Interview

Dear all,

I had attended several job interviews and today is the last one for this semester. I just realize that, my experiences are really helpful during my last interview. Why?

1. Unexpected information during interview

During 1st interview, I wrongly understand about the job scope. So, internally, I'm stunt and my brain keep thinking what to answer. Its happened again during my last interview but different situation. 

2. During my internship I  faced lot of problems

Can be used during my last interview

3. Get heart shoot during pre-sedex

Helps me in thinking and answering fast during case study and role play

4. Pressured with due dates and stuff (assignment, test, project etc) for this semester

Helps me in sharing my thought about a time where I need to meet due date, is there any missing task and how I do it

I dunno, but looks like my interview session is the shortest among those all. Perhaps I didn't talk as much as I should or I am not perform well during my interview. Sigh. I am really wish to get this job. Because, I know that, I am not capable of catching any bigger and fatter fish than this. 

p/s: looking forward for the akak final year photo shoot session

Hell's Woman

Dear all,


I watched a movie entitles "Perempuan Neraka" (Hell's woman). Its a story about disobey wife. Wife who control her husband. Never care about her husband. So on and so fort. However, that's not the main idea why I'm writing this post. 


What I'm thinking was, how come husband and wife is having so much conflict comparing with their life before marriage? Doesn't it weird? When they are in a relationship, everything are fine. Loving and caring like there is no tomorrow. But once they get married, they wish there will be no tomorrow. Why? hehe obviously I'm not married and I won't understand the situation. What I'm having in my mind is once you have husband or wife, you have someone that you can rely on. Comparing with  couple before marriage, there is term so called "responsibility". Do you know why it is "so called"? Because bf and gf are not oblige to act and behave as husband and wife. If he or she are husband and wife, they have and must fulfil their responsibility as husband and wife but its not necessary for bf and gf.


 Well, it is something for you to ponder. Let's say you are having gf or bf now. Are you sure, he or she is someone that you can be happy with for the rest of your life. Won't make you disappointed. Are you sure your bf can be a good husband and father for your kids? Giving good education, enough food, enough care, enough attention, enough time. Of course, are you sure, your gf can be a good mother and wife? Taking care of family even though she may be working, care about kids, give some times for you and kids, cook, ect. Or maybe your wife will ask you to do the house work while she is 24 hours in front of the mirror. Or maybe your husband will ask you to take care of everything while he is having fun with his friends?? Hmmmm 

I will miss the moment when.....

Dear all,


So, here I am 'stealing' some times for me to update my blog. Being a final year final student is not as cool as what I thought. Just feel good when the junior asked, " Akak Final Year?" (ouh damn I'm old already. LOL).  Eventually, lots of things have to arrange and execute. sigh =_=". Starting with final year project (my "loose weight" supplement), project, assignment, presentation, bla bla bla never end there.


As now is Ramdhan, so people will perform "Solat Tarawikh". I open my window and I can hear the Imam reciting the Al-Quran while performing the solat. Suddenly! jeng jeng jeng, I felt touched. My heart ask me " will you miss UTP?". Obviously the answer is YES.  


I will miss wake up in the morning thinking whether I should go or skip the class. Counting how many classes I had skipped and thinking any quiz on that day. Will miss walking half dead to the class because of so lazy to wake up and walk. Will miss saying hello and smile to the people that I pass by (sounds so popular..teeett hahaha). Once reach the class, sometimes 15minutes or half and hours late. Walk into the class proudly even though I'm late and everyone will look at me (just feel like they look at me though =P). I will miss the moment when I looks like really focus and study but my mind was still on bed. hehe. I will miss the moment when I searching for group to team up to do the assignment or project. I will miss going to the cafe at night not to eat but  having meeting (ooohh~~ soo cool..hahaha). Of course, I will miss organizing events. I will miss crying and feel like jumping off the window cause of uncommitted group mate or committee. I will miss stay up at night and struggling to understand the lecture notes. Suddenly feel like " Does lecturer taught this in class?". I will miss "lepaking" at mamak until 2 3 morning or midnight movie or even early breakfast at mcd or mamak. I will miss going to the lake just because of feel so stressful (actually just excuses to have a date =P). I will miss gossiping with my room mates about current issues and what happened during that day. I will miss the moment when I sit at stairs and having argument with him.  The list will continue because there are thousands of memories I had in UTP. 


