Steps by Steps

Dear All,


Hellooooooooo to new semester and bye bye to January Semester. So far, everything run smoothly and slow =I . So this semester gonna be my last semester in UTP (hope so =D). I'll be having my convocation day on 21st October 2012. So, I wanna keep my strength to throw "the hat" as high as possible cause it pays and shows how much fun I had through out my life in UTP (#honestly speaking). From FA couple =P to Mamak gang to Event gang and hello bye gang. hehe..


Tell you what, even though this semester is my last semester in UTP but I feel like it is tougher than my previous semester. Why?? Jeng Jeng Jeng...cause bla bla bla.. anyway..thanks to my FA couple for your time and effort. It really means a lot to me. So, this semester I need to keep strong as how my FA couple is. Of course, throughout the journey, tears gonna flowing like waterfall T.T but I take it as my foundation or base for me to float. erk!! =_=" (#rounded people floating easily).  So people, pray for me. I can make it through for 7 month, why not this 4 month... Right?? Yea, perhaps I can say, now the factors are different like distance, time, money but will think about it later. I need to distract myself and get myself back as soon as possible. 


In fact, it is tiring to cry and stop continuously while you feel better after cried and will cry again in few minutes. Its not that I don't stop myself from crying but I just can't bare with it inside. The easiest way is, let it flow whenever it feels like flowing. Like korean said " Ottoke!!" hahaha Crying Machine. 


Lastly, to whom it may concern..please take care of yourself. I'm struggling really really hard to get better as soon as possible so it won't become your burden any more. I know that you'll get annoyed soon but I hope you can bare with me for few more weeks. At least until when I feel like I'm stable and busy. I'll make myself as busy as possible and will try my best to feel better. I'm really looking forward to have couples of visit to your place later. 


p/s: crying doesn't meant your are weak but giving some space for yourself to express your real feeling while gathering strength to bounce back 

If that is Allah will, He will show you with regard nothing can stop Him

Hello everyone,

This week is a heavy week for me. I don't know how to start. What can I say, it taught me a lot. From friendship, love, betrayal, trust, respect and honesty. The hardest part is about memories. It is a bad memories. I feel burden. I feel uncomfortable. I feel hatred. I feel mad. Feel shame. Feel wanna cry all day long non stop. The worst part is feel of betrayed. However, at the same, I feel what happened is a give or sign from Allah. If we try to re-look at the incident back, it is properly plan and executed wonderfully. The hurt, the tears, the hatred are part of the memory.

I am not a type of person who can easily forget what had happened. Either it is a good or vice versa, I will remember every single things about it. From the text, the idea, the moment, the time, the doer, and the discussion of course. It is a painful memory that teach me on how to handle things in the future. I do admit, no one perfect. However, I do believe, people can change. Chances are always there for people to grab. BUT, hopefully, and please use the chance properly and wisely.

When we talk about marriage. Honestly I cant wait for that moment. BUT I have dreams that I aimed to achieve. I wanna prepare myself to be a good muslim, mother and wife. For me, marriage is not only about make "that" relationship halal. It comes with responsibilities. Can I wake up before him? Can I be patient in case I didn't get what I want? Can I understand his situation when he can't meet my expectation? Can I be his makmum? Can I stop from thinking something stupid and crying all night long? Can I feel happy with his weaknesses? Can I calmly said I'm angry or mad at him and can't accept what he did? Can I love him until end of my life without regret it for the rest of my life? Can I stop bring back the painful, unforgettably memory when we fight with each other? Can I be patient when we fight with each other? Can I accept him as how he is and be in love with him with no reasons until end of my life? Can I respect him and listen to him? Can I accept the fact when he leaves me and this world? Can I be with him until Jannah? Can I?

