admit that I still have my own imaginary friends. Who are they? Of course, my bear2 in my room.

p/s: Be happy no matter how hard it will be. Cheers! =D

In 2 hours

Hai all,

Thanx to my "great" morning whereby I had a"pleasant" trip to Pavillion. From pavillion then walk to the KLCC. Nice ah? Never expect it will took 2 hours to go to KLCC from my house. Once I reached the office, everyone look at me like im doing a big crime! Ok fine. Im late for about 1 and half hours.

Next, I never expect to spend my 2 hours visit by going to KL sentral and eating the nasi ayam. I had my own plan but dont want to spoil others plan. So, with tears I say good bye. I hate saying it actually.

Conclusion, 2 hours in the morning and evening had give me a big impact on today. This 2 hours create a sweet and "sour" memories.

p/s: Im not crying bcoz you are leaving Its bcoz I met someone that always accompany me when I wanna do or get sth. Its really turn out to be like wat I post before.

24 August 2011

Hi All

Actually I've a long list to share. Start with my internship experience, Ramadhan, family, love life, friends, life in KL and last but not least my new life here.. But I’ll choose certain things to be shared.

I love my new life style. Learn to manage the house, bills, rooms, and myself. Honestly it is a challenge to me to have everything in my head. Clean the house and room, pay the bills, cook, task at work place, logbook, internship project and etc. I would say I almost get pissed off with it. But thats how it should be. Now Im getting used to it.

I do have dream to work with my host company. Im imagining how is their manner, how they treat other, how they appreciate other, feel of togetherness and of coz feel the presence of others. Now, Im there. Being part of them is not as easy you see. Three month Ive gone through, a lot of things happened. Mostly make me feel bad. Im happy to go to work, learn something new and get myself involve with the new task. I love keep myself busy. Unfortunately, its not how I want it to be. Everyday I go to work, I just feel Ive to. If I didnt go, they will deduct my allowance. It is not something I enjoy. You know why? It is not because I hate my work, it just that I feel frustrated with the people. Of course, there are some moment I feel happy and most of time I feel unhappy. I did try my best to change. Start with the way I talk, look and work. Sadly, I just realise I make myself look stupid. Im just one isolated girl sitted at the corner surrounded by the cubical. People wont believe me if I said Im the most quite and the one who like to smile there. Thank god, I got my SV. She is the only friend Ive there. She is nice. Beside her, I didnt talk much with other. I dont know, sometime they just bluffing, teasing each other and the one that I dont really into is gossiping about others. Unfortunately, my SV going to resign effectively on 2nd of November this year. I keep thinking myself, who Im gonna talk with. Sigh.

Second, I missed my late grandfather. Normally, when Ive problem, I’ll sit beside him, tell him my problem and he will advice me. I know its sound lame to sit with your grandfather and have a chit chat but I like it. Normally I’ll listen from both, grandfather (father side) and grandmother (mother side). The difference between both are my late grandfather is cool, relax, and his words make me feel calm. Today I cry at office due to something that make me feel offended (not first time). When I came back from work, I took taxi. The driver look exactly like my late grandfather. His smell ( ciggrate made of leave) , his wrinkle hand, his face shape, and the way he talk. I feel like today, I reached the maximum level of my patient with my office mate.Suddenly, I met the taxi driver who exactly look like my late grandfather. Honestly, I feel a bit relief. Although I couldnt share with him what I feel and gone through, at least I can meet someone who look like him.

Just a litle bit sharing about my late grandfather. Normally , the last week of Ramadhan, he will call my uncle and aunt and we will breakfast together. As javanese, we have one culture where by, we will send food to our neighbour or relative at the end of Ramadhan. So, my late grandfather will call all of us to eat and cook at his house. Early in the morning, he will check his birds. He is a birds lover. I still remember, when we promised to “ balik kampung”, I can see him waiting at the stairs in front of his house. I tell you what. He can remember all of his son n daughter car registration number. The one that I wont forget until the end of my life, he will buy us Soto for supper. After tarawikh prayer, he wil buy soto and all of us will eat together. Thats why I rarely eat Soto when Im at Perak although I love it. It is because its remind me of him. He always say to me, “ accompany me”. I missed him sooo much. I dont know. Normally, when I sad, he will be with me and talk to me. Even if I didnt tell him what happened, he will give me his advice.

As a conclusion, internship not only let me stay at KL and let me manage my life myself, I also need to face the challenge. The challenge that Im scared the most. Being lonely and sickness.

p/s: Thanx to those who with me when Im in need.