In fact, live must go on. Memory is there for us to engrave it in our heart. One thing that I really look forward is the day I receive the scroll from our Chancellor. Ouuuhh~~ I'm afraid of drama queen will appear. Once she's there, no one can stop her from crying. Hahaha like a crying machime =P So, being a final year student is totally not cool at all. 


p/s: I really mean it. Will miss You TP =D

What Happened for a Reason

Dear All,


Unintentionally, I browsed through my old email from Iz and his best friend, Ana. I know it is something stupid for me to do but amazingly, I smiled. When I read the email, I just smile and recall how I am 4 years back. How silly and childish I am. How pathetic I am. How crazy I am about Ana. 4 years ago, I was crying, shouting and emotionally unstable when read their email but today I laugh and smile. (its not that I'm too free to do all those things). 


What can I conclude, in a relationship, 


1. TRUST is one of the most important elements. What I learned is, no matter how many third parties come bothering your relationship, its about how the couples handle the issues. It just between you two. Of course the outsiders should be blame but so long as either one of you doesn't entertain him / her, there will be no issues. 


2. It is about how you control your feeling and emotion. How you want to make your love grow and keep learn about him / her. Cherish every day and love him / her more than yesterday.


3.  In relationship, there will be one, two, even more than that, who will come and talk ***** which will hurt you. Find who they are and what sources they have to prove their statements. Its either to make you realise or to disturb your relationship.


4. Cover partner weaknesses' and learn his / her strengths


5. Distance doesn't affect your relationship but your attitudes and behaviours do.


The most significant value that I learned is, what happened today,you may hate it. It may hurt you, make you cry, going crazy, stress, demotivated, unhappy, upset, angry, etc. But after few days, month, years or maybe decade, you'll be glad it happened to you. I took 4 years to recover. It makes me who I am now. It creates an opportunity for me to choose the man whom I am with now. I am happy. 


p/s: no matter how hard it is..learn to accept it. Adapt situation Adopt environment. 

Steps by Steps

Dear All,


Hellooooooooo to new semester and bye bye to January Semester. So far, everything run smoothly and slow =I . So this semester gonna be my last semester in UTP (hope so =D). I'll be having my convocation day on 21st October 2012. So, I wanna keep my strength to throw "the hat" as high as possible cause it pays and shows how much fun I had through out my life in UTP (#honestly speaking). From FA couple =P to Mamak gang to Event gang and hello bye gang. hehe..


Tell you what, even though this semester is my last semester in UTP but I feel like it is tougher than my previous semester. Why?? Jeng Jeng Jeng...cause bla bla bla.. anyway..thanks to my FA couple for your time and effort. It really means a lot to me. So, this semester I need to keep strong as how my FA couple is. Of course, throughout the journey, tears gonna flowing like waterfall T.T but I take it as my foundation or base for me to float. erk!! =_=" (#rounded people floating easily).  So people, pray for me. I can make it through for 7 month, why not this 4 month... Right?? Yea, perhaps I can say, now the factors are different like distance, time, money but will think about it later. I need to distract myself and get myself back as soon as possible. 


In fact, it is tiring to cry and stop continuously while you feel better after cried and will cry again in few minutes. Its not that I don't stop myself from crying but I just can't bare with it inside. The easiest way is, let it flow whenever it feels like flowing. Like korean said " Ottoke!!" hahaha Crying Machine. 