When we talk about friendship, I do appreciate my friends whom I consider as mine. Sad and happy memory we share. The up and downs we go through it together. I do admit, I'm not totally a good friends for people to have. BUT I'm trying my best to give the best as a friend. I don't have many friends because as for me, I do only care for those who really care about me. That's why, I feel hard to loose a friend. Once I decided to break him / her from my circles, then that's it. People come and go as how they want it. Besides my parents and sister, I just have friends here that will support me and be with me when I'm in need. I didn't expect much from a friend. Just a simple care and love is sufficient for me to be strong and get through the problems. When I feel lost and crazy, I need a friend who can grab me and bring me back to the real world. When I feel sad or wanna cry, I need a friend who can lend her shoulder for me to cry on and a couple of hand to hug me, make me feel warm. When I feel happy, I need a friend who can crazily jump like a monkey with me. When I feel sick, I need a friend who can pray for me to get well soon. When I feel burden, I need a friend who I can share the burden with. When I feel blur, I need a friend to explain and give me opinions. This are the definition of friends in my life.

So peps, please, I'm begging and reminding you. Please3~~ don't ever2 hurt your love one and friends. Appreciate them. Because the painful is hardly to describe but the scars can be severe. However, the feel of hatred and angry are the burden that you will bring all the way of your life. What for right? Left it behind. Move on and let it go. Its hard though but no harm if we try.

p/s: pray for me

Compliment

Dear all,

Have you ever wonder how do people feel after been compliment by someone? Happy? Touch? Upset? Sad? Angry? Let me tell you a story.

Once upon a time, there was a low profile, lame and unorganised girl. What in her mind is, she doesn't care what people might think about her so long as she feels comfortable with herself. She was surrounded with beautiful girls. It drove her to be one. However, as time goes by she gave up. This is because no matter what she did, she will end up makes herself look stupid and embarrassed herself.

Her best friend is one of the most popular girls in school. To be honest, it’s been hard to her. Of course, she feels jealous but friendship is more important than beauty. She kept it inside without letting her friend know about it.

After a while, this girl felt in love with someone so called "retired womanizer". As a successful womanizer, of course he was surrounded with tremendous beautiful girl. It makes her felt so insecure. The worst part is, in rank 1 -10 she just gets 6 to 7. Means, she’s not even pretty in his eyes. It is more than enough to make her unmotivated.

Since that day, she always looks at beautiful girl and say, hey that girl is beautiful. In fact, she’s actually saying, I’m not like them. She love attention and always wants to be the centre of attraction. She loves when someone said she has nice cloth, look different when she put on makeup, looks this and that.

Her boyfriend (her boys buddy) never said anything about her appearance exept condemning her. Again, she feels down and less motivated. She did watch a video about beauty. In the video stated that, beauty is abstract. We can’t define beauty. But still she needs a compliment.

Recently, she met a guy. Actually she knows about him long time ago but never talk to each other. He is retired womanizer, sweet talker, handsome and gentleman. To be honest, being compliment by him is something that she never thought. Hellooo~~ you are being compliment by womanizer ok! LOL.

Tell you what, even though it is a lie but at least in some way, it makes her feel better and appreciated. By saying, you are not beautiful but cute in your own way is enough to make her smile all day. Instead of saying pretty rather than beautiful is unique in a sense of appreciating the girl existence. To the man who has complemented her, thank you so much. I know you are lying but at least I’m happy to see her smile and get blushing.

p/s: I am beautiful as the way I am ^_^

Patience

Dear all,

I am sooooooo happy and I don't know how to express it. Alhamdullilah I got 4.00 for my internship!!! The flat four (4 flat). hahaha.. I screamed out loud when I know my result. The thing is I got a dream that I will get either B+ or A-. That’s why I am so nervous to wait for the result. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! Still wanna scream now LOL

I know its sounds silly to be happy about it but for me it is something that I should be proud of. C’mon! 4 years studying in UTP and never get DL award. Suddenly I get 4 flat. It does really help me a lot.

Alhamdullilah. The tears, anger, stress and sadness are paid with the good result. I would like to thank to those who are always supporting and help me through my internship. It’s pretty hard though. However, with your support and guidance, I manage to get through it.

