Its About Time

Dear all,

Recently I have been flooded with great news which I supposed to be happy with it. Well, I am happy. One by one of my friends are either getting married or engaged. At first I feel happy as they were happy. I bring present and attended their ceremony. Then I start to get news that, either they were pregnant or about to give birth. Honestly, I'm so happy for them.

However, I have something in my heart. I felt like I'm loosing my friends. The biggest news that affecting me was a story of my best friend's engagement early this month. Of course I am happy for him. Alhamdullilah, he got his answer and he will have peaceful life. I told myself, its not gonna be the same as before. Well, he used to be my personal consultant. 

Honestly, I start to feel sad as one by one of my friends are moving to the next stage of their life. First, Hariz, then Syafiq and latest Iz. I do imagine that we will grow up and moving on to the next stage of our life but I never expect that I'll feel this way. Its kinda mixed up feeling were you feel happy and sad at the same time. I'm anticipating more news from my friends. I just can't imagine how will it be when I received an invitation from Sopha, Ada, Nisyak, Ecah, Syirah, Fatin, Kak Zira, Aqwa, Pejal, Capiq, Syed, Kak Fain, Bell, Zati, Silah, and last but not list Halim. They are my strength. I used to turn to them when I feel in need. I just had a feeling that everything will not be the same. 

Life must go on. Insya Allah, Ya Allah, please protect them as they were so important in my life. Bring happiness, peace and give them strength and calmness so they can undergo their life with your bless. Protect them from danger, sadness and bad people. Guide them and show them the right path as you know everything either its about to happened, will happen or happened. Thank you Allah for bring me these great people in my life. 

p/s: Time goes, Friends Stay

Saying Hello and Wishing Goodbye

Dear all,

So, here I am, in Bintulu for the second time. I still remember how hard I felt to left Bintulu that day. Well I just realized, its not the place I missed but the people, environment and warmest welcome I get. On top of that, I have been treated the way I never been treated before. I felt so happy and touched. Despite what happened in Mainland, I felt being here is the best gateway for me to calm down, find myself, to reflects why it happened and finding answers.

Well, here I am, with the answers. I was struggling to get through it. Even though I may look ok but it doesn't show the inside me. Today, I found my answers, hold to it and never turn back. I know how it happened, why it happened and I realize, it can't getting better with only one side. So I decided to walk away and keep going on without turning  back anymore. I know, it will  be a hard journey for me but I believe, it happened for reasons. For whatever reasons there are, I am entering a new chapter of my life. I will have new characters and scenes. Of course the characters from previous chapter may appear and bring back all those memories but I hope, I will have a happy ending. Happy ending doesn't meant you want it to be end as how you want it to be, but happy ending will end your story the best way it should be. 

Insya - Allah. 

p/s: I choose to not telling you that I'm waiting for you. It's been a month. Well, I have my answers for why and how come. No worries, I will just walk away. 

Hello from Bintulu

Dear all,

Hellooooo~ from Bintulu. Its been 3 days I'm here and I felt great to be here for the first time. Unfortunately, I didn't take picture since the first day I'm here. Well, I found Bintulu quite a nice place to be away from Semenanjung. I feel calm and happy. Ermm thank you Mr. Prince.

Been away from Semenanjung, I feel like I left everything behind me. My problems, my histories, my sadness, and of course the painful memories I had. I feel like I'm having a new life here. I met new people, leaving in new environment and working in new culture. It is good in some ways. In reality, how long can I run from the truth? It will always keep run after me no matter where I go. So, before I'm going back to Semenanjung, I need to prepare myself to face the truth.

p/s: If you wanna find someone to be your husband, look at how his relationship with his girl-friends boy-friends. If you wanna find someone to be your wife, look at the relationship between her and her mom.