Hye ol!!!!
Juz wanna share wit u about my 1st day. I was sooooooo xcted. I feel like m getting older n matured..M senior now!!!!~~~hey guys!!! dont laugh