Distance

Dear you,

Distance make love grow fonder. But I would say distance may make the love disappear through the thin air. Silence is better than words. But silence is killing you inside. Waiting and hoping for every moments in your life. Every text n message buzzing ur inbox will drive you crazy.

Asking what your heart wants is not a good solution. Why? Bcoz your heart is searching and wondering. Why is this, Why is that. Should be this way, Should be that way. In the end, the point is only "Attention".

If you love someone, never let them go away from you. Hold them and make them feel your present. Make them feel secure and safe. Just to let u know something, Ive lost someone in my life before. I know how it feels. Endless regret.

p/s: I rarely speak what I mean to.

Prince Charming and Cat

Dear all

Quite a number of day I didnt visit my blogging world. What? Visit? Sounds soooo formal.. errrr is it a sign that telling Im getting professional? teeet obviuosly not..hahahaha. JK.So for today entry I would like to share about prince charming. Of coz not shrek or cinderalla's and snow white's husband plus not even think of beauty's beast. Its about my prince charming. feewwww Im melting...hahahaha crazy me

Im pretty sure, the girls out there do have dreaming about someone to be their life partner. (Excluding actor). So do I. hehe. Dont laugh if I said I do have dream to marry a prince. From which royal blood? errr I didnt think about it. hahahaha. To make it short, everyone would love to have a better and capable to create their life as what they dreams of. So do I.

Letting go your own dream and creating a new one are two difference things. I know Im thinking too much on my future but Im a type of person who is aiming for something. It will leads me on where and what should I do now. It doesnt mean Im trying to challenge my destiny.Obviously not. I do believe in this, " God didnt change one destiny accept he himself".

Somehow, without I realise, I became too forcy. Arrogantly, I'll ensure people around me will do and follow as what I want and planned. Without realising it, Im hurting others feeling and killing myself. There is only one word would describe the entire thing I did, 'WORRY'. Im just couldnt sit silently without trying my hardest to get something I want. If I didnt get it, I wont regret it.

After all, I would like to apologize who ever may or had involved with me. It just, Im worry about my future and myself. I do agree it sounds selfish but Im so sorry, I have to. Im sorry for the pressure that I put. Im sorry for my stubborness. Im sorry for me who is being selfish. Just to let you know, in the end, you also will get the benefits. Im not the one who success. Im not the one who got good placement. Im not the one who considered to be successful. You are the one.

Lastly, I will do everything I could to be the shoulder you can lean on, backbone to support, wings to make you fly higher, brain to rationalize, and heart to love. Perhaps you may heard this, to get the medicine, you must get the poison. I might be the poison who keep smashing, pressuring, and make you down, but Im also trying my best to be the one who can cured you.

p/s: why do I love cat? It may has sharp claws and teeth but it also cute and tame. Sounds like me ah?? LOL

To My Best Buddy

Hi All,

" If he is for me, get rid of the gap between my heart and his. If he is not for me, make me feel calm with what You had planned" .

To my beloved best buddy, Happy Birthday!!!! Thank you for your time and effort to comfort me. Be a good listener. Be the one that I can fight with. Be a positive side of me. I still remember the moment when I asked you to find a new grilfriend, you said " aishhhh, I have many responsibilities; to my parents, studies and you". I said " what?? me??" He said " yeaaa, you. How can I handle both, my girlfriend and you, the emo2 girl". =_=" grrrrr yea thats you. toooo frank.

Anyway best buddy, you are a great guy. We be friend since I am 10 years old n you are 11 years old. You are one of them who keep teasing me n I will chase you guys all around the school. I feel good when I think about our chilhood. You and your gang teasing girls, feel good being popular and playing with the girls feeling. Group of popular guys who think they are good enough. hehehe..

Lastly, I wish you'll find your future wife soon. I want you to be happy. I feel good to have a best buddy like you. Let me tell you something, I would not allow any girl playing around with you. If she messing up with you, meaning she is messing up with me. You know rite who I am referring to? hehehehe...gotcha!!!! Again, happy birthday best buddy!! I hope you'll be happy forever and be stronger. Stay cool as you always do.

p/s: there are big ship and small ship. The best is friendship (^_^)v . Drop by sometimes, I'll treat you. Promise ^_^

Dear My Heart

Dear My Heart,
Dont only keep thinking that you always get hurt
Dont only think that you are alone
Dont only think that you are empty
Dont only think that you need to collect the pieces of yourself
Dont only think that you need to find love


Dear My Heart,
Please be strong
Please keep moving forward
Please cheer up
Please enjoy your life
Please be happy

Dear my heart

Dont give up to love

Dont forget how it feel

Dear My Heart,
U know what Im thinking right now
But please dont think of something stupid
Please my heart
I care about you because I need you through out my life

Provoke

Hi All

Define give up. Let it go? hmmm what about give more? hehehe Why give up? Not give down? Give left or right? Its sound weird when I said give up means give more. But yeaaaa..I try to give up..LOL

I'm trying my best not to get pissed off by others, but it just me. I would say "whateva" but that is nt what I mean actually. I hate being provoke. Although Its for fun but if it keep happening continously, how would I feel? You are trying to be funny with other people, but do you consider other people who are related to that person? You never do.

