Happy~~

Hye ol~~

As I promised I'll update my blog 4 1 whole week rite??So wat hppnd today??

Ive no class. Actually Ive lab today but the lab start from week 3 onwards..Sooo I should appreciate the ample time. Today, m on duty for UTPHost. I like it. Honestly I really2 like it. Here I can be how I wanna be in next 5 years. How should I look like n how should I bring myself. Yeaaaa~~ some of my frenz know me well.. They know I love to be in corporate world. Dats my dream. Pray for me ok??

So today we had visit from Sekolah Kebangsaan Tanjung Malim. Siyesly they r kawaaaiiiiii~~~ They r small n cute~~They remind me of my childhood period. Sigh..m getting older =_=" Back to our story. I n my colleague brought them around campus. We went to Chancellor Hall, UTP jungle (garden in front of building 17) then Pocket D. feeeuuuuhhh~~~ kids rite.. It’s quite tiring but I enjoy it. It was fun. Can u imagine, how do I look like taking care of 13 kids?? Perhaps my frenz who know me will laugh out loud. U know y?? Bcoz they know dat my height is more or less like primary school students. So can u imagine?? Funny rite??

At evening my syndrome comes again. Thank god I meet some1. Frankly speaking, she's my twin. She’s definitely known how I felt. She can feel wat I feel. Siyesly. I don’t have to elaborate more. She can get it. Siyesly... We r experiencing the same things, we've same thought, same principle but we've diff hubby..LOL =_=" So tonite I feel bttr. Everythng I kept inside in 4 days alr out..feeuuuuhh~~~ relieeeff~~ Juz now I only asked her " hey, r u ok??" then she told me how she felt. Definitely as same as mine. Then we had a chit chat. Thank you sooo much.

Finally I left u wit some pics

wit my colleague

some of the students

briefing b4 tour around UTP

One of the teachers

p/s: m proud of myself coz m wearing heals today though its not dat high =P

to misz diamond m sooo sorryy~~

Shoes

Hye Ol!!!

Day 3...as usual I went to classes but we've sooo many gaps n it makes me feel tired to wait 4 next class..Everything were fine. I went to Taman Maju to accompany my frenz to buy capsule pillow n one of my senior colleague to buy shoes.

Wat hppnd at shoes shop??? Fyi m a shoes lover. I love shoes. Compared wit other stuff I prefer shoes. Yeaaaa... I've soo many shoes. I like to try on shoes. Then as usual I try the shoes there without any attention to buy it. Then the shop keeper ask me n my frenz " Wat do u wanna buy?" I answrd " We r juz looking around 1st". She went to somewhere else then asked us again " Wat do u wanna buy?" I said " We accompany our frenz". Guess wat her respon??? " If u juz accompany ur frenz then accompany her, dont try any!!!"..OK FINE!!!! IT MAKES ME FEEL OFFENDED. I juz answrd nicely " Ok aunty. Thank you sooo much". I feel like crying. Honestly, I feel like she is humiliating me. Am I sound exaggerate??? M sorry to say. I never eva buy any shoes from dat shop.. EVAAAAA!!!!!! Hellooooo!!! ur shop is not even bttr then Bata!!!!

Yeaaaaa~~~ aunty u r rite!!! Its my fault coz trying ur shoes...Remmber diz name..S*****A!!!!!!! never eva!!!!

After the incident, I prefer to stay quite. I guess dats my style diz semester. If I feel angry or sad or upset, I'll keep silent.

p/s: M crying coz I need my mom now...Really2 need her by my side at diz time. =(

Up and Downs

Hye ol!!!

My second day...dunno y I fell like wanna write sth 4 diz 1 whole week. Today was funny. U know y?? Coz I n my frenz were asked to leave the class. Actually we cant take dat course diz sem. We've to take it after we came back from internship. I still remember wat the lecturer told us. " Is there any students who r not final year student?? Diz coz was meant to be 4 final year student" We raised up our hand and the lecturer asked " which year r u in??" I answerd " 2nd yr 1st semester". The lecturer replied" m sorry to say but diz course only for final year student. We've case study to discuss n hope u guys would understand. Im sorry but u've to drop diz course". Then honourdly we left the class.. hahahhaahh..I laughed out loud but my frenz almost cry coz cant bare the shame.. For me, it was nice experience coz I got to know how the final year student 's lecturer treat his students. Honestly it is diff.. I like it....siyesly..

At evening I misz my family.I really misz them. I juz came back but really need them now. Yeaaa I've frenz n my hubby but its not the same. Mak Ayah Angah~~ I misz u guys...M crying sob sob sob...I dunno how to tell u wat I feel. Yeaaa Ive sooo many ppl around me. They make jokes, make me smile, but I feel empty. I feel nobody arounds me. M wonder, y cant they differentiate between fake n true smile??? hmmmmm~~ can some1 bring my family here???

At nite I meet 2 guys. One really make me feel annoyd and another one honestly I cant look into his eyes. The 1 who make me feel annyd is not dat bad..Juz he owez teasing me...I hate when he smiles to me though sometime m waiting for it..At least he cheer me up tonite..Another man...hmmmm~~ it is a long story.. I meet him during DCN 1st class.. I asked in ENGLISH I repeat again... in ENGLISH about the class. I never know him. I dunno who is him. I thought he is Pakistanis coz he really2 looks like 1. Tonite I meet him . Guess wat?? He is not. He is malaysian n he his from Penang. OMG!!!! can u imagine how I feel juz now. Soooooo shameful. I know dats nthng wrong speaking in English but I juz dunno y I felt shameful.

