Hold My Hand

weeeee~~ hye ol!! I knew u misz me..ahaks..here I am..M back..weeee~~ (^_^)v

Ermmm u know wat?? Diz year Ramadhan is the best Ramadhan I ever had. Though tmr is 21st of Ramadhan n we still have another 9 day to go BUT its really2 meaningful to me. Everything is difference. Starting from 1st of Ramadhan until today. I wont regret if diz is my last Ramadhan.

I wanna share wit u about my activity during last weekend. As stated in my fb status, m off to Kampung Redang Punggor, Teluk Intan. I was involved with RECMO-9. It was a great experience I ever had. It is a home-stay program. Can u imagine how do I look like??? M kinna person who hard to mix wit other ppl. I didnt speak much. Sooo~~ wat do u think?? Naaaaa~~ u r wrong..hahaha.. I can make myself feel comfortable there. Ermmm enaf wit it n lets go deep into sth dat may touch ur heart.

In my adopted family's house, my adopted father taking care of her mother. He has maid. His maid will help him. His mother is having a strok. When I look at her, she's remind me of my own grandmother. When I look at her I can see dat she is lonely and wanna share many things but she cant. The most hardest thing is, she is crying when we say we wanna go back. She's not screaming but we can see her eyes is full of tears n drop through her chicks. When I look at her make me think of sth. How will she be if no 1 is taking care of her?? Look. She's fully depends on other ppl. Eat, bath, everythng. Lets say ppl didnt give her food than wat happn?? M wonder, how will I be if m in her place?

During the module I've 1 group members from the villagers. She is nice. She has a fair skin n gentle. She's humble n she has almost every single thing dat malay gurlz should have. However she juz went to school until she is 14 years old bcoz of health problem. She is difference. Her younger sister is taking care of her. She doesnt acts as her age. U get wat I meant?? I didnt ask much about her past but m juz proud of her. ermm..Sth dat touch my heart is during 1 module called " Impianku". She has a wonderful dream.

During the module also I was touched by the kids's dream. One of them wanna be a motor cross racer. He draws the picture of motorcycle. I still remember how does it looks like. Another one, he draws a picture of a man inside of sampan n he is fishing. U know wat he told us?? He said dat " It was the best thing I wanna do bcoz it is my hobby. My late father bring me to go for fishing".

During closing ceremony I be the MC...hahaha...Ok fine dats not the point actually. RECMO gave the orphanage some donation. I feel touch when look at them BUT ive to contrl myself. (Dont wanna be an emotional MC..hahaha). They look so happy. Its hard to say in words but it was a beautiful moment.

We go to 30 August. ermm wat hppnd?? I was involved wit International Iftar. My frenz from Independence Day invited Orphanage and Poor. Again!!! M crying in front of the VIP. Ok fine! m the PnP gurl..hahaha..I asked my colleague to replace me for a while. I ate wit the orphanage. They asked me (in malay) " Sis, lets come to our house n make some activity". waaaa~~~ tacing2..huhuhu.. I dunno. I cant look into their eyes. I feel sad.

As conclusion, I juz wanna share wit u one song sing by Maher Zain entitled Hold My Hand. Hope, my story will make u realize about ur kind heart. Quoted from the Song " We Share The Same Bright Sun The Same Round Moon Why Dont We Share The Same Love"

p/s: Love others as how u love urself

Ethics

Hye ol !!!

Feel like wanna share sth. I guess I found answers for my questions in my class..Yeaaa rite..seems like m applying wat I learnt in class into my life rather than onto a piece of paper (exam). hehehe. U know me rite?? Speak less Think More (^_^).

M taking Corporate Ethics. Supposedly m applying ol theories dat I learnt into business but it seems like suite my life bttr =_=" hahahaha..Though I juz learnt 3 theory of ethics, but I like it. Yeaaa~~ its a dry subject but interesting.

Juz wanna share a few points from my class. Ive learnt 2 theory of ethics: Kantian and Utilitarian. In order to classify them depend on 2 things: look at the consequences or look at the action itself. For both theory have difference perspective. Kantian think about others n not ourself but utilitarian think about ourself n how it effect others. I owez asking around, do we should be selfish? This theory answered my question.

For Kantian it has 2 view point: put ourself in shoes of receiver and never treats other ppls as a means but as an end. This apply to high level of organization. M sorry but no offense. This only wat I think n m not totally rite. You may have ur own views. Sometimes, ppl at the top didn't understand ppl at the bottom. Get wat I meant? Its true bos / superior can give instructions to employee/ subordinate. However, do u realize the way u give and instruction?? U r saying like they r ur slave. C'mon~~ Instruction, Order, Ask and Begging is diff. Can't u differentiate it?