If I didnt say anythin doesnt mean I'm ok with it. It just that, I'm trying y best not to let you messing up my life.

p/s: Avoid to get sth meaning you are trying to get it

I'm a Big Girl

Hi all,

Its hard being stuck in the middle. Trying damn hard to satisfy others.Cares about others feeling. Fulfilling both "instructions" and "wants". Do they know how I feel? Patient is the key for the solution. But how long it can be? What? Discussion?*sigh* It wont change anything. By the words so called respect, silence is the best way.

p/s: Am I wearing a wrong costume? Smile on the face but crying in the heart.

Ago

Dear you,

Before at 1 or 2 am: I feel hungrylah~~ can we go to mamak?

Before: I need to go Taman Maju to find the boxes to pack my things. You wanna come?

Before: I feel like watching a movie tonite, movie jom!

Before: Mcd jom!

Before: Pizza jom!

Before: Batu Gajah jom!

Before: Sushi king jom!

Before: Eat jom!

Before: I feel stress-lah, can we go around?

Before: I'm going to _________, you wanna come?

Before: I bought sth for you, lets meet up

Before: I can't sleeplah, sing (though you never sing).

Before: I feel like eating_______,lets go to___________

Before: You are not feeling well? Come down stairs, I bought _____,______,______for you.

Before: Can I go to karaoke?

Before: How are you going to go back?? Let me send you to Medan Gopeng.

Before: Lets go back together!

Before: You always calling me "buncit" (big tummy) though yours is bigger =P

Before: Ira, wake up its morning / magrib already.

Before: Lets window shop.

Before: Dats style look nice with you. (while window shop).

Before: I need to buy_______,you wanna come?

Before: eeeee~~ dat bear is cute. Buy me 1

Before: wait! lets go in ( shoes shop).Try the shoes. Measure the height . (still I lost)

If I list all of it, it wont be fitted here. What I want to say, you are sponge of my life. Thank you for everything. You help me a lot. You be with me when m in need. I wonder, how it would be when changing the word " before" into "today" (when m going for internship).

Lots of love

-ira-

p/s: dedicated to Muhammad Syafiq bin Afandi.

12 May 2011

Hi all,

Something is hard to explain by words. ahhhhh~~~ such a long time I didn't feel like this. Crying like hell n can't stop. Why did I cry? hmmmm~~ I'm waiting for it. I even wish it to come earlier but when I need to face it, it's hard for me. Yea it's kinda hard for me to face it. I admit that I don't really love UTP but it's hard for me to let everything here.(even single things). hmmmm life must go on no matter what.

p/s: I'll keep everything with me in a book call "memories". Love you guys.

Dream

Dear you the guy in my dream,

Thank you for your kindness. Thank you for making me happy. Thank you for being with me. Being humble like you really inspire me. I am wonder how do you know my fav ice cream flavor is yam. You know I love motivate kids. The most important things are, you know I love to play around and act like a kid. Thank you.

Regards,

Tengku Izza

p/s: Your granny's PA really make me feel silly. =P

Semester January 2011

Hi all,

What do you expect me to write? A story on how am going this semester? A sharing on what I learn this semester? Teeeet wrong answer. Please try again. LOL

This semester is the last semester before I leave UTP.(literally before final year). I've gone through sad, happy, and even feeling-less memories. huhuhu. Being here at UTP is a great experiences. (m not trying to promote UTP anyway). Although it is in the middle of the jungle, but its not bad rite sharing the place with monkeys, owls, buffalo and many other creatures. (not included the one which bite me).

I realize that, times goes by quite fast. Am I prepared to face the real world out there? huhuhu I dunno. Now, m preparing for my final exam and will face it soon. Final exam is just about grade. If you score higher mean you are a great student. If not you are not. Then you get job offers, get better positions and get more money. Hmmmm what a boring life.

Here I would like to tell everyone I knew in UTP that I AM GLAD THAT I KNOW YOU. It doesn't matter either I like you or not, I care about you or not, we are closed or not, the points is I knew you. Hmm I guess that's all from me.

p/s: Set Sail On The Winding Trail, Cast Anchor In The Heart of Calm, Heavy is The Heart That Stays, Sad is The Soul That Strays

What do you think?

