Dear all,
The time I'm writing this entry, I don't feel good. Today I had made one mistake which really make me feel embarrassed and bad. To be honest, this is the first time for me to do this kind of mistake. For someone who's coming from good educational background, people might not expect it from me. But, it happened. Sometimes it is hard to please people. When I wanna do something, I have to think about 3 parties that will involve. I think it is enough for me to tell that, I feel guilty too. It is not something that I did purposely. I was thinking they might be rushing but I was wrong. Honestly, I feel bit down actually. Instead of giving me advice on how to solve it but people seems to blame me on that. I know I am wrong and I hope they stop telling, "why don't you do this and that", " why that", "why you this". So end up, I called my gurlz and asked her what to do. What a great 1st day of holiday...get fever, flu and that moment happened. sigh. Just not my day. I wish I could sleep peacefully cause I felt uncomfortable with what happened. I am sorry for all the inconvenience caused. Again I am sorry. =I
p/s: I wish I could cry out loud about this at home. Seems like no one care about it. =( Feel better at UTP
Saturday, August 18, 2012
Monday, August 13, 2012
That Pak Cik
Dear you,
Sometimes, in my life, there will be someone that when I think about him , he will appear. Either through phone call, sms, or chat .Magic. Make me laugh and think big. Motivate me and make jokes. Dear Mr. Hl, please do not repeat the same mistake that you have made.
Sometimes, in my life, there will be someone that I can only see him from far even though I know that we shouldn't go this way. Just because I am afraid of being offended, I am pulling myself from you. Dear Mr. F, hope you won't judge me as an ignorance friend.
Sometimes, in my life, there will be someone that I feel good to talk to but I don't feel comfortable with it. Some how make me feel irritated and I prefer to keep silent. Dear Mr. Hz, I am sorry if it's look like I am avoiding you but the truth is, I prefer if we keep our distance.
Sometimes, in my life, there will be someone that never miss praising me. Even though well known as sweet talker but you just good and great in your own ways. Dear Mr. S, I wish you happy with your dream girl. I always pray that your transformation will bring you to the better you.
Sometimes, in my life, there will be a moment where by I forgot that I am a girl. Love being part of your gang even though I am the smallest >.<. Dear Mr. A, Mr. Hr, Mr. Fz, you guys are awesome and looking forward to the day when you guys look handsome =P
p/s: People come and go for many reasons. Special dedication made to my dearest of all Mr. D, you make me feel like I am your real sweetheart >.< blushed
Sometimes, in my life, there will be someone that when I think about him , he will appear. Either through phone call, sms, or chat .Magic. Make me laugh and think big. Motivate me and make jokes. Dear Mr. Hl, please do not repeat the same mistake that you have made.
Sometimes, in my life, there will be someone that I can only see him from far even though I know that we shouldn't go this way. Just because I am afraid of being offended, I am pulling myself from you. Dear Mr. F, hope you won't judge me as an ignorance friend.
Sometimes, in my life, there will be someone that I feel good to talk to but I don't feel comfortable with it. Some how make me feel irritated and I prefer to keep silent. Dear Mr. Hz, I am sorry if it's look like I am avoiding you but the truth is, I prefer if we keep our distance.
Sometimes, in my life, there will be someone that never miss praising me. Even though well known as sweet talker but you just good and great in your own ways. Dear Mr. S, I wish you happy with your dream girl. I always pray that your transformation will bring you to the better you.
Sometimes, in my life, there will be a moment where by I forgot that I am a girl. Love being part of your gang even though I am the smallest >.<. Dear Mr. A, Mr. Hr, Mr. Fz, you guys are awesome and looking forward to the day when you guys look handsome =P
p/s: People come and go for many reasons. Special dedication made to my dearest of all Mr. D, you make me feel like I am your real sweetheart >.< blushed
Saturday, August 11, 2012
Interview
Dear all,
I had attended several job interviews and today is the last one for this semester. I just realize that, my experiences are really helpful during my last interview. Why?
1. Unexpected information during interview
During 1st interview, I wrongly understand about the job scope. So, internally, I'm stunt and my brain keep thinking what to answer. Its happened again during my last interview but different situation.
2. During my internship I faced lot of problems
Can be used during my last interview
3. Get heart shoot during pre-sedex
Helps me in thinking and answering fast during case study and role play
4. Pressured with due dates and stuff (assignment, test, project etc) for this semester
Helps me in sharing my thought about a time where I need to meet due date, is there any missing task and how I do it
I dunno, but looks like my interview session is the shortest among those all. Perhaps I didn't talk as much as I should or I am not perform well during my interview. Sigh. I am really wish to get this job. Because, I know that, I am not capable of catching any bigger and fatter fish than this.
p/s: looking forward for the akak final year photo shoot session
Wednesday, August 1, 2012
Hell's Woman
Dear all,
I watched a movie entitles "Perempuan Neraka" (Hell's woman). Its a story about disobey wife. Wife who control her husband. Never care about her husband. So on and so fort. However, that's not the main idea why I'm writing this post.