Lastly, Theory of Right. It has a lot of points but m juz wanna focus on Aristotle's Theory of Virtue Right. Wat is virtue?? It meant character trait that manifest itself in habitual action. We cant change in a blink of eyes. It takes time. Dont expect ppl may change as wat u wanna them to be. No one is perfect neither me. Dats wat m telling u now. We cant force love and attitude but we can nurture them. We cant expect ppl to love us in a minute..Hellooooo~~ its not a fairy tale okeyh~~hahahaha..Same goes to attitude. Another point, he said dat, we should determine moderate character. Diz answered my question " How to differentiate between arrogant and courage?" The answer is, if u r tooooo courage, u r arrogant. If u r not courage u r coward. Be moderate by juz being courage.

Enaaafff!!!toooo many theories in the early of the day....hahahaha..ok fine..I stop here...

p/s: I found it is a nice says " We can juz bring the horse to the river BUT we cant force the horse to drink". Wat I think is, we don't know whether the horse is thirsty or not. So, y should we bring it there? Yeaa we cant force it. If it didnt thirsty, y should it drink?? rite?? Y must blaming the horse?? U should know the horse bttr. Whether it thirsty or not. Know it bttr..

Attention!!!

Sir Yes Sir!!!

hehehe...Hye ol!!

Sometimes I wish I can go to some place where no one know me..Give me a break plz~~ need my space...It was okeyh if ppl juz smile n wave. I hate catching ppl eyes.. I prefer a low profile act but high profile personal..get my point??

M kinna secretive. Hard for me to share sth personal. U know y?? Bcoz I dont wanna let ppl know my weaknesses coz dat may effect me in term of life.

p/s: Really hate the situation when ppl talk behind my back...

Speak Through Pictures

I May Look Like Diz b4

But Then I Realize

No Matter Wat.. Keep

Coz U Look

If U Didn't

p/s: Pictures tell everything

A Stupid Tree

Hye Ol!!

Wanna share wit u a story about a tree. A Stupid Tree.

Hello there. My name is Mr. Trunk. M a tree. I was planted at the garden. It was a nice and cool garden. Its really comfortable to be here. With the green scenery, birds singing beautiful melody and the sounds of water are flowing from the river.Its nice rite?? Hang on. Dats not the end yet. I was pampered by the human. They really take care of me. They know wat they should do when falls, autumn, spring and summer. Enaf water, enaf supplement and even I was given a treatment when I was affected by the disease / virus.

However, that's the old story. I was moved to somewhere else. Some place that I never imagine of. The place is more or less like previous garden but its not the same. Yea.. There is river flowing, birds, winds but its not the same. Sooo based on human laws, we've to adapt ourself with the environment instead of keep complaining2 n complaining. Hence, here I am. I try to adapt with the new environment.

Time goes by and m getting used with the environment. Howeva, m kinna misz my previous garden. I keep moving on in the new garden. U know wat Ive learnt a lot in a new garden.

I used to help ppl. Dats my purpose. I used to be the shelter, the place for them to take a nap, for kids to climb up and fall down. Without they realize, m the one who hold the land from sliding. Dats me. M happy when ppls are happy. Dats my nature. I breath in carbon dioxide ( acidic but not tooo acidic) n release oxygen for ppls. I take the bad n release the good. Dats me.

Howeva, sometimes ppl dont realize when I need them. I didnt blame them. I juz blame myself. I feel afraid to ask them. I know they will help me by ol meants but I didnt tell them. Ive my own reasons for diz. M kinna sad. Though m strong but as follow to the laws of creation, I do have disadvantages. Sometimes I feel weak. I feel sad.

One day, drought occurred. I asked ppl for water. M crying. I feel weak. They didnt listen to me. Coz m juz asking them from inside of my heart. I keep silent n still standing there as usual. Supporting and helping ppls. As time goes by, m getting weak n weaker. M hoping they will give me some water. I keep hoping and hoping until I became hopeless.

M asking around. " Hey Miss Windy, can u give me some water??" no response. " Hey Mr. Cloud, can u give me some water??" no response. Suddenly come little gurlz and said to herself " Pity diz tree. Its dry. It needs water." Then she took out a bottle of water n shower me with the water. I feel bttr n touch wit the kid.

As time goes by, m getting weaker n weaker. And finally I...

p/s: Used ur imagination to think wat will hppn next to the Mr. Trunk.

Alphabets

I miss U. I cant find U. I try my best to look for U. I go high up N low down. But still I didn't C U. Then I wonder Y. M here but U there.Sth pop up in my mind. Then I realize N say "oooo". I luv U.

