Hai people,
Just a quick update, I'll start working next week. sigh I feel more excited than nervous. LoL. For this post I wanna share how do I feel for the past few days. (It will be long post).
I dunno how should I start but for the last few days, I feel sad. From one issue to another issue. It really makes me feel down. However, I do realize one thing. The only man who always with me through thick and thin is my dad. Even though he looks like doesn't really care about me, but when I need him, he always there. Actually, that's how he brought me up. He let me handle my stuff and be independent. However, when I feel in need, I can always ask help from him. He never say that I am annoying but he will be mad if I didn't ask help from him.
Being bashed with something like my past, really makes me wonder. Do I made a wrong decision before? Do I really move on? bla bla bla...Honestly, I am totally not in a good shape (obviously not round). I know I am not perfect. I do have my own weaknesses. I just hope people can accept me as how I am. I didn't ask to be with him, or him or other guy. It just happen. Of course I have option to reject it but by the time I say yes, I don't know what happen before. It makes me think, do I that bad or stupid to be with him or him or other guy?
Talking about my dream man, of course I have long list for his characteristics. However does he exist? I don't know. Tell you what, do you know the different between you like and you love someone? When you like someone, you'll try hard to get him/her but once you win, you don't appreciate him / her. You wanna let everyone know that you are together. If you love someone, you'll try your best to make him/her happy even though you are not. Plus, loving someone doesn't mean he/she will be with you. It is more than enough to see him/her happy even though with someone else.
Insya Allah, I'll keep my inner strength stronger and stronger each day. With support from my parents, sister, friends, insya Allah...what I faced for the past few days will bring fortune to me.
p/s: if you think your neighbour's garden is greener, why don't you take care of your own garden?