What I'm thinking was, how come husband and wife is having so much conflict comparing with their life before marriage? Doesn't it weird? When they are in a relationship, everything are fine. Loving and caring like there is no tomorrow. But once they get married, they wish there will be no tomorrow. Why? hehe obviously I'm not married and I won't understand the situation. What I'm having in my mind is once you have husband or wife, you have someone that you can rely on. Comparing with couple before marriage, there is term so called "responsibility". Do you know why it is "so called"? Because bf and gf are not oblige to act and behave as husband and wife. If he or she are husband and wife, they have and must fulfil their responsibility as husband and wife but its not necessary for bf and gf.
Well, it is something for you to ponder. Let's say you are having gf or bf now. Are you sure, he or she is someone that you can be happy with for the rest of your life. Won't make you disappointed. Are you sure your bf can be a good husband and father for your kids? Giving good education, enough food, enough care, enough attention, enough time. Of course, are you sure, your gf can be a good mother and wife? Taking care of family even though she may be working, care about kids, give some times for you and kids, cook, ect. Or maybe your wife will ask you to do the house work while she is 24 hours in front of the mirror. Or maybe your husband will ask you to take care of everything while he is having fun with his friends?? Hmmmm
I watched a movie entitles "Perempuan Neraka" (Hell's woman). Its a story about disobey wife. Wife who control her husband. Never care about her husband. So on and so fort. However, that's not the main idea why I'm writing this post.
What I'm thinking was, how come husband and wife is having so much conflict comparing with their life before marriage? Doesn't it weird? When they are in a relationship, everything are fine. Loving and caring like there is no tomorrow. But once they get married, they wish there will be no tomorrow. Why? hehe obviously I'm not married and I won't understand the situation. What I'm having in my mind is once you have husband or wife, you have someone that you can rely on. Comparing with couple before marriage, there is term so called "responsibility". Do you know why it is "so called"? Because bf and gf are not oblige to act and behave as husband and wife. If he or she are husband and wife, they have and must fulfil their responsibility as husband and wife but its not necessary for bf and gf.
Well, it is something for you to ponder. Let's say you are having gf or bf now. Are you sure, he or she is someone that you can be happy with for the rest of your life. Won't make you disappointed. Are you sure your bf can be a good husband and father for your kids? Giving good education, enough food, enough care, enough attention, enough time. Of course, are you sure, your gf can be a good mother and wife? Taking care of family even though she may be working, care about kids, give some times for you and kids, cook, ect. Or maybe your wife will ask you to do the house work while she is 24 hours in front of the mirror. Or maybe your husband will ask you to take care of everything while he is having fun with his friends?? Hmmmm
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
I will miss the moment when.....
Dear all,
So, here I am 'stealing' some times for me to update my blog. Being a final year final student is not as cool as what I thought. Just feel good when the junior asked, " Akak Final Year?" (ouh damn I'm old already. LOL). Eventually, lots of things have to arrange and execute. sigh =_=". Starting with final year project (my "loose weight" supplement), project, assignment, presentation, bla bla bla never end there.
As now is Ramdhan, so people will perform "Solat Tarawikh". I open my window and I can hear the Imam reciting the Al-Quran while performing the solat. Suddenly! jeng jeng jeng, I felt touched. My heart ask me " will you miss UTP?". Obviously the answer is YES.
I will miss wake up in the morning thinking whether I should go or skip the class. Counting how many classes I had skipped and thinking any quiz on that day. Will miss walking half dead to the class because of so lazy to wake up and walk. Will miss saying hello and smile to the people that I pass by (sounds so popular..teeett hahaha). Once reach the class, sometimes 15minutes or half and hours late. Walk into the class proudly even though I'm late and everyone will look at me (just feel like they look at me though =P). I will miss the moment when I looks like really focus and study but my mind was still on bed. hehe. I will miss the moment when I searching for group to team up to do the assignment or project. I will miss going to the cafe at night not to eat but having meeting (ooohh~~ soo cool..hahaha). Of course, I will miss organizing events. I will miss crying and feel like jumping off the window cause of uncommitted group mate or committee. I will miss stay up at night and struggling to understand the lecture notes. Suddenly feel like " Does lecturer taught this in class?". I will miss "lepaking" at mamak until 2 3 morning or midnight movie or even early breakfast at mcd or mamak. I will miss going to the lake just because of feel so stressful (actually just excuses to have a date =P). I will miss gossiping with my room mates about current issues and what happened during that day. I will miss the moment when I sit at stairs and having argument with him. The list will continue because there are thousands of memories I had in UTP.