So peeps, what can I say, in whatever things you do, be strong and patience. He has a better plan for you. If you didn’t get the pay right here right now, do believe you will get the pay later. And if someone makes you feel bad, mad or sad, do believe it’s not your job to punish him/her. Let them be. Forgive them. He will arrange something bigger for you to teach them.

p/s: Human interaction is like nail and walls.

What Do People Mean by Be Yourself?

Hai all!

How's thing going? I would like to ask your opinion. Have you heard people said to you " c,mon! be yourself. Everythings gonna be fine". What do you think about those words?

For me personally its hard to be myself. hehehe why? Coz I keep looking at others and said "Why I cant be like them?" Look at it in good perspective, its good for our bettermen. But what if the other way round? It tends to make us not thankful with what we have.

Take it this way. If you are trying to look beautiful while you are not, it makes you look horible. If you are trying to get attention while you are not the centre of attraction, it makes you look desperate. Lets combine both! You look horrible and desperate..tadaaaa! magic...hahahaha..Just feel like playing with words tonight.

So people, the points are; be yourself and be happy with it. Because you look stupid when you try to be like others..hehehe and such a pitiful when he doesnt notice it...

p/s: its been hard sometimes. wish you know this =D

Congratulation =D

Hai everyone! Say cheeseeee =D

Im officially announce that I wanna get married! teeeeet! Absolutely not. hehe. I would like to tell you that Im done with my internship. Yeay! I had learnt lots in 7 month. Of course its nothing much about my studies but I do learnt about life experience.

So, after this Im back to student lifestyle. BUT. I wanna make it more interesting rather than just test, quiz, exam, project and assigment. ermm one of the reason why is because errrr because errrr on June Semester errrr hehehe dont wanna tell you =D

Thank you for your moral support ( listen for my complaints, etc), comments, opinion, care and help. Congratulations peoples!

p/s: Ending of Something is The Beginning of Another Things

Super Eira ^_^

Hai all!

Im back...hehehe..I thought I wanna update my blog once I reach my room but something wrong with my account and it fixed around 9 sth. Then I watched variety show "Running Man" till now. So what happened today? Let me begin with a few scenes occured today.

Scene 1: A married couple with one kid (Ah Boy). Both (husband and wife) are blind and the kid is not. Imagine inside the bus, the kid sit on the end left, mom in the middle and dad on the right. How do they communicate? Through sense and touch. Mom passed the junk food to dad without knowing where is his hand but imazingly, the food didnt fall of even a single of it. I cant imagine the boy bring his parent from the bus terminal to their destination. He is approximately 10 or 11 years old. I am amaze with them espeacially their relationship and bonding.

Scene 2: An old man approximately 60++ years old inside the STAR. Looking around with unsure face. Asking a girl " Adik, do I need to change to another STAR to go to Puduraya?" The girl " No need uncle. Just stay here. That one going to Ampang". The old man" ooo.That day I need to transfer to another LRT." The girl smile. Once reach the station, the old man just sit. The girl told the old man, he needs to take off from this station. The old man hurried and left the LRT.

Scene 3: A lady approximately late 50 outside of Masjid Jamek LRT station. Trying look around and finding someone to ask for help. Suddenly " Adik, which way to go to LRT?" The girl " Which LRT?" The lady " Kelana Jaya". The girl, " ooo im heading there too. Just follow me and I'll show you". Smiled. They crossed the road and the lady said" This way is it? Its ok I go first". The girl let her go by herself. Guess what? The lady queaue at the worng counter. The girl called her and said its not that way. She shows her the right way. She thank her and said this is the first time for her.

Scene 4: In front of Putra LRT door. While waiting for the LRT, a man approximately 40 sth approached the girl. He asked " Adik, which way is going to Setiawangsa". The girl said " this way". Smiled.

Scene 5: 2 young couple. One couple approximately 20 sth and other one approximately 30 sth. Now we focus on the 1st couple. They are sitting.The girl leaning her head on the guy shoulder. Without a word, the guy's hand hug her from behind and the other hand holding each other. Feel soo comfort. Now we talk about 2nd couple. They are also sitting. The girl didnt talk much. They guy tease her, make jokes, and they laugh. I would say, they are playing around. Haha..