Hai All

I was called to write something today. Ermm its about what happened to me past few days. I wouldn't talk about my studies. It is about people around me. Honestly I never been disappointed by the people around me. Even though there are some people who are jerk but still m ok with them. This time around, I don't know. Those people really2 make me disappointed.

I don't know how to explain how disappointed I am. People talk about me. Tell about me to other people. It makes me sad. It worst when that other person met me and tell me that he knew what happened.

I'm not a type of people who is easily trust others. Its a fact. If my first impression said, I shouldn't be friend with that person, means I shouldn't. If it said, he / she is nice although he /she doesn't look so, means he / she is nice. I don't know how to tell you how upset and angry I am. Someone that I trust on her capabilities and skills, did betray me. For me it is kinda betrayal. Why is it? Let me keep it myself. I believe you can go further but you had destroyed your own future. I've showed you the way. But you.......sigh.

M speechless.

Super Girl

Super girl doesn't cry

Super girl doesn't looks gloom

Super girl will be fine

Super girl knows how to handle the problems

p/s: Handle the problems with care. I always realize when the problems come, but I never notice when the problems are gone.

I'm A Dreamer

Hai All,

Have u ever mixed around with the type of peoples who are always surrounded by fans? M kinna have experienced it before. Ermmm I can't deny that I'm kinna follow their attitude now. LOL. Don't get me wrong. I'm not saying that I’m surrounded by fans but I'm following the way there are thinking.

Fyi, during my schools time, I was surrounded by players. Basically they are not sportsman / sportswoman. LOL. They are totally the type of peoples who always changing their partner or kinna well - known peoples. If they didn't attract to others, others will attracted to them. Funny rite?

In fact, they are changing now. Now, they are avoiding the term " in a relationship". They are still straight. It just, they said, they are bored with their life before and they wanna focus on their future. They are more determined on where they are going to and what they want to do.

Perhaps I'm a type of person who easily adjusts my life planning. I know where I'm going to and what I want to do. I just want to feel and appreciate the opportunity that I've now. I know, I can't reach the time that I've set for myself . After got the news one of my friends who are like my brother passed away yesterday, had really2 change my mind.

For now, I would say, I'll be like who am I for last two years. I will work hard for everything that I need to do today because I'm afraid there is no tomorrow for me. I just don't want to spoil other dreams as I've did it for twice. I always being me and I'll be fine.

In fact, truth is hurt though you didn't mean it. Facing the same thing for twice is a difference story. No matter how hard I want to fix it but its end up with the same ending.

p/s: I didn't mean to be a dream spoiler. Because I thought I’m the ones who create dreams for u. I'm sorry for everything.

Sick

Hi all

For today entry, I would like to ask your opinions. Am I toooo paranoid? I don't know. I feel like I'm just taking an early precautions. Perhaps I'm pampering myself to much. .sigh

It's hard to explain my condition right now. It's only easier to talk to my mom because she knows my current health status. huhuhu..Because she's taking care of me since I'm kid. So, when I told her that I'm having a fever or pain at the chest or headache, she'll know what's wrong with me. I'm not doubting the doctor here and I can't put blame on them. It just that, I can't bear with it when they keep saying I'm stress or even yesterday the doctor asked me, why did I going to the clinic sooo frequently.

Fyi, if I'm stress I would get angry easily, get annoyed and I would avoid myself from being in the public. I do agree with the doctors when they said I'm thinking about it too much. What do you expect? You wanna me to faint first? I'm not saying that I'm having a medical background so I know what happened to me. It just that, I need reference and opinion from the doctor.

I think I need to restructure my life and I guess I can't trust and depend on the doctors here. New mission for this semester ( almost end already =P) , I wanna having a better life. As what my buddy said, I need to do some exercises, eat veggie and sleep properly. No more excuses.

p/s: From Him We Come, and To Him We Back

Happy 2oth to Ira

Dear Ira,

Hai Ira, How are you? Hope you are happy...I know you are...right??? hehehe...

Here I would like to wish you Happy Birthday! hehehe...you are 20 now...can you imagine? There's no more -een for you..lol..don't be sad because from -een, now you are becoming -ty. Right?

Ira. In 20 years, we had went through so many things together. I know you in and out. I knew you deeply. I know when you happy, sad, energetic, a little bit "diva" and so on. Indeed, you can't lie to me. Here are my wishes for you:

Ira, you've grown up. You've change a lot. I mean it. You changed from childish you and becoming more matured you. From emotional you to chill you. From serious you and becoming cheerful you. lol. If m gonna list them here, they gonna take more entry..hehehe So hopefully, you keep learning. No matter what happened, learn from that situation or problems.