In fact, live must go on. Memory is there for us to engrave it in our heart. One thing that I really look forward is the day I receive the scroll from our Chancellor. Ouuuhh~~ I'm afraid of drama queen will appear. Once she's there, no one can stop her from crying. Hahaha like a crying machime =P So, being a final year student is totally not cool at all.
p/s: I really mean it. Will miss You TP =D
So, here I am 'stealing' some times for me to update my blog. Being a final year final student is not as cool as what I thought. Just feel good when the junior asked, " Akak Final Year?" (ouh damn I'm old already. LOL). Eventually, lots of things have to arrange and execute. sigh =_=". Starting with final year project (my "loose weight" supplement), project, assignment, presentation, bla bla bla never end there.
As now is Ramdhan, so people will perform "Solat Tarawikh". I open my window and I can hear the Imam reciting the Al-Quran while performing the solat. Suddenly! jeng jeng jeng, I felt touched. My heart ask me " will you miss UTP?". Obviously the answer is YES.
I will miss wake up in the morning thinking whether I should go or skip the class. Counting how many classes I had skipped and thinking any quiz on that day. Will miss walking half dead to the class because of so lazy to wake up and walk. Will miss saying hello and smile to the people that I pass by (sounds so popular..teeett hahaha). Once reach the class, sometimes 15minutes or half and hours late. Walk into the class proudly even though I'm late and everyone will look at me (just feel like they look at me though =P). I will miss the moment when I looks like really focus and study but my mind was still on bed. hehe. I will miss the moment when I searching for group to team up to do the assignment or project. I will miss going to the cafe at night not to eat but having meeting (ooohh~~ soo cool..hahaha). Of course, I will miss organizing events. I will miss crying and feel like jumping off the window cause of uncommitted group mate or committee. I will miss stay up at night and struggling to understand the lecture notes. Suddenly feel like " Does lecturer taught this in class?". I will miss "lepaking" at mamak until 2 3 morning or midnight movie or even early breakfast at mcd or mamak. I will miss going to the lake just because of feel so stressful (actually just excuses to have a date =P). I will miss gossiping with my room mates about current issues and what happened during that day. I will miss the moment when I sit at stairs and having argument with him. The list will continue because there are thousands of memories I had in UTP.
In fact, live must go on. Memory is there for us to engrave it in our heart. One thing that I really look forward is the day I receive the scroll from our Chancellor. Ouuuhh~~ I'm afraid of drama queen will appear. Once she's there, no one can stop her from crying. Hahaha like a crying machime =P So, being a final year student is totally not cool at all.
p/s: I really mean it. Will miss You TP =D
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
What Happened for a Reason
Dear All,
Unintentionally, I browsed through my old email from Iz and his best friend, Ana. I know it is something stupid for me to do but amazingly, I smiled. When I read the email, I just smile and recall how I am 4 years back. How silly and childish I am. How pathetic I am. How crazy I am about Ana. 4 years ago, I was crying, shouting and emotionally unstable when read their email but today I laugh and smile. (its not that I'm too free to do all those things).
What can I conclude, in a relationship,
1. TRUST is one of the most important elements. What I learned is, no matter how many third parties come bothering your relationship, its about how the couples handle the issues. It just between you two. Of course the outsiders should be blame but so long as either one of you doesn't entertain him / her, there will be no issues.
2. It is about how you control your feeling and emotion. How you want to make your love grow and keep learn about him / her. Cherish every day and love him / her more than yesterday.
3. In relationship, there will be one, two, even more than that, who will come and talk ***** which will hurt you. Find who they are and what sources they have to prove their statements. Its either to make you realise or to disturb your relationship.
4. Cover partner weaknesses' and learn his / her strengths
5. Distance doesn't affect your relationship but your attitudes and behaviours do.
The most significant value that I learned is, what happened today,you may hate it. It may hurt you, make you cry, going crazy, stress, demotivated, unhappy, upset, angry, etc. But after few days, month, years or maybe decade, you'll be glad it happened to you. I took 4 years to recover. It makes me who I am now. It creates an opportunity for me to choose the man whom I am with now. I am happy.
p/s: no matter how hard it is..learn to accept it. Adapt situation Adopt environment.
Unintentionally, I browsed through my old email from Iz and his best friend, Ana. I know it is something stupid for me to do but amazingly, I smiled. When I read the email, I just smile and recall how I am 4 years back. How silly and childish I am. How pathetic I am. How crazy I am about Ana. 4 years ago, I was crying, shouting and emotionally unstable when read their email but today I laugh and smile. (its not that I'm too free to do all those things).