Lesson Learnt:
1. He had a better plan for us. We can plan but doesnt ensure its gonna work
2. When we love someone:
- We dont need to see them
- We dont need their shoulder
- We dont need to have them all around
It is because
- We use our heart to feel / sense their love, not by our eyes
- We use their strength to keep motivated and be strong
- We will always feel their presence eventhough they are not near
3. In life, they are peoples who are willingly help others with no reason. Find them!
4. Sometimes we cant see our partner, cant cry on his/her shoulder, cant be with him/her. Let's think about it. Why do you need your partner? For his/her eyes? shoulder? Mouth? We are made to complement each other. They cant be around 24 hours. Because they are your 911.Operating 24 hours. Be there asap when you need them but not always there with you =D

p/s: simply share my thoughts. Inpire by the blind and young couple, a lady and the old man.

Mission

Mission : Complete the progress report and sleep
Mission's Status : 95% completed and cannot sleep
Current status : Dangerous. May lead to tears eruptions
Agent's status : Emotionally injured
Causes : Eyes and Heart attack
Victim : SNZ
Strategy : Launching self - reflection application and press the self-control button

Time reporting 4.40 am in agent's secrete room.

p/s: Pretending like I dont know. Im respecting yours as someone's and please do respect mine as someone's.

^_^

Hai All,

Being someone who live in her own imagination life is not that bad either. Why? Because her imagination can make her happy eventhough its not real. BUT! There is a big BUT there. When the truth appear, it smash on her face until she can't get up.

A said that, " u watched movie too much. Its just a movie, not reality" . I do admit that sometimes when I watch a movie, I did smile by myself, imagining it happens to me and I even cry myself, imagining what if it happens to me.

So, lets ask yourself. When is the last time you imagining things? Is it during primary school? or earlier than that. I do not feel ashame to admit that I still have my own imaginary friends. Who are they? Of course, my bear2 in my room.

p/s: Be happy no matter how hard it will be. Cheers! =D

People

Hai ol

As usual if I've sth to share..I'll be here. So, wat m gonna share today is sth about people around me that I met accidentally or purposely. Lol

M juz realize I was surrounded by the same behavior and type of people. If its not the same, it will be almost the same. Don't you realize it? Dats happened to me. No matter wat, I'll enjoy my life while I've still have the opportunity to have it. Once I've lost it, perhaps m not in this world anymore. Such a waste.

Today is the registration day for the new intake. They are so excited to be here and of coz they have many kind of style (group). One side of the cafe, I can see a group of stylo family. Wit hand bag, high hills, nice cloth n etc. However, they are some other group with low profile style. Which mean, they looks like from a well family but they acting like a normal people. Another group is a group of simple profile family. When I look at them, suddenly the memory of being a foundation students came up. oooohh OMG.

The old me?? huhuhu...=_=" Ive changed a lot.. hehehe.. thx to ol n my environment..

p/s: Luv ur life..Although u don't care about it, there are some people who cares (^_^)v

Seasons

Hai all

~~We had joy We had fun We had seasons in the season But the hills that we climbed Were just season out of time~~ oryte.. m gonna stop here coz dont wanna expose the best talent that I've. kui3 =)

Here I would like to share my views on certain issue. M juz wonder, are human being are bond with the season too? I mean, does people also has season? or we can say people are up to date? I dunno but based on my own observation, most of the people are following others or talking about the same things on certain particular range of time.

Lets me get straight to the point. Look! People only talk and discuss about it when it is a hot issues on that particular time. When another story arise, the previous issues was left behind. Did u realize it? For example, issues of Afghanistan, issues of mavi marmara, issues of badminton, story of FIFA, and story of lost kids. The newest issues now is about football match between Indonesia and Malaysia and double decker bus accident. Believe me, they will be left behind once there are another story arise.

