Make Me Strong

Hai ol

Sometimes in life we may lost our faith. The challenges and obstacles of life will make us fall and hardly get up. Someone had told me that, never expect others to do as what u did to them. Meaning to say, if u are being nice and care to others, doesn't mean they will being nice and care for u. But if u did sth wrong or bad to others, definitely they will do sth worst to u as a revenge. That's life. Now I realize what does he means. There is where sincerity comes from. Thats how I learn to be independence. Thanks to him anyway. I start to believe what he said. In this world, we are alone. He taught me to stand on my own feet. Its a credit if someone is supporting u. He told me that, we are brought to this world alone and we left the world alone. Hence, when I feel down or sad, I'll listen to these 3 song which are Make Me Strong and You Came To Me by Sami Yusuf and Insha Allah by Maher Zain. These songs really inspired me and make me close to Him. Because I know. He never abandon me although He can. Only Him know me because He is the One who creates me. He also know how I feel because I cant hide anything from Him. He knows me in and out.

p/s: My Lord show me right from wrong, Give me light make me strong, I know the road is long, Make me strong. Sometimes it just gets too much, I felt that Ive lost touch, I know the road is long, Make me strong.

People

Hai ol

As usual if I've sth to share..I'll be here. So, wat m gonna share today is sth about people around me that I met accidentally or purposely. Lol

M juz realize I was surrounded by the same behavior and type of people. If its not the same, it will be almost the same. Don't you realize it? Dats happened to me. No matter wat, I'll enjoy my life while I've still have the opportunity to have it. Once I've lost it, perhaps m not in this world anymore. Such a waste.

Today is the registration day for the new intake. They are so excited to be here and of coz they have many kind of style (group). One side of the cafe, I can see a group of stylo family. Wit hand bag, high hills, nice cloth n etc. However, they are some other group with low profile style. Which mean, they looks like from a well family but they acting like a normal people. Another group is a group of simple profile family. When I look at them, suddenly the memory of being a foundation students came up. oooohh OMG.

The old me?? huhuhu...=_=" Ive changed a lot.. hehehe.. thx to ol n my environment..

p/s: Luv ur life..Although u don't care about it, there are some people who cares (^_^)v

Pieces of Time

Another year, another chance

To start my lives anew;

This time I’ll leap old barriers

To have a real breakthrough.

I’ll take one little step

And then I'll take one more,

My unlimited potential

I’ll totally explore.

I’ll show off all my talents

Everyone will be inspired;

While I’m writing this,
I’m getting very tired

I’ll read and learn a lot,
All my goals will be accomplished,
Sigh...or maybe not

Looking back on the months gone by,

As a new year starts and an old one ends,

I contemplate what brought my joy,

And I think of my loved ones and my friends.

Recalling all the happy times,

Remembering how they enriched my lives,

I reflect upon who really counts,

As the fresh and bright new year arrives

Let me stand in the thick of the fight,
Let me bear what I must without whining;
Grant me the wisdom to do what is right,
Though a thousand false beacons are shining.

Let me be true as the steel of a blade,
Make me bigger than skillful or clever;
Teach me to cling to my best, unafraid,
And harken to false gospels, never.

Let me be brave when the burden is great,
Faithful when wounded by sorrow;
Teach me, when troubled, with patience to wait
The better and brighter to-morrow.

Spare me from hatred and envy and shame,
Open my eyes to life's beauty;
Let not the glitter of fortune or fame
Blind me to what is my duty.

Let me be true to myself to the end,
Let me stand to my task without whining;
Let me be right as a man, as a friend,
Though a thousand false beacons are shining

At this moment, I was thinking about someone who inspired me in his way. Who challenged my weaknesses. Who suddenly appear after a long break. Who make fun of me when m emotional. Who knows me in and out. U can be a father who nags his daughter. Sometimes u like a brother who protects his sister. U be a lover who cares and loves with no reasons. And u be a good listener as a friend.

p/s: Happy New Year to All. Tears is not a good start. M wonder how will it ends.

Seasons

Hai all

~~We had joy We had fun We had seasons in the season But the hills that we climbed Were just season out of time~~ oryte.. m gonna stop here coz dont wanna expose the best talent that I've. kui3 =)

Here I would like to share my views on certain issue. M juz wonder, are human being are bond with the season too? I mean, does people also has season? or we can say people are up to date? I dunno but based on my own observation, most of the people are following others or talking about the same things on certain particular range of time.

Lets me get straight to the point. Look! People only talk and discuss about it when it is a hot issues on that particular time. When another story arise, the previous issues was left behind. Did u realize it? For example, issues of Afghanistan, issues of mavi marmara, issues of badminton, story of FIFA, and story of lost kids. The newest issues now is about football match between Indonesia and Malaysia and double decker bus accident. Believe me, they will be left behind once there are another story arise.