What can I conclude, in a relationship,
1. TRUST is one of the most important elements. What I learned is, no matter how many third parties come bothering your relationship, its about how the couples handle the issues. It just between you two. Of course the outsiders should be blame but so long as either one of you doesn't entertain him / her, there will be no issues.
2. It is about how you control your feeling and emotion. How you want to make your love grow and keep learn about him / her. Cherish every day and love him / her more than yesterday.
3. In relationship, there will be one, two, even more than that, who will come and talk ***** which will hurt you. Find who they are and what sources they have to prove their statements. Its either to make you realise or to disturb your relationship.
4. Cover partner weaknesses' and learn his / her strengths
5. Distance doesn't affect your relationship but your attitudes and behaviours do.
The most significant value that I learned is, what happened today,you may hate it. It may hurt you, make you cry, going crazy, stress, demotivated, unhappy, upset, angry, etc. But after few days, month, years or maybe decade, you'll be glad it happened to you. I took 4 years to recover. It makes me who I am now. It creates an opportunity for me to choose the man whom I am with now. I am happy.
p/s: no matter how hard it is..learn to accept it. Adapt situation Adopt environment.
Monday, May 21, 2012
Steps by Steps
Dear All,
Hellooooooooo to new semester and bye bye to January Semester. So far, everything run smoothly and slow =I . So this semester gonna be my last semester in UTP (hope so =D). I'll be having my convocation day on 21st October 2012. So, I wanna keep my strength to throw "the hat" as high as possible cause it pays and shows how much fun I had through out my life in UTP (#honestly speaking). From FA couple =P to Mamak gang to Event gang and hello bye gang. hehe..
Tell you what, even though this semester is my last semester in UTP but I feel like it is tougher than my previous semester. Why?? Jeng Jeng Jeng...cause bla bla bla.. anyway..thanks to my FA couple for your time and effort. It really means a lot to me. So, this semester I need to keep strong as how my FA couple is. Of course, throughout the journey, tears gonna flowing like waterfall T.T but I take it as my foundation or base for me to float. erk!! =_=" (#rounded people floating easily). So people, pray for me. I can make it through for 7 month, why not this 4 month... Right?? Yea, perhaps I can say, now the factors are different like distance, time, money but will think about it later. I need to distract myself and get myself back as soon as possible.
In fact, it is tiring to cry and stop continuously while you feel better after cried and will cry again in few minutes. Its not that I don't stop myself from crying but I just can't bare with it inside. The easiest way is, let it flow whenever it feels like flowing. Like korean said " Ottoke!!" hahaha Crying Machine.
Lastly, to whom it may concern..please take care of yourself. I'm struggling really really hard to get better as soon as possible so it won't become your burden any more. I know that you'll get annoyed soon but I hope you can bare with me for few more weeks. At least until when I feel like I'm stable and busy. I'll make myself as busy as possible and will try my best to feel better. I'm really looking forward to have couples of visit to your place later.
p/s: crying doesn't meant your are weak but giving some space for yourself to express your real feeling while gathering strength to bounce back
Hellooooooooo to new semester and bye bye to January Semester. So far, everything run smoothly and slow =I . So this semester gonna be my last semester in UTP (hope so =D). I'll be having my convocation day on 21st October 2012. So, I wanna keep my strength to throw "the hat" as high as possible cause it pays and shows how much fun I had through out my life in UTP (#honestly speaking). From FA couple =P to Mamak gang to Event gang and hello bye gang. hehe..
Tell you what, even though this semester is my last semester in UTP but I feel like it is tougher than my previous semester. Why?? Jeng Jeng Jeng...cause bla bla bla.. anyway..thanks to my FA couple for your time and effort. It really means a lot to me. So, this semester I need to keep strong as how my FA couple is. Of course, throughout the journey, tears gonna flowing like waterfall T.T but I take it as my foundation or base for me to float. erk!! =_=" (#rounded people floating easily). So people, pray for me. I can make it through for 7 month, why not this 4 month... Right?? Yea, perhaps I can say, now the factors are different like distance, time, money but will think about it later. I need to distract myself and get myself back as soon as possible.
In fact, it is tiring to cry and stop continuously while you feel better after cried and will cry again in few minutes. Its not that I don't stop myself from crying but I just can't bare with it inside. The easiest way is, let it flow whenever it feels like flowing. Like korean said " Ottoke!!" hahaha Crying Machine.
Lastly, to whom it may concern..please take care of yourself. I'm struggling really really hard to get better as soon as possible so it won't become your burden any more. I know that you'll get annoyed soon but I hope you can bare with me for few more weeks. At least until when I feel like I'm stable and busy. I'll make myself as busy as possible and will try my best to feel better. I'm really looking forward to have couples of visit to your place later.
p/s: crying doesn't meant your are weak but giving some space for yourself to express your real feeling while gathering strength to bounce back
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