What can I say, people dont have their stand. Oryte. I know people need to be up to date but do u have to follows others? I dunno. Wat can I say, people behavior n interest are like waves of the ocean. It keep smashing the beach and makes a peaceful sound. Did u realize, it changes the structure of the beach?? Dats how peoples are. They create a waves which good for certain parties like reporters, sellers, and etc. But it wont be long and the waves had change the community. It would be fine if changing to the betterment but what if it happens vice versa??

Here I would like to ask u to think. Are u up to date bcoz of following others or bcoz u are really into that issues? As for me, I would like to learn n know as many things as I could bcoz I hate a situation where people are playing around with me. The situation I hate the most is when people make me feel and look stupid in front of the others. Here she comes. The egoist gurl!! =P

p/s: Its good to be up to date BUT why should u left the history. People may see u as an expert in ur field BUT u should know, there are peoples who see u as noob in their field. Hence, learn as many things as u can while u have afford to do it.

pss: Congrats to Malaysian football team for the games. M not congrats u bcoz u guys had won the game but m congrats u for the great games and afford that u shows. To all Malaysian sportsmen n sportswomen, keep moving forward and strive for excellent. No matter wat happened, juz ignore the public. They are proud to see u won but they are too shame to accept ur loose. Dats how people is.

Salam Ma'al Hijrah

Hai...

I would like to wish ol muslim around the world, Salam Ma'al Hijrah (Let's Change). Its a new year for us. We had move to a new year. Wat we had went through take them as lessons, wat we'll go through take them as challenges. Wat does awal muharram ( 1st day in 1st month of muslim calendar) mean to u?? For me, it brings a lot of meaning.

As we look from history of Prophet Muhammad, he had move from Mekkah to Madinah on this day. He had made a lot of sacrificies. He had tried his best to ensure Islam is delivered to us n to our next generation until the last day. As I live for about 19 years, m still thinking, wat had I done to repay him? To show how appeciate I am for his effort?

Later, I would like to share a poem. M sooo sorry coz the poem was in Malay ( plan to translate it to English but afraid it may sound funny). Last but not least, salam awal muharram to ol. Wish u to strive for the bettermen. Dont forget to recite the Doa' for early and end of the year.

p/s: Perhaps I wouldn't diz worry if I dream about u once. The problem is, I dream about u twice in a row and both is a nightmare. (^_^)v

Lesson From A Bird

Hye~

Kinda weird coz m updating my blog during a day. Ermmm m juz can't wait to share diz story. The story begin when I was walking towards IRC. While arguing (debating actually..lol) with him, suddenly a black, small and red eyes bird appear. Weird ah??

Nthng special about the bird actually but the bird had teach me sth. The bird's wing injured and it cannot fly. It try to fly but keep falling down. It looks funny when the bird fall on its head but its must be soooo hurtful. It keeps trying and keep falling. U know wat?? Although it can't fly, but it jumps bit by bit and try to fly. Still it keeps falling down. U mustn't believe it but yess, it makes a move. It moves from one point to another n its quite far.

Sooo~~wat can u learn from that little bird?? Although u can't go high up or score as much as other but at least u've to try ur best to be better from the previous u . Can u imagine wat will happen to that little bird if it didn't try to fly or even jump?? It can't go anywhere or even worse, it will die there. Another thing is, juz wanna let u know that, its hurtful when u wanna try to help but u don't know how to. Its so sad to juz look at it keep falling and trying but u cannot do anything.

That's all from me. I hope this story will make u think.

p/s: a motivational story during an exam week..ah?? m I high motivated enaf?? naaaa~~

Crazy

Owh...U've made my day..u drive me crazy..bcoz of u, my day start at nite..bcoz of u had made my life even more complicated...it was soooooo nice of u...my life turn up side down. Everything jumble up juz bcoz of u..

Juz one more thing. I wanna let u know, no matter how nice and sweet u r, u owe me! Fine I will let u control me diz time. Fine u win! M back of. Remember diz, dont get tooo happy tooo sooon. Juz wait until the exam week. I will teach u a lesson.

p/s: its not for anyone.