Congratulation Ira! Now, you manage to control your emotion. I know you are learning a phrase to be apply in your life which is "what ever". Its good habits. No matter how bad and terrible people do to you, you'll say "whatever, I don't mind".

Hopefully Ira, we will be together no matter what happened. No matter how much changes you wanna do in your life, never ever forget me. Just to let you know, no matter what happened, I'll always with you. We'll be twin until the end of our life.

With lots of love,

-Tengku Izza-

p/s: thank you so much for the birthday party. Im really3 appreciate it... thank you (^_^)v

Make Me Strong

Hai ol

Sometimes in life we may lost our faith. The challenges and obstacles of life will make us fall and hardly get up. Someone had told me that, never expect others to do as what u did to them. Meaning to say, if u are being nice and care to others, doesn't mean they will being nice and care for u. But if u did sth wrong or bad to others, definitely they will do sth worst to u as a revenge. That's life. Now I realize what does he means. There is where sincerity comes from. Thats how I learn to be independence. Thanks to him anyway. I start to believe what he said. In this world, we are alone. He taught me to stand on my own feet. Its a credit if someone is supporting u. He told me that, we are brought to this world alone and we left the world alone. Hence, when I feel down or sad, I'll listen to these 3 song which are Make Me Strong and You Came To Me by Sami Yusuf and Insha Allah by Maher Zain. These songs really inspired me and make me close to Him. Because I know. He never abandon me although He can. Only Him know me because He is the One who creates me. He also know how I feel because I cant hide anything from Him. He knows me in and out.

p/s: My Lord show me right from wrong, Give me light make me strong, I know the road is long, Make me strong. Sometimes it just gets too much, I felt that Ive lost touch, I know the road is long, Make me strong.

People

Hai ol

As usual if I've sth to share..I'll be here. So, wat m gonna share today is sth about people around me that I met accidentally or purposely. Lol

M juz realize I was surrounded by the same behavior and type of people. If its not the same, it will be almost the same. Don't you realize it? Dats happened to me. No matter wat, I'll enjoy my life while I've still have the opportunity to have it. Once I've lost it, perhaps m not in this world anymore. Such a waste.

Today is the registration day for the new intake. They are so excited to be here and of coz they have many kind of style (group). One side of the cafe, I can see a group of stylo family. Wit hand bag, high hills, nice cloth n etc. However, they are some other group with low profile style. Which mean, they looks like from a well family but they acting like a normal people. Another group is a group of simple profile family. When I look at them, suddenly the memory of being a foundation students came up. oooohh OMG.

The old me?? huhuhu...=_=" Ive changed a lot.. hehehe.. thx to ol n my environment..

p/s: Luv ur life..Although u don't care about it, there are some people who cares (^_^)v

Pieces of Time

Another year, another chance

To start my lives anew;

This time I’ll leap old barriers

To have a real breakthrough.

I’ll take one little step

And then I'll take one more,

My unlimited potential

I’ll totally explore.

I’ll show off all my talents

Everyone will be inspired;

While I’m writing this,
I’m getting very tired

I’ll read and learn a lot,
All my goals will be accomplished,
Sigh...or maybe not

Looking back on the months gone by,

As a new year starts and an old one ends,

I contemplate what brought my joy,

And I think of my loved ones and my friends.

Recalling all the happy times,

Remembering how they enriched my lives,

I reflect upon who really counts,

As the fresh and bright new year arrives

Let me stand in the thick of the fight,
Let me bear what I must without whining;
Grant me the wisdom to do what is right,
Though a thousand false beacons are shining.

Let me be true as the steel of a blade,
Make me bigger than skillful or clever;
Teach me to cling to my best, unafraid,
And harken to false gospels, never.

Let me be brave when the burden is great,
Faithful when wounded by sorrow;
Teach me, when troubled, with patience to wait
The better and brighter to-morrow.

Spare me from hatred and envy and shame,
Open my eyes to life's beauty;
Let not the glitter of fortune or fame
Blind me to what is my duty.

Let me be true to myself to the end,
Let me stand to my task without whining;
Let me be right as a man, as a friend,
Though a thousand false beacons are shining

At this moment, I was thinking about someone who inspired me in his way. Who challenged my weaknesses. Who suddenly appear after a long break. Who make fun of me when m emotional. Who knows me in and out. U can be a father who nags his daughter. Sometimes u like a brother who protects his sister. U be a lover who cares and loves with no reasons. And u be a good listener as a friend.

p/s: Happy New Year to All. Tears is not a good start. M wonder how will it ends.