What can I say, people dont have their stand. Oryte. I know people need to be up to date but do u have to follows others? I dunno. Wat can I say, people behavior n interest are like waves of the ocean. It keep smashing the beach and makes a peaceful sound. Did u realize, it changes the structure of the beach?? Dats how peoples are. They create a waves which good for certain parties like reporters, sellers, and etc. But it wont be long and the waves had change the community. It would be fine if changing to the betterment but what if it happens vice versa??

Here I would like to ask u to think. Are u up to date bcoz of following others or bcoz u are really into that issues? As for me, I would like to learn n know as many things as I could bcoz I hate a situation where people are playing around with me. The situation I hate the most is when people make me feel and look stupid in front of the others. Here she comes. The egoist gurl!! =P

p/s: Its good to be up to date BUT why should u left the history. People may see u as an expert in ur field BUT u should know, there are peoples who see u as noob in their field. Hence, learn as many things as u can while u have afford to do it.

pss: Congrats to Malaysian football team for the games. M not congrats u bcoz u guys had won the game but m congrats u for the great games and afford that u shows. To all Malaysian sportsmen n sportswomen, keep moving forward and strive for excellent. No matter wat happened, juz ignore the public. They are proud to see u won but they are too shame to accept ur loose. Dats how people is.

Past Present and Future

Hai ol

Wat m going to write is totally crap. If u feel uneasy with it, u r welcome to leave this page.

I was attracted with a quote, "Life gonna have full of challenges, when obstacles arise, change ur direction to reach ur goal, not the decision to get there". Thats life. From my perspective, I never know which way m going n why m going to that way until m in. Mean, m juz going to which way I want based on wat my heart say.

Some people will say that m kinna emotional coz m following wat my heart say. Fyi, my heart will owez think about others instead of myself (perhaps). Wat diz ppl will feel. Wat dat ppl may think. I feel sad or happy if I do this to him or her. Sometimes I feel like m living in my own world where m creating something to ease my heart. M creating my own excuses and reasons to ease myself. Although its work, but when the ugly truth appear, it will smash on ur face.

Wat happened. I move on. I keep moving forward and leave the past. Even, I feel afraid to look back at my past. However, m not having amnesia. Sometimes, it appears without I want too and reminds me on wat happened. Thats why, I need something/someone from present to pull me back to the real world. Its happened in the other way around. Past pulling me back and the present didnt pulling me but pushing instead. Feel like learning a grammar..hahaha.

p/s: to my past, present and future, I owez being me. Perhaps u may see m changing but if u see deep inside of me, m still me.

Salam Ma'al Hijrah

Hai...

I would like to wish ol muslim around the world, Salam Ma'al Hijrah (Let's Change). Its a new year for us. We had move to a new year. Wat we had went through take them as lessons, wat we'll go through take them as challenges. Wat does awal muharram ( 1st day in 1st month of muslim calendar) mean to u?? For me, it brings a lot of meaning.

As we look from history of Prophet Muhammad, he had move from Mekkah to Madinah on this day. He had made a lot of sacrificies. He had tried his best to ensure Islam is delivered to us n to our next generation until the last day. As I live for about 19 years, m still thinking, wat had I done to repay him? To show how appeciate I am for his effort?

Later, I would like to share a poem. M sooo sorry coz the poem was in Malay ( plan to translate it to English but afraid it may sound funny). Last but not least, salam awal muharram to ol. Wish u to strive for the bettermen. Dont forget to recite the Doa' for early and end of the year.

p/s: Perhaps I wouldn't diz worry if I dream about u once. The problem is, I dream about u twice in a row and both is a nightmare. (^_^)v

Wrap up for July 2010

Hai

Wat happened diz semester? Ermm everything went smoothly. My studies are getting better but I skip a lot of class. sigh sigh. I dont like it. Ermm for the first time ever, m close wit my GA. Mean we discuss a lot. Its weird for me of coz. Overall, I luv my lecturers and my subjects for diz semester. Thats wat I learn directly from class. For diz semester I luv Corporate Ethics. It is the 1st subject that I luv. It makes me think and realize about the real worlds.

We go into sth dat I learn outside of the class. I learn to pretend. It was hard at the beginning but m getting used to it. How do u feel when inside, u feel like wanna punch somebody but at the same time, the outside u are showing a nice face to them? How do u feel when u have to show a sweet face but the truth is u are angry at them? feeeuuuhh~~ it must be tired rite? But thats life. Not ol ppl can accept the real u accept they are willing to accept it.

The truth is, diz semester I talk less. ( I guess). I kept sooo many things inside. However, thx to my twin. She know how I feel without telling her wat Ive went through. Perhaps its sound lame but I really2 appreciate it. She may cry when I feel want to but I cant. She may laugh when I feel want to but I cant. She also know how sick I am. Thank you so much.

Lastly, I wanna thank to those who had make me cry, laugh and enjoy. I didnt blame those who make me cry bcoz that makes my life. Just to let u know sth. When I keep quiet doesn't mean m agree but dats mean. . . .

p/s: People say, don't judge the book by its cover. I realize. The book which look nice outside doesn't really be nice inside.