Kids

Fuuuuuuuuhh~~~ looks like my blog kinna dusty....hahahahaha...sooo how was thing's going on?? getting bttr?? worst?? or nth much diff???

Wanna ask u guys..wat is the most interesting facilities at my campus??? yeaaa rite...lab, full equip wit high tech machine, wat else?? Beautiful garden scenery..relax n peaceful environment..wat else?? ermm did u ever thing about lift??? aaaaa~~ dats wat m going to share with u....

I spent my last weekend with 24 kids from somewhere around here. It was a superbly great experience. For those who know me, they know dat I didn’t really know how to handle kids. M kinna serious n strict. No wonder I was well-known as a “akak yang garang (fierce sister)” by the kids there.

To bring them here, we’ve to get their parents’ permission. So there we are gathering parent’s permission. 5 of us were responsible for dat. Can u imagine how xcted the kids are?? They r following us here n there juz to make sure their name are in the list. They wanna come to my campus.

We went to each n every house n gets the permission. There is a hope in their eyes dat they can join us. However, there is one boy whose his name is not in the list. He keeps following us. We keep saying we can’t bring him. At the end of the day, he frustrated n start to act weirdly (he is trying to get our attention). He is hurting himself. The things getting worst when his frenz laughing and teasing at him. Soooo, to make things clear I go to him n xplain. Finally he starts to cry. For the 1^st time ever m wiping some1 tears. I dunno how to make u guys understand how did I feel but wat can I say, I feel like wanna cry.

After discussed with my colleague, we decided to take the boy to join us. I went to his house. He is not come from the high level of family. He has a simple house. The way he welcomes me to his house is not like most of ppl dat I knew. He respects me n welcoming me warmly to his house. The things make me feel worst when his mom asked me to fill up the permission form for her. Perhaps the form is complicated to be understood. Sooo, dats how the family is. His mom apologize me coz didn’t serve me anything n even she say thank you soooo many time coz m visiting their house. Perhaps they r poor in wealth but they r rich wit humanities.

So, last weekend the kids came here to my campus. The experience handling them is sth dat I can’t get from books. Now I understand why they are acting such way. Thank God they didn’t swim at the lake or catching the fish by their hand. If not, wat should I answer to their parents??? I still remember one of the mother ask me to take care of her boy. She said “I can allow my son but u please takes care of my son”. OMG. I feel like it’s a heavy responsibility for me. I’ve to care 24 kids which meant 24 responsibilities. Ooooo myyyy!!!~~~

Soooo we had sooo much fun here..We played n watched movie together. M juz wonder. When ppl getting older, they r getting more serious. They said they wanna be more matured. Is it so?? Matured ppl cant have fun?? Really?? I dunno. Personally, I luv being a kid. Obviously I came from a pampered family sooo I luv attention from some1 dat I luv. Hang on!! I luv when ppl giving me his attention but only from some particular ppl only. Helllooooo~~ I hate paparazzi okeyh~~!!

As a conclusion, doing charity jobs had stabilized my life. I wanna be in a corporate (high class/ versatile) lifestyle but I still didn’t forget where did I came from.

p/s: no matter how high u fly, never forget the roots. No matter how fast u runs, never forget to walk.

Holiday

Hye ol!!

Weeee~~ tmr m going back to Johor.. nice ah?? Cant wait for it!!! siyesly!!! hehehe I misz the moment when ppl care about me. Scold me when I didnt eat. Warn me when I sleep late. Nag at me when m down. Obviously, teasing me when I woke up late. Opsss~~ bad habit..hehehe..

Ermm..I didnt pack my stuff yet.Perhaps later. aaaaa~~~ m working on my so called "mini-thesis". Oh God~~ chaiyok2!!! hahaha..

I would like to take diz opportunity to thx to my brother who are doing his practical now. Thx for ur concern for diz 1 whole day coz worry about how m going to go to Mdn Gpng. From morning till I update u wit the latest status. Plus thx coz praying dat tonite will be another black out so dat I'll be scared to stay in room ALONE. =_=" I'll inform u anythng via phones.

