Journey to the East

Dear all,

People said, “Experience is the best teacher”. I had a mentoring session today and it was on my request. I feel stress with my works and my working life routine starts to annoy me. I love my jobs and I love with what I’m doing. The thing is that I feel not confident to be in my position now. I made mistakes and most of them are unforgettable silly mistakes. Being someone who really concern on reputation and credibility really challenge my capability. Well, as what my mentor said, experience is not the only ways for me to learn. I can learn through theories and be more analytical. Learn from others.

Besides my works, I do have something to share with you. It may sound funny but when I think about what happened yesterday, it makes me smile by myself. It was freaking tiring to drive for 5 hours and continue the journey for another 6 hours. Well, at least it was a good memory. >.< hehehe. It’s good to hear when someone said, “Ira..just sleep if you want to sleep” and “See~ I told you. You don’t have to struggle. I know you are tired”. When I said sorry and we had a little arguments that someone end up said “ aissshhh~~ sleep first talk later. Sleep. Sleep. Sleep”. When I can’t finish my dinner that someone looks at me, I just smile and said “I’m full”. That someone just shake head and make a troll face. When I said I wanna bungkus the food for breakfast, that someone said “Do you take breakfast?” and make another troll face.

Ok. I should stop smiling and off to bed. Need more energy for tomorrow.

P/s: Even though I can’t have you but at least I can be with you…awwwww sooo sweeeeeettt =P 

Confuse

Dear all,

Lately, I feel stress with my works. Rushing and have to be zero error. Have to change what I'm thinking immediately and everything have to be perfect. So, it affects my emotions and mental. I can't think straight and easily offended or offending people. 

Even a simple thing like certain date on calendar give a significant impact on me. Just now, I watched a movie about falling in love after marriage. Can you imagine I cried while watching the movie. Funny right? Well, it's not a sad ending but the way the writer write the story, the actor and actress act on it had touched me. Honestly, that's my dream marriage life. I know it sounds like fairytale and novel but I love to be treated as per in the movie. Get to know and learnt about each other. Flirting with your husband/wife without feeling guilty of sins. To be honest, while I'm watching the movie, there's only one person in my mind. The person is you. 

p/s: My life getting funny, the day became sunny, my eyes became watery and it will embrace in my memories

You can do more..can you?

Dear all,

Finally here I am. I keep telling myself to update my blog  - too much to tell but too little time I have. There's a lot of thing happened which involved with my feeling. Yeaaa right~ being a Pisces you cant run from being emotional and dreamy. What can I conclude from what happened to me is do I have option to do more than what I'm supposed to do? Do I have right for that? Am I allowed to do so? 

First, as a friend, do you have right to bother and care too much about your friend? There's a boundaries from being a friend and special one. Even though you can give more but you should know the limits. Once you cross the limits, then that's it. For me, the limits is subjective and depends on the people themselves. It may be the limits for you but not for me. Agree? 

Second, as a team in one department, you'll supporting each other. Sometimes they may need your help to provide them with some info or guidance BUT you are not supposed to do the job for them. We have our own job description and KPI to meet. Honestly, it's hard to neglect the request but we should have clearer picture on what we are supposed to do. For me, I don't mind to do more than what I'm supposed to do. As long as I am happy with it. 

When we care about someone or something, we tend to be like busybody. Tonight, I got it straight to my face and it woke me up. Along this while, I keep care and do more than what I'm supposed to do. When someone look sad, I'll ask him/her what happened. When someone sick, I'll get medicine or at least show some care. When someone happy, we share the happiness. Then suddenly tonight, someone told me that " if he/she doesn't ever tell you what is his/her problem, why should you think about it?" Honestly, being me, when I decided to care about someone, I will care about him/her regardless who they are. I will try my best to do everything for them regardless the limits. But what happened tonight really wakes me up. Not everyone happy with what I do. If he is my friend, I should treat him as a friend. If that's their job, should let them do it. 

When it comes to heartbroken or relationship, I became so sensitive. It just that, someone hurt me. I knew the feeling of being hurt. I don't want to look at how painful it is to my love one. However, if being hurt is the best way for them, what can I do? The best I can do is being there when they in need. 

p/s: Happiness and Sadness is essential in our life. Problems bring me down, Support bring me up, God keep me going.