Weeeee~~~ dats ol for today. We had learnt alphabets. We had learnt C, I, M,N, O, U, Y.

p/s: Missing You...Hopefully u r fine there... I got so many things wanna share wit u.

Smile (^_^)v

Hye Ol!!!

Juz wanna share wit u sth. Juz now I feel hard to breath. Feel like drowning. Yeaaa its normal n m getting used with it. 1st sign, I'll having headache for a few days. Lost my appetite. Then here it comes. As I don't have any medicine for it, so I decided to go to the lake to take some fresh air. I went there by car then I juz sit inside my car n watched the view. The story begins.

1st I saw 1 group of family. Father, Mother, and 3 children. They were playing ball n boomerang. The eldest playing by herself. The 2nd child playing with her dad n the youngest playing with her mom. I can hear they were laughing esp the youngest. She laughed while running. What a happy family.

Then I saw another group of family. Father, Mother and 1 kid. M not sure whether she or he..hahahaha..The kid is trying to walk as fun as the mother. huhuhuhu..Then the father show his hand n automatically the kid open his/her arm. Then the father hug the kid while walking with the mom. Niceeee~~

2nd I saw a group of frenz. Around 4 gurlz n 1 man. They were playing a green small ball. They kicked the ball here n there. They were laughing. Suddenly 1 of them fall down n every1 were laughing. Me toooo~~~ hahahaha..

3rd I saw a couple playing a kite. Soooo shuuuweeett~~hehehe.. Though it looks stupid running here n there, playing a kite not in a windy day, but it was fun. Can u imagine, they were running ol over the field juz to fly a kite?? Siyesly it was funny. I juz smiling alone inside the car.

Here I juz wanna u to realize dat, simple things can make u smile. U dont have to put any effort to smile n laugh. Like a group of frenz juz now, they juz need a small ball to laugh. The kids juz need a hug to smile. The children juz running then they were laughing. Looking at them make me feel bttr.

Then I realized. Although they are some ppls who dont wanna see us happy BUT we should know dat, they r still some ppls who wanna see our smile.

p/s: I feel bttr now though still hard to breath

Sleepy

Hye ol!!

I juz woke up from sleep. I dunno y I feel sooo sleepy n tired today.I think everything went well today. Though in the morning some1 took my breakfast at the cafe. Then I missed my appointment with lecture. Got headache in the afternoon. M having my brunch + dinner at 4pm. Sigh~~~

Ok guys..I wanna go to bed again. Hopefully everything will getting bttr tmr.

p/s: M sorry if it makes u annoyed coz m toooooo concern about u. It juz who I am.

Respect

Hye Ol!!!

1st thing 1st, I wanna warn u guys about my post today coz its quite emo...

M juz feel bad or bttr I put it as upset when some1 look down on woman / gurlz. M not saying dat m a gender basis ppl but at least you should pay some respect on us. Its not fair when u announced in ur class saying dat " guys..I hope u bttr watch out coz gurlz owez find u to do programming stuff". I dunno whether he wanna warns us or he wanna challenges us.

Yeaaa I know dat m not a good programmer. Yeaa I admit it. Since I was in foundy I never give up to give a try on programming. Somehow, I feel dat I should stop. BUT I cant do dat. Can u imagine how I feel?? How depressed I am?? Ppl who r good in programming can simply type everything, compile then run. As for me, Ive to start from the beginner level. When I heard from my frenz dat some1 give the above statement, somehow I feel like diz is not my line. I shouldnt be here.

I dunno. Is it the way he wanna motivate us. I dunno. Ive no choice. Wat I gotta do now is, pay attention and work on it. Let me tell u sth. I wanna prove to him dat yeaaa m bad. But m not the worst. Or at least m not dat bad.

p/s: he owes me a smile. U know y?? Coz I cant even smile to my hubby.. =(

Salt

Hye ol!!

Yesterday my hubby ask me.."do u wanna watch salt(he used malay words)" Then I replied " everyday I watch salt coz I've one desk lamp made up of salt"huhuhu..I juz dunno wat does he meant by salt. I sound silly =_=" hahahaha...Then he laughed n said " dat is the title of movie dear". OMG. Yeaaaaa fineee~~ m not updating myself wit the latest movie.

Then we went for midnite movie.. yeeeppyyyy!!!! finally~~~ we got time together..hehehehe..lalalalalala~~~ we discuss about us on our way there n back to campus..I feel sad for 1 whole weeks. I feel bttr now..

Thank You!!!! hehehe

p/s: get to know n learnt