As conclusion, today was up and down. I feel up in the begginng of the day, then down in evening then go up again when I meet diz 2 guys, then down again when I came back to my room.

p/s: I need ears coz my ears were tired. Do u get wat I meant??

Everything Were Fine Until.....

Hye ol!!!!

Juz wanna share wit u about my 1st day. I was sooooooo xcted. I feel like m getting older n matured..M senior now!!!!~~~hey guys!!! dont laugh...I really meant it..It was a wonderful day. I felt soooooooo epi.. Really2 epi. Superb epi. Dunno y. A simple Hi n Hug really made my day diff. It was added wit the sweetest smile I crave for others.

Howeva everything change in evening. M sorry but some1 spoiled my mood. Dat person made me wanna keep silent ol nite long.

p/s: Feel upset =(

Weeeeehuuuu~~~

Hye Ol!!!!

New sem begin tmr...m quite nervous. Actually m not ready yet but at the same time I feel xcted. I dunno y diz sem I feel so energetic. Ive soooo many plans n really hope everythng will be fine. Perhaps m in a gud moods. Or m acting like m in a good mood though m not. Who knows.

In my mind rite now, diz sem will be a cruel semester. Yeaaaa~~ campus life begin tmr. Lecturer, assgmnt, project, meeting, lab. Dats normal. Following same schedules every day. Wake up, class, eat, meeting, sleep and sometimes study for test or quiz. The same bored lifestyle begin.

Diz sem I wanna make a few changes on my schedule n Ive new missions.

1. Gym, Swimming and Diet
Wanna have more stamina n need to shape up my figure. Fasting will help me wit my diet plan.

2. 15 minute Power Scanner
Every nite I'll use 15 minute b4 I go to bed to revise back wat Ive learnt on dat day n the day b4. I'll also wanna prepare myself for the lecture next day.

3. Learnt to say "NO"
Diz is the hardest words 4 me. Need to practise it.

4. Grow Inside Out
Wanna work out on my self motivation n self esteem. Focus on EQ n SQ. Wanna be stronger gulz. " Be stronger but not harder. Be softer but not weaker"

5. Study
If diz sem I achieve my targeted gpa, I've sth waiting for me at the end of diz sem. Wat is it??? SURPRISEEEE!!!!

Wish me ol da best. Pray for me. I need strength, passion n care.

p/s: Am I acting n thinking like m in a fairy tale story?? Magics and prince.

Love

Hye Ol!!!

Wat is love??Can u show me where is it?? Some of u may show ur heart n perhaps there r some of u showing ur head (brain). Y??? Its naturally hppn. Y heart?? There's feeling. Y head (brain)? There's thinking. Some ppl will love wit their feeling and some ppl will love using their brain.My next question. Can u show wat is love?? How does it looks like?? Yeaaaa rite~~ its red n sth like on card.. (solitaire) ..ok back to our business..

We cant tell wat is love...but we can feel wat is it..Am I rite?? Only the person himself know. We cant compare love. E.g: Parents and children. Perhaps out there, some of the children feel like their parents love their sibling more. How they define it??For example, when they arguing (dats wat normal kids do..even me did..hahahaha), normally parents'll ask the eldest to give up. Even worst, the eldest will be punish wihout knowing the reason y. Dats totally cruel. Dats happend. (Dont get me wrong..m not ready yet..juz got it from 1 tv show). Parents should punish the children and at the same time tell them wat they did is wrong n ask them not to do it again. Belief me, they'll understand coz they r not stupid but they juz dont know.

Back to our story.Other ppl cant compare our love with wat we did. Dat was totally unfair. Wit experiences I got, I wish I can help. However, there r some thngs we juz see n cant do anythng. Wat hppnd today had opened my eyes. I shouldn't do dat. Yes..its easy to forgive n say never mind but can u forget?? If tooo many never mind, no matter wat, it'll become sth u mind...

p/s: Its easy to say ur r forgiven but did u really meant it?? Ask urself..R u really2 sure u dont mind?? Its up to u..The choices r in ur hand. Be honest n both of u can live happily OR u can keep it then u'll suffer through out the relationship. Plz be honest..at least to urself.

Expect The Unexpected

Hye ol!!!

Wat do u expect me to write??? hahahaha...Emoooo~~ yaaaa rite dats me..

Btw dats not my point. Wat I wanna say here, there r things we can plan n there r not. If we plan sth, normally it doesnt turn out into wat we plan. Either its getting bttr or worst. Am I rite?? Like we have to catch a bus but we r late. Then we run after the bus until somewhere. Having English breakfast. Playing token game and win (though some1 lost)..Suddnly muvi ( though u r sleep inside the cinema =_="). We dont know wat's going to hppn next.

And today..I never expected some1 will say " m sorry.......". Bcoz I know dat person wont. Wat can I say..past is the past, m epi wit my new life..m epi wit who I am now..m I epi wit whom am I now..

p/s: thank u..thx a lot..u really help me...thank you sooooo much...