Promise (^_^)v Sooo no worry.

Then to my best buddy 1. Thx for ur suggestion for asking me to go to the field and scream. I like it BUT perhaps I'll use it some other times. =P About ur another suggestion, ermmm I'll think about it. U knew me. Thx coz at least u make me laugh though I've pretend to. =_="

Then to my best buddy 2. I luv u gurlz..hahaha..if God will, we'll meet next Tuesday. Story Mory okeyh??? Thx coz texting me n give me some advices. Luv u soo much.. =)

Then to my "granny" here. Thx for ur treat. hehehe..after diz no more break fast but breakfast togther..okeyh?? u knew me deep inside. Thx a lot =)

To ol (included ppl who I dont know but they know me) happy holiday!!! Enjoy the Hari Raya. Appreciate ppl around u while they r still in ur circle. Who knows, perhaps diz is ur last Hari Raya together.

p/s: Mimomimo I'll misz u soooooooooo much.When I come back, we'll have a date togther..okeyh?? To my Buncit..take care here.. I cant bring u along diz time..sooo sad =(

Hold My Hand

weeeee~~ hye ol!! I knew u misz me..ahaks..here I am..M back..weeee~~ (^_^)v

Ermmm u know wat?? Diz year Ramadhan is the best Ramadhan I ever had. Though tmr is 21st of Ramadhan n we still have another 9 day to go BUT its really2 meaningful to me. Everything is difference. Starting from 1st of Ramadhan until today. I wont regret if diz is my last Ramadhan.

I wanna share wit u about my activity during last weekend. As stated in my fb status, m off to Kampung Redang Punggor, Teluk Intan. I was involved with RECMO-9. It was a great experience I ever had. It is a home-stay program. Can u imagine how do I look like??? M kinna person who hard to mix wit other ppl. I didnt speak much. Sooo~~ wat do u think?? Naaaaa~~ u r wrong..hahaha.. I can make myself feel comfortable there. Ermmm enaf wit it n lets go deep into sth dat may touch ur heart.

In my adopted family's house, my adopted father taking care of her mother. He has maid. His maid will help him. His mother is having a strok. When I look at her, she's remind me of my own grandmother. When I look at her I can see dat she is lonely and wanna share many things but she cant. The most hardest thing is, she is crying when we say we wanna go back. She's not screaming but we can see her eyes is full of tears n drop through her chicks. When I look at her make me think of sth. How will she be if no 1 is taking care of her?? Look. She's fully depends on other ppl. Eat, bath, everythng. Lets say ppl didnt give her food than wat happn?? M wonder, how will I be if m in her place?

During the module I've 1 group members from the villagers. She is nice. She has a fair skin n gentle. She's humble n she has almost every single thing dat malay gurlz should have. However she juz went to school until she is 14 years old bcoz of health problem. She is difference. Her younger sister is taking care of her. She doesnt acts as her age. U get wat I meant?? I didnt ask much about her past but m juz proud of her. ermm..Sth dat touch my heart is during 1 module called " Impianku". She has a wonderful dream.

During the module also I was touched by the kids's dream. One of them wanna be a motor cross racer. He draws the picture of motorcycle. I still remember how does it looks like. Another one, he draws a picture of a man inside of sampan n he is fishing. U know wat he told us?? He said dat " It was the best thing I wanna do bcoz it is my hobby. My late father bring me to go for fishing".

During closing ceremony I be the MC...hahaha...Ok fine dats not the point actually. RECMO gave the orphanage some donation. I feel touch when look at them BUT ive to contrl myself. (Dont wanna be an emotional MC..hahaha). They look so happy. Its hard to say in words but it was a beautiful moment.

