I'm a Big Girl

Hi all,

Its hard being stuck in the middle. Trying damn hard to satisfy others.Cares about others feeling. Fulfilling both "instructions" and "wants". Do they know how I feel? Patient is the key for the solution. But how long it can be? What? Discussion?*sigh* It wont change anything. By the words so called respect, silence is the best way.

p/s: Am I wearing a wrong costume? Smile on the face but crying in the heart.

Ago

Dear you,

Before at 1 or 2 am: I feel hungrylah~~ can we go to mamak?

Before: I need to go Taman Maju to find the boxes to pack my things. You wanna come?

Before: I feel like watching a movie tonite, movie jom!

Before: Mcd jom!

Before: Pizza jom!

Before: Batu Gajah jom!

Before: Sushi king jom!

Before: Eat jom!

Before: I feel stress-lah, can we go around?

Before: I'm going to _________, you wanna come?

Before: I bought sth for you, lets meet up

Before: I can't sleeplah, sing (though you never sing).

Before: I feel like eating_______,lets go to___________

Before: You are not feeling well? Come down stairs, I bought _____,______,______for you.

Before: Can I go to karaoke?

Before: How are you going to go back?? Let me send you to Medan Gopeng.

Before: Lets go back together!

Before: You always calling me "buncit" (big tummy) though yours is bigger =P

Before: Ira, wake up its morning / magrib already.

Before: Lets window shop.

Before: Dats style look nice with you. (while window shop).

Before: I need to buy_______,you wanna come?

Before: eeeee~~ dat bear is cute. Buy me 1

Before: wait! lets go in ( shoes shop).Try the shoes. Measure the height . (still I lost)

If I list all of it, it wont be fitted here. What I want to say, you are sponge of my life. Thank you for everything. You help me a lot. You be with me when m in need. I wonder, how it would be when changing the word " before" into "today" (when m going for internship).

Lots of love

-ira-

p/s: dedicated to Muhammad Syafiq bin Afandi.

12 May 2011

Hi all,

Something is hard to explain by words. ahhhhh~~~ such a long time I didn't feel like this. Crying like hell n can't stop. Why did I cry? hmmmm~~ I'm waiting for it. I even wish it to come earlier but when I need to face it, it's hard for me. Yea it's kinda hard for me to face it. I admit that I don't really love UTP but it's hard for me to let everything here.(even single things). hmmmm life must go on no matter what.

p/s: I'll keep everything with me in a book call "memories". Love you guys.

Dream

Dear you the guy in my dream,

Thank you for your kindness. Thank you for making me happy. Thank you for being with me. Being humble like you really inspire me. I am wonder how do you know my fav ice cream flavor is yam. You know I love motivate kids. The most important things are, you know I love to play around and act like a kid. Thank you.

Regards,

Tengku Izza

p/s: Your granny's PA really make me feel silly. =P

Semester January 2011

Hi all,

What do you expect me to write? A story on how am going this semester? A sharing on what I learn this semester? Teeeet wrong answer. Please try again. LOL

This semester is the last semester before I leave UTP.(literally before final year). I've gone through sad, happy, and even feeling-less memories. huhuhu. Being here at UTP is a great experiences. (m not trying to promote UTP anyway). Although it is in the middle of the jungle, but its not bad rite sharing the place with monkeys, owls, buffalo and many other creatures. (not included the one which bite me).

I realize that, times goes by quite fast. Am I prepared to face the real world out there? huhuhu I dunno. Now, m preparing for my final exam and will face it soon. Final exam is just about grade. If you score higher mean you are a great student. If not you are not. Then you get job offers, get better positions and get more money. Hmmmm what a boring life.

Here I would like to tell everyone I knew in UTP that I AM GLAD THAT I KNOW YOU. It doesn't matter either I like you or not, I care about you or not, we are closed or not, the points is I knew you. Hmm I guess that's all from me.

p/s: Set Sail On The Winding Trail, Cast Anchor In The Heart of Calm, Heavy is The Heart That Stays, Sad is The Soul That Strays

What do you think?

Hai All

I was called to write something today. Ermm its about what happened to me past few days. I wouldn't talk about my studies. It is about people around me. Honestly I never been disappointed by the people around me. Even though there are some people who are jerk but still m ok with them. This time around, I don't know. Those people really2 make me disappointed.

I don't know how to explain how disappointed I am. People talk about me. Tell about me to other people. It makes me sad. It worst when that other person met me and tell me that he knew what happened.

I'm not a type of people who is easily trust others. Its a fact. If my first impression said, I shouldn't be friend with that person, means I shouldn't. If it said, he / she is nice although he /she doesn't look so, means he / she is nice. I don't know how to tell you how upset and angry I am. Someone that I trust on her capabilities and skills, did betray me. For me it is kinda betrayal. Why is it? Let me keep it myself. I believe you can go further but you had destroyed your own future. I've showed you the way. But you.......sigh.

M speechless.

Super Girl

Super girl doesn't cry

Super girl doesn't looks gloom

Super girl will be fine

Super girl knows how to handle the problems

p/s: Handle the problems with care. I always realize when the problems come, but I never notice when the problems are gone.