Lastly, to whom it may concern..please take care of yourself. I'm struggling really really hard to get better as soon as possible so it won't become your burden any more. I know that you'll get annoyed soon but I hope you can bare with me for few more weeks. At least until when I feel like I'm stable and busy. I'll make myself as busy as possible and will try my best to feel better. I'm really looking forward to have couples of visit to your place later. 


p/s: crying doesn't meant your are weak but giving some space for yourself to express your real feeling while gathering strength to bounce back 

If that is Allah will, He will show you with regard nothing can stop Him

Hello everyone,

This week is a heavy week for me. I don't know how to start. What can I say, it taught me a lot. From friendship, love, betrayal, trust, respect and honesty. The hardest part is about memories. It is a bad memories. I feel burden. I feel uncomfortable. I feel hatred. I feel mad. Feel shame. Feel wanna cry all day long non stop. The worst part is feel of betrayed. However, at the same, I feel what happened is a give or sign from Allah. If we try to re-look at the incident back, it is properly plan and executed wonderfully. The hurt, the tears, the hatred are part of the memory.

I am not a type of person who can easily forget what had happened. Either it is a good or vice versa, I will remember every single things about it. From the text, the idea, the moment, the time, the doer, and the discussion of course. It is a painful memory that teach me on how to handle things in the future. I do admit, no one perfect. However, I do believe, people can change. Chances are always there for people to grab. BUT, hopefully, and please use the chance properly and wisely.

When we talk about marriage. Honestly I cant wait for that moment. BUT I have dreams that I aimed to achieve. I wanna prepare myself to be a good muslim, mother and wife. For me, marriage is not only about make "that" relationship halal. It comes with responsibilities. Can I wake up before him? Can I be patient in case I didn't get what I want? Can I understand his situation when he can't meet my expectation? Can I be his makmum? Can I stop from thinking something stupid and crying all night long? Can I feel happy with his weaknesses? Can I calmly said I'm angry or mad at him and can't accept what he did? Can I love him until end of my life without regret it for the rest of my life? Can I stop bring back the painful, unforgettably memory when we fight with each other? Can I be patient when we fight with each other? Can I accept him as how he is and be in love with him with no reasons until end of my life? Can I respect him and listen to him? Can I accept the fact when he leaves me and this world? Can I be with him until Jannah? Can I?

When we talk about friendship, I do appreciate my friends whom I consider as mine. Sad and happy memory we share. The up and downs we go through it together. I do admit, I'm not totally a good friends for people to have. BUT I'm trying my best to give the best as a friend. I don't have many friends because as for me, I do only care for those who really care about me. That's why, I feel hard to loose a friend. Once I decided to break him / her from my circles, then that's it. People come and go as how they want it. Besides my parents and sister, I just have friends here that will support me and be with me when I'm in need. I didn't expect much from a friend. Just a simple care and love is sufficient for me to be strong and get through the problems. When I feel lost and crazy, I need a friend who can grab me and bring me back to the real world. When I feel sad or wanna cry, I need a friend who can lend her shoulder for me to cry on and a couple of hand to hug me, make me feel warm. When I feel happy, I need a friend who can crazily jump like a monkey with me. When I feel sick, I need a friend who can pray for me to get well soon. When I feel burden, I need a friend who I can share the burden with. When I feel blur, I need a friend to explain and give me opinions. This are the definition of friends in my life.

So peps, please, I'm begging and reminding you. Please3~~ don't ever2 hurt your love one and friends. Appreciate them. Because the painful is hardly to describe but the scars can be severe. However, the feel of hatred and angry are the burden that you will bring all the way of your life. What for right? Left it behind. Move on and let it go. Its hard though but no harm if we try.

p/s: pray for me

Something to Tell

Dear all,

When someone telling you a story / asking your opinions / sharing their thoughts

at least

listen carefully. Worst come to worst, just pretend that you are interested with the topic even though you are not. Just don't spoiling other moods who is excitedly share with you

Thank you