We go to 30 August. ermm wat hppnd?? I was involved wit International Iftar. My frenz from Independence Day invited Orphanage and Poor. Again!!! M crying in front of the VIP. Ok fine! m the PnP gurl..hahaha..I asked my colleague to replace me for a while. I ate wit the orphanage. They asked me (in malay) " Sis, lets come to our house n make some activity". waaaa~~~ tacing2..huhuhu.. I dunno. I cant look into their eyes. I feel sad.

As conclusion, I juz wanna share wit u one song sing by Maher Zain entitled Hold My Hand. Hope, my story will make u realize about ur kind heart. Quoted from the Song " We Share The Same Bright Sun The Same Round Moon Why Dont We Share The Same Love"

p/s: Love others as how u love urself

Ethics

Hye ol !!!

Feel like wanna share sth. I guess I found answers for my questions in my class..Yeaaa rite..seems like m applying wat I learnt in class into my life rather than onto a piece of paper (exam). hehehe. U know me rite?? Speak less Think More (^_^).

M taking Corporate Ethics. Supposedly m applying ol theories dat I learnt into business but it seems like suite my life bttr =_=" hahahaha..Though I juz learnt 3 theory of ethics, but I like it. Yeaaa~~ its a dry subject but interesting.

Juz wanna share a few points from my class. Ive learnt 2 theory of ethics: Kantian and Utilitarian. In order to classify them depend on 2 things: look at the consequences or look at the action itself. For both theory have difference perspective. Kantian think about others n not ourself but utilitarian think about ourself n how it effect others. I owez asking around, do we should be selfish? This theory answered my question.

For Kantian it has 2 view point: put ourself in shoes of receiver and never treats other ppls as a means but as an end. This apply to high level of organization. M sorry but no offense. This only wat I think n m not totally rite. You may have ur own views. Sometimes, ppl at the top didn't understand ppl at the bottom. Get wat I meant? Its true bos / superior can give instructions to employee/ subordinate. However, do u realize the way u give and instruction?? U r saying like they r ur slave. C'mon~~ Instruction, Order, Ask and Begging is diff. Can't u differentiate it?

Lastly, Theory of Right. It has a lot of points but m juz wanna focus on Aristotle's Theory of Virtue Right. Wat is virtue?? It meant character trait that manifest itself in habitual action. We cant change in a blink of eyes. It takes time. Dont expect ppl may change as wat u wanna them to be. No one is perfect neither me. Dats wat m telling u now. We cant force love and attitude but we can nurture them. We cant expect ppl to love us in a minute..Hellooooo~~ its not a fairy tale okeyh~~hahahaha..Same goes to attitude. Another point, he said dat, we should determine moderate character. Diz answered my question " How to differentiate between arrogant and courage?" The answer is, if u r tooooo courage, u r arrogant. If u r not courage u r coward. Be moderate by juz being courage.

Enaaafff!!!toooo many theories in the early of the day....hahahaha..ok fine..I stop here...

p/s: I found it is a nice says " We can juz bring the horse to the river BUT we cant force the horse to drink". Wat I think is, we don't know whether the horse is thirsty or not. So, y should we bring it there? Yeaa we cant force it. If it didnt thirsty, y should it drink?? rite?? Y must blaming the horse?? U should know the horse bttr. Whether it thirsty or not. Know it bttr..

Speak Through Pictures

I May Look Like Diz b4

But Then I Realize

No Matter Wat.. Keep

Coz U Look

If U Didn't

p/s: Pictures tell everything

Salt

Hye ol!!

Yesterday my hubby ask me.."do u wanna watch salt(he used malay words)" Then I replied " everyday I watch salt coz I've one desk lamp made up of salt"huhuhu..I juz dunno wat does he meant by salt. I sound silly =_=" hahahaha...Then he laughed n said " dat is the title of movie dear". OMG. Yeaaaaa fineee~~ m not updating myself wit the latest movie.

Then we went for midnite movie.. yeeeppyyyy!!!! finally~~~ we got time together..hehehehe..lalalalalala~~~ we discuss about us on our way there n back to campus..I feel sad for 1 whole weeks. I feel bttr now..

Thank You!!!! hehehe

p/s: get to know n learnt