Steps by Steps

Dear All,


Hellooooooooo to new semester and bye bye to January Semester. So far, everything run smoothly and slow =I . So this semester gonna be my last semester in UTP (hope so =D). I'll be having my convocation day on 21st October 2012. So, I wanna keep my strength to throw "the hat" as high as possible cause it pays and shows how much fun I had through out my life in UTP (#honestly speaking). From FA couple =P to Mamak gang to Event gang and hello bye gang. hehe..


Tell you what, even though this semester is my last semester in UTP but I feel like it is tougher than my previous semester. Why?? Jeng Jeng Jeng...cause bla bla bla.. anyway..thanks to my FA couple for your time and effort. It really means a lot to me. So, this semester I need to keep strong as how my FA couple is. Of course, throughout the journey, tears gonna flowing like waterfall T.T but I take it as my foundation or base for me to float. erk!! =_=" (#rounded people floating easily).  So people, pray for me. I can make it through for 7 month, why not this 4 month... Right?? Yea, perhaps I can say, now the factors are different like distance, time, money but will think about it later. I need to distract myself and get myself back as soon as possible. 


In fact, it is tiring to cry and stop continuously while you feel better after cried and will cry again in few minutes. Its not that I don't stop myself from crying but I just can't bare with it inside. The easiest way is, let it flow whenever it feels like flowing. Like korean said " Ottoke!!" hahaha Crying Machine. 


Lastly, to whom it may concern..please take care of yourself. I'm struggling really really hard to get better as soon as possible so it won't become your burden any more. I know that you'll get annoyed soon but I hope you can bare with me for few more weeks. At least until when I feel like I'm stable and busy. I'll make myself as busy as possible and will try my best to feel better. I'm really looking forward to have couples of visit to your place later. 


p/s: crying doesn't meant your are weak but giving some space for yourself to express your real feeling while gathering strength to bounce back 

If that is Allah will, He will show you with regard nothing can stop Him

Hello everyone,

This week is a heavy week for me. I don't know how to start. What can I say, it taught me a lot. From friendship, love, betrayal, trust, respect and honesty. The hardest part is about memories. It is a bad memories. I feel burden. I feel uncomfortable. I feel hatred. I feel mad. Feel shame. Feel wanna cry all day long non stop. The worst part is feel of betrayed. However, at the same, I feel what happened is a give or sign from Allah. If we try to re-look at the incident back, it is properly plan and executed wonderfully. The hurt, the tears, the hatred are part of the memory.

I am not a type of person who can easily forget what had happened. Either it is a good or vice versa, I will remember every single things about it. From the text, the idea, the moment, the time, the doer, and the discussion of course. It is a painful memory that teach me on how to handle things in the future. I do admit, no one perfect. However, I do believe, people can change. Chances are always there for people to grab. BUT, hopefully, and please use the chance properly and wisely.

When we talk about marriage. Honestly I cant wait for that moment. BUT I have dreams that I aimed to achieve. I wanna prepare myself to be a good muslim, mother and wife. For me, marriage is not only about make "that" relationship halal. It comes with responsibilities. Can I wake up before him? Can I be patient in case I didn't get what I want? Can I understand his situation when he can't meet my expectation? Can I be his makmum? Can I stop from thinking something stupid and crying all night long? Can I feel happy with his weaknesses? Can I calmly said I'm angry or mad at him and can't accept what he did? Can I love him until end of my life without regret it for the rest of my life? Can I stop bring back the painful, unforgettably memory when we fight with each other? Can I be patient when we fight with each other? Can I accept him as how he is and be in love with him with no reasons until end of my life? Can I respect him and listen to him? Can I accept the fact when he leaves me and this world? Can I be with him until Jannah? Can I?

When we talk about friendship, I do appreciate my friends whom I consider as mine. Sad and happy memory we share. The up and downs we go through it together. I do admit, I'm not totally a good friends for people to have. BUT I'm trying my best to give the best as a friend. I don't have many friends because as for me, I do only care for those who really care about me. That's why, I feel hard to loose a friend. Once I decided to break him / her from my circles, then that's it. People come and go as how they want it. Besides my parents and sister, I just have friends here that will support me and be with me when I'm in need. I didn't expect much from a friend. Just a simple care and love is sufficient for me to be strong and get through the problems. When I feel lost and crazy, I need a friend who can grab me and bring me back to the real world. When I feel sad or wanna cry, I need a friend who can lend her shoulder for me to cry on and a couple of hand to hug me, make me feel warm. When I feel happy, I need a friend who can crazily jump like a monkey with me. When I feel sick, I need a friend who can pray for me to get well soon. When I feel burden, I need a friend who I can share the burden with. When I feel blur, I need a friend to explain and give me opinions. This are the definition of friends in my life.

So peps, please, I'm begging and reminding you. Please3~~ don't ever2 hurt your love one and friends. Appreciate them. Because the painful is hardly to describe but the scars can be severe. However, the feel of hatred and angry are the burden that you will bring all the way of your life. What for right? Left it behind. Move on and let it go. Its hard though but no harm if we try.

p/s: pray for me

Something to Tell

Dear all,

When someone telling you a story / asking your opinions / sharing their thoughts

at least

listen carefully. Worst come to worst, just pretend that you are interested with the topic even though you are not. Just don't spoiling other moods who is excitedly share with you

Thank you

Compliment

Dear all,

Have you ever wonder how do people feel after been compliment by someone? Happy? Touch? Upset? Sad? Angry? Let me tell you a story.

Once upon a time, there was a low profile, lame and unorganised girl. What in her mind is, she doesn't care what people might think about her so long as she feels comfortable with herself. She was surrounded with beautiful girls. It drove her to be one. However, as time goes by she gave up. This is because no matter what she did, she will end up makes herself look stupid and embarrassed herself.

Her best friend is one of the most popular girls in school. To be honest, it’s been hard to her. Of course, she feels jealous but friendship is more important than beauty. She kept it inside without letting her friend know about it.

After a while, this girl felt in love with someone so called "retired womanizer". As a successful womanizer, of course he was surrounded with tremendous beautiful girl. It makes her felt so insecure. The worst part is, in rank 1 -10 she just gets 6 to 7. Means, she’s not even pretty in his eyes. It is more than enough to make her unmotivated.

Since that day, she always looks at beautiful girl and say, hey that girl is beautiful. In fact, she’s actually saying, I’m not like them. She love attention and always wants to be the centre of attraction. She loves when someone said she has nice cloth, look different when she put on makeup, looks this and that.

Her boyfriend (her boys buddy) never said anything about her appearance exept condemning her. Again, she feels down and less motivated. She did watch a video about beauty. In the video stated that, beauty is abstract. We can’t define beauty. But still she needs a compliment.

Recently, she met a guy. Actually she knows about him long time ago but never talk to each other. He is retired womanizer, sweet talker, handsome and gentleman. To be honest, being compliment by him is something that she never thought. Hellooo~~ you are being compliment by womanizer ok! LOL.

Tell you what, even though it is a lie but at least in some way, it makes her feel better and appreciated. By saying, you are not beautiful but cute in your own way is enough to make her smile all day. Instead of saying pretty rather than beautiful is unique in a sense of appreciating the girl existence. To the man who has complemented her, thank you so much. I know you are lying but at least I’m happy to see her smile and get blushing.

p/s: I am beautiful as the way I am ^_^

Happy Birthday Abang! =D

Dear All,

Look Deep Inside The Eyes, What Did You See? =D

This silly girl had plan something for him, a day before his birthday. From
UTP ---> Zoo Taiping ---> Gunung Lang Ipoh ---> Jusco ---> UTP ---> Tesco Pengkalan ---> UTP

This entry is dedicated for him. =D

Errr...

Honestly, he looks like this when he's stress or angry =S

I can't tell you how I feel but I am "The Crying Machine", my tears burst out when I see his smile. hehehe..We do enjoy ourself yesterday. Since 7.30, we leaved UTP and back to UTP around 12 sth. Once we reach UTP, our friends are waiting for him. ngeee ngeee. Prank time! Sorry lalink~

Happy Birthday Sayang! May Allah bless you. Hopefully, you are getting better as compared to before. Be happier, more successful, cheerful, less stress, more productive. In short, be more positive and less negative. Semoga sayang berjaya di dunia dan akhirat. You are the best thing I ever had. Alhamdullilah.

p/s: will always remember this " Just wear it, you look nice with it". Glurp~ Blushing!! =D

What Do People Mean by Be Yourself?

Hai all!

How's thing going? I would like to ask your opinion. Have you heard people said to you " c,mon! be yourself. Everythings gonna be fine". What do you think about those words?

For me personally its hard to be myself. hehehe why? Coz I keep looking at others and said "Why I cant be like them?" Look at it in good perspective, its good for our bettermen. But what if the other way round? It tends to make us not thankful with what we have.

Take it this way. If you are trying to look beautiful while you are not, it makes you look horible. If you are trying to get attention while you are not the centre of attraction, it makes you look desperate. Lets combine both! You look horrible and desperate..tadaaaa! magic...hahahaha..Just feel like playing with words tonight.

So people, the points are; be yourself and be happy with it. Because you look stupid when you try to be like others..hehehe and such a pitiful when he doesnt notice it...

p/s: its been hard sometimes. wish you know this =D

Congratulation =D

Hai everyone! Say cheeseeee =D

Im officially announce that I wanna get married! teeeeet! Absolutely not. hehe. I would like to tell you that Im done with my internship. Yeay! I had learnt lots in 7 month. Of course its nothing much about my studies but I do learnt about life experience.

So, after this Im back to student lifestyle. BUT. I wanna make it more interesting rather than just test, quiz, exam, project and assigment. ermm one of the reason why is because errrr because errrr on June Semester errrr hehehe dont wanna tell you =D

Thank you for your moral support ( listen for my complaints, etc), comments, opinion, care and help. Congratulations peoples!

p/s: Ending of Something is The Beginning of Another Things

Super Eira ^_^

Hai all!

Im back...hehehe..I thought I wanna update my blog once I reach my room but something wrong with my account and it fixed around 9 sth. Then I watched variety show "Running Man" till now. So what happened today? Let me begin with a few scenes occured today.

Scene 1: A married couple with one kid (Ah Boy). Both (husband and wife) are blind and the kid is not. Imagine inside the bus, the kid sit on the end left, mom in the middle and dad on the right. How do they communicate? Through sense and touch. Mom passed the junk food to dad without knowing where is his hand but imazingly, the food didnt fall of even a single of it. I cant imagine the boy bring his parent from the bus terminal to their destination. He is approximately 10 or 11 years old. I am amaze with them espeacially their relationship and bonding.

Scene 2: An old man approximately 60++ years old inside the STAR. Looking around with unsure face. Asking a girl " Adik, do I need to change to another STAR to go to Puduraya?" The girl " No need uncle. Just stay here. That one going to Ampang". The old man" ooo.That day I need to transfer to another LRT." The girl smile. Once reach the station, the old man just sit. The girl told the old man, he needs to take off from this station. The old man hurried and left the LRT.

Scene 3: A lady approximately late 50 outside of Masjid Jamek LRT station. Trying look around and finding someone to ask for help. Suddenly " Adik, which way to go to LRT?" The girl " Which LRT?" The lady " Kelana Jaya". The girl, " ooo im heading there too. Just follow me and I'll show you". Smiled. They crossed the road and the lady said" This way is it? Its ok I go first". The girl let her go by herself. Guess what? The lady queaue at the worng counter. The girl called her and said its not that way. She shows her the right way. She thank her and said this is the first time for her.

Scene 4: In front of Putra LRT door. While waiting for the LRT, a man approximately 40 sth approached the girl. He asked " Adik, which way is going to Setiawangsa". The girl said " this way". Smiled.

Scene 5: 2 young couple. One couple approximately 20 sth and other one approximately 30 sth. Now we focus on the 1st couple. They are sitting.The girl leaning her head on the guy shoulder. Without a word, the guy's hand hug her from behind and the other hand holding each other. Feel soo comfort. Now we talk about 2nd couple. They are also sitting. The girl didnt talk much. They guy tease her, make jokes, and they laugh. I would say, they are playing around. Haha..

Lesson Learnt:
1. He had a better plan for us. We can plan but doesnt ensure its gonna work
2. When we love someone:
- We dont need to see them
- We dont need their shoulder
- We dont need to have them all around
It is because
- We use our heart to feel / sense their love, not by our eyes
- We use their strength to keep motivated and be strong
- We will always feel their presence eventhough they are not near
3. In life, they are peoples who are willingly help others with no reason. Find them!
4. Sometimes we cant see our partner, cant cry on his/her shoulder, cant be with him/her. Let's think about it. Why do you need your partner? For his/her eyes? shoulder? Mouth? We are made to complement each other. They cant be around 24 hours. Because they are your 911.Operating 24 hours. Be there asap when you need them but not always there with you =D

p/s: simply share my thoughts. Inpire by the blind and young couple, a lady and the old man.

What About Now

Hai all,

Welcome back to myself!! A lot of things happened in the last few days. There are fun, sad, emotional, and joy. Someone told me that " Why should we care if people care about us or not", " Why should we depends on others to help us".

Ermmm I would say, what happened in the last few days makes me realise something.

1. No matter how hard we try hard for others, they never see what we have done for them. The more we give, the more they request without noticing our effort to get it done.



2. When we do something, we just need our effort to be acknowledge and feel like being appreciated.



3. When we do something, others may not noticing it for the sake of their goods.



4. Word "HELP" can be interprate as ' can you do this for me? I need to submit it to the boss'



5. Phrase " Thank you for your help" is equal to ' you help me with my KPI'



6. Phrase " its important for me" is equal to ' it shows how my perfomance is. Please do it asap as you can'



7. What goes around will comes around.

My internship experience is not as good as others. Obstacles, hard times, bitter and sweet moments will make me who I am next semester. I always tell myself, " its ok ira, at least you experience something that others dont. What they give what they get. Patience".

Finally, I learnt to say " I dont care"and "Whatever". It may sounds selfish but who cares!

p/s: I might be by myself but Im not alone.

In 2 hours

Hai all,

Thanx to my "great" morning whereby I had a"pleasant" trip to Pavillion. From pavillion then walk to the KLCC. Nice ah? Never expect it will took 2 hours to go to KLCC from my house. Once I reached the office, everyone look at me like im doing a big crime! Ok fine. Im late for about 1 and half hours.

Next, I never expect to spend my 2 hours visit by going to KL sentral and eating the nasi ayam. I had my own plan but dont want to spoil others plan. So, with tears I say good bye. I hate saying it actually.

Conclusion, 2 hours in the morning and evening had give me a big impact on today. This 2 hours create a sweet and "sour" memories.

p/s: Im not crying bcoz you are leaving Its bcoz I met someone that always accompany me when I wanna do or get sth. Its really turn out to be like wat I post before.

24 August 2011

Hi All

Actually I've a long list to share. Start with my internship experience, Ramadhan, family, love life, friends, life in KL and last but not least my new life here.. But I’ll choose certain things to be shared.

I love my new life style. Learn to manage the house, bills, rooms, and myself. Honestly it is a challenge to me to have everything in my head. Clean the house and room, pay the bills, cook, task at work place, logbook, internship project and etc. I would say I almost get pissed off with it. But thats how it should be. Now Im getting used to it.

I do have dream to work with my host company. Im imagining how is their manner, how they treat other, how they appreciate other, feel of togetherness and of coz feel the presence of others. Now, Im there. Being part of them is not as easy you see. Three month Ive gone through, a lot of things happened. Mostly make me feel bad. Im happy to go to work, learn something new and get myself involve with the new task. I love keep myself busy. Unfortunately, its not how I want it to be. Everyday I go to work, I just feel Ive to. If I didnt go, they will deduct my allowance. It is not something I enjoy. You know why? It is not because I hate my work, it just that I feel frustrated with the people. Of course, there are some moment I feel happy and most of time I feel unhappy. I did try my best to change. Start with the way I talk, look and work. Sadly, I just realise I make myself look stupid. Im just one isolated girl sitted at the corner surrounded by the cubical. People wont believe me if I said Im the most quite and the one who like to smile there. Thank god, I got my SV. She is the only friend Ive there. She is nice. Beside her, I didnt talk much with other. I dont know, sometime they just bluffing, teasing each other and the one that I dont really into is gossiping about others. Unfortunately, my SV going to resign effectively on 2nd of November this year. I keep thinking myself, who Im gonna talk with. Sigh.

Second, I missed my late grandfather. Normally, when Ive problem, I’ll sit beside him, tell him my problem and he will advice me. I know its sound lame to sit with your grandfather and have a chit chat but I like it. Normally I’ll listen from both, grandfather (father side) and grandmother (mother side). The difference between both are my late grandfather is cool, relax, and his words make me feel calm. Today I cry at office due to something that make me feel offended (not first time). When I came back from work, I took taxi. The driver look exactly like my late grandfather. His smell ( ciggrate made of leave) , his wrinkle hand, his face shape, and the way he talk. I feel like today, I reached the maximum level of my patient with my office mate.Suddenly, I met the taxi driver who exactly look like my late grandfather. Honestly, I feel a bit relief. Although I couldnt share with him what I feel and gone through, at least I can meet someone who look like him.

Just a litle bit sharing about my late grandfather. Normally , the last week of Ramadhan, he will call my uncle and aunt and we will breakfast together. As javanese, we have one culture where by, we will send food to our neighbour or relative at the end of Ramadhan. So, my late grandfather will call all of us to eat and cook at his house. Early in the morning, he will check his birds. He is a birds lover. I still remember, when we promised to “ balik kampung”, I can see him waiting at the stairs in front of his house. I tell you what. He can remember all of his son n daughter car registration number. The one that I wont forget until the end of my life, he will buy us Soto for supper. After tarawikh prayer, he wil buy soto and all of us will eat together. Thats why I rarely eat Soto when Im at Perak although I love it. It is because its remind me of him. He always say to me, “ accompany me”. I missed him sooo much. I dont know. Normally, when I sad, he will be with me and talk to me. Even if I didnt tell him what happened, he will give me his advice.

As a conclusion, internship not only let me stay at KL and let me manage my life myself, I also need to face the challenge. The challenge that Im scared the most. Being lonely and sickness.

p/s: Thanx to those who with me when Im in need.

Prince Charming and Cat

Dear all

Quite a number of day I didnt visit my blogging world. What? Visit? Sounds soooo formal.. errrr is it a sign that telling Im getting professional? teeet obviuosly not..hahahaha. JK.So for today entry I would like to share about prince charming. Of coz not shrek or cinderalla's and snow white's husband plus not even think of beauty's beast. Its about my prince charming. feewwww Im melting...hahahaha crazy me

Im pretty sure, the girls out there do have dreaming about someone to be their life partner. (Excluding actor). So do I. hehe. Dont laugh if I said I do have dream to marry a prince. From which royal blood? errr I didnt think about it. hahahaha. To make it short, everyone would love to have a better and capable to create their life as what they dreams of. So do I.

Letting go your own dream and creating a new one are two difference things. I know Im thinking too much on my future but Im a type of person who is aiming for something. It will leads me on where and what should I do now. It doesnt mean Im trying to challenge my destiny.Obviously not. I do believe in this, " God didnt change one destiny accept he himself".

Somehow, without I realise, I became too forcy. Arrogantly, I'll ensure people around me will do and follow as what I want and planned. Without realising it, Im hurting others feeling and killing myself. There is only one word would describe the entire thing I did, 'WORRY'. Im just couldnt sit silently without trying my hardest to get something I want. If I didnt get it, I wont regret it.

After all, I would like to apologize who ever may or had involved with me. It just, Im worry about my future and myself. I do agree it sounds selfish but Im so sorry, I have to. Im sorry for the pressure that I put. Im sorry for my stubborness. Im sorry for me who is being selfish. Just to let you know, in the end, you also will get the benefits. Im not the one who success. Im not the one who got good placement. Im not the one who considered to be successful. You are the one.

Lastly, I will do everything I could to be the shoulder you can lean on, backbone to support, wings to make you fly higher, brain to rationalize, and heart to love. Perhaps you may heard this, to get the medicine, you must get the poison. I might be the poison who keep smashing, pressuring, and make you down, but Im also trying my best to be the one who can cured you.

p/s: why do I love cat? It may has sharp claws and teeth but it also cute and tame. Sounds like me ah?? LOL

Semester January 2011

Hi all,

What do you expect me to write? A story on how am going this semester? A sharing on what I learn this semester? Teeeet wrong answer. Please try again. LOL

This semester is the last semester before I leave UTP.(literally before final year). I've gone through sad, happy, and even feeling-less memories. huhuhu. Being here at UTP is a great experiences. (m not trying to promote UTP anyway). Although it is in the middle of the jungle, but its not bad rite sharing the place with monkeys, owls, buffalo and many other creatures. (not included the one which bite me).

I realize that, times goes by quite fast. Am I prepared to face the real world out there? huhuhu I dunno. Now, m preparing for my final exam and will face it soon. Final exam is just about grade. If you score higher mean you are a great student. If not you are not. Then you get job offers, get better positions and get more money. Hmmmm what a boring life.

Here I would like to tell everyone I knew in UTP that I AM GLAD THAT I KNOW YOU. It doesn't matter either I like you or not, I care about you or not, we are closed or not, the points is I knew you. Hmm I guess that's all from me.

p/s: Set Sail On The Winding Trail, Cast Anchor In The Heart of Calm, Heavy is The Heart That Stays, Sad is The Soul That Strays

What do you think?

Hai All

I was called to write something today. Ermm its about what happened to me past few days. I wouldn't talk about my studies. It is about people around me. Honestly I never been disappointed by the people around me. Even though there are some people who are jerk but still m ok with them. This time around, I don't know. Those people really2 make me disappointed.

I don't know how to explain how disappointed I am. People talk about me. Tell about me to other people. It makes me sad. It worst when that other person met me and tell me that he knew what happened.

I'm not a type of people who is easily trust others. Its a fact. If my first impression said, I shouldn't be friend with that person, means I shouldn't. If it said, he / she is nice although he /she doesn't look so, means he / she is nice. I don't know how to tell you how upset and angry I am. Someone that I trust on her capabilities and skills, did betray me. For me it is kinda betrayal. Why is it? Let me keep it myself. I believe you can go further but you had destroyed your own future. I've showed you the way. But you.......sigh.

M speechless.

Super Girl

Super girl doesn't cry

Super girl doesn't looks gloom

Super girl will be fine

Super girl knows how to handle the problems

p/s: Handle the problems with care. I always realize when the problems come, but I never notice when the problems are gone.

I'm A Dreamer

Hai All,

Have u ever mixed around with the type of peoples who are always surrounded by fans? M kinna have experienced it before. Ermmm I can't deny that I'm kinna follow their attitude now. LOL. Don't get me wrong. I'm not saying that I’m surrounded by fans but I'm following the way there are thinking.

Fyi, during my schools time, I was surrounded by players. Basically they are not sportsman / sportswoman. LOL. They are totally the type of peoples who always changing their partner or kinna well - known peoples. If they didn't attract to others, others will attracted to them. Funny rite?

In fact, they are changing now. Now, they are avoiding the term " in a relationship". They are still straight. It just, they said, they are bored with their life before and they wanna focus on their future. They are more determined on where they are going to and what they want to do.

Perhaps I'm a type of person who easily adjusts my life planning. I know where I'm going to and what I want to do. I just want to feel and appreciate the opportunity that I've now. I know, I can't reach the time that I've set for myself . After got the news one of my friends who are like my brother passed away yesterday, had really2 change my mind.

For now, I would say, I'll be like who am I for last two years. I will work hard for everything that I need to do today because I'm afraid there is no tomorrow for me. I just don't want to spoil other dreams as I've did it for twice. I always being me and I'll be fine.

In fact, truth is hurt though you didn't mean it. Facing the same thing for twice is a difference story. No matter how hard I want to fix it but its end up with the same ending.

p/s: I didn't mean to be a dream spoiler. Because I thought I’m the ones who create dreams for u. I'm sorry for everything.

Sick

Hi all

For today entry, I would like to ask your opinions. Am I toooo paranoid? I don't know. I feel like I'm just taking an early precautions. Perhaps I'm pampering myself to much. .sigh

It's hard to explain my condition right now. It's only easier to talk to my mom because she knows my current health status. huhuhu..Because she's taking care of me since I'm kid. So, when I told her that I'm having a fever or pain at the chest or headache, she'll know what's wrong with me. I'm not doubting the doctor here and I can't put blame on them. It just that, I can't bear with it when they keep saying I'm stress or even yesterday the doctor asked me, why did I going to the clinic sooo frequently.

Fyi, if I'm stress I would get angry easily, get annoyed and I would avoid myself from being in the public. I do agree with the doctors when they said I'm thinking about it too much. What do you expect? You wanna me to faint first? I'm not saying that I'm having a medical background so I know what happened to me. It just that, I need reference and opinion from the doctor.

I think I need to restructure my life and I guess I can't trust and depend on the doctors here. New mission for this semester ( almost end already =P) , I wanna having a better life. As what my buddy said, I need to do some exercises, eat veggie and sleep properly. No more excuses.

p/s: From Him We Come, and To Him We Back

Make Me Strong

Hai ol

Sometimes in life we may lost our faith. The challenges and obstacles of life will make us fall and hardly get up. Someone had told me that, never expect others to do as what u did to them. Meaning to say, if u are being nice and care to others, doesn't mean they will being nice and care for u. But if u did sth wrong or bad to others, definitely they will do sth worst to u as a revenge. That's life. Now I realize what does he means. There is where sincerity comes from. Thats how I learn to be independence. Thanks to him anyway. I start to believe what he said. In this world, we are alone. He taught me to stand on my own feet. Its a credit if someone is supporting u. He told me that, we are brought to this world alone and we left the world alone. Hence, when I feel down or sad, I'll listen to these 3 song which are Make Me Strong and You Came To Me by Sami Yusuf and Insha Allah by Maher Zain. These songs really inspired me and make me close to Him. Because I know. He never abandon me although He can. Only Him know me because He is the One who creates me. He also know how I feel because I cant hide anything from Him. He knows me in and out.

p/s: My Lord show me right from wrong, Give me light make me strong, I know the road is long, Make me strong. Sometimes it just gets too much, I felt that Ive lost touch, I know the road is long, Make me strong.

People

Hai ol

As usual if I've sth to share..I'll be here. So, wat m gonna share today is sth about people around me that I met accidentally or purposely. Lol

M juz realize I was surrounded by the same behavior and type of people. If its not the same, it will be almost the same. Don't you realize it? Dats happened to me. No matter wat, I'll enjoy my life while I've still have the opportunity to have it. Once I've lost it, perhaps m not in this world anymore. Such a waste.

Today is the registration day for the new intake. They are so excited to be here and of coz they have many kind of style (group). One side of the cafe, I can see a group of stylo family. Wit hand bag, high hills, nice cloth n etc. However, they are some other group with low profile style. Which mean, they looks like from a well family but they acting like a normal people. Another group is a group of simple profile family. When I look at them, suddenly the memory of being a foundation students came up. oooohh OMG.

The old me?? huhuhu...=_=" Ive changed a lot.. hehehe.. thx to ol n my environment..

p/s: Luv ur life..Although u don't care about it, there are some people who cares (^_^)v

Pieces of Time

Another year, another chance

To start my lives anew;

This time I’ll leap old barriers

To have a real breakthrough.

I’ll take one little step

And then I'll take one more,

My unlimited potential

I’ll totally explore.

I’ll show off all my talents

Everyone will be inspired;

While I’m writing this,
I’m getting very tired

I’ll read and learn a lot,
All my goals will be accomplished,
Sigh...or maybe not

Looking back on the months gone by,

As a new year starts and an old one ends,

I contemplate what brought my joy,

And I think of my loved ones and my friends.

Recalling all the happy times,

Remembering how they enriched my lives,

I reflect upon who really counts,

As the fresh and bright new year arrives

Let me stand in the thick of the fight,
Let me bear what I must without whining;
Grant me the wisdom to do what is right,
Though a thousand false beacons are shining.

Let me be true as the steel of a blade,
Make me bigger than skillful or clever;
Teach me to cling to my best, unafraid,
And harken to false gospels, never.

Let me be brave when the burden is great,
Faithful when wounded by sorrow;
Teach me, when troubled, with patience to wait
The better and brighter to-morrow.

Spare me from hatred and envy and shame,
Open my eyes to life's beauty;
Let not the glitter of fortune or fame
Blind me to what is my duty.

Let me be true to myself to the end,
Let me stand to my task without whining;
Let me be right as a man, as a friend,
Though a thousand false beacons are shining

At this moment, I was thinking about someone who inspired me in his way. Who challenged my weaknesses. Who suddenly appear after a long break. Who make fun of me when m emotional. Who knows me in and out. U can be a father who nags his daughter. Sometimes u like a brother who protects his sister. U be a lover who cares and loves with no reasons. And u be a good listener as a friend.

p/s: Happy New Year to All. Tears is not a good start. M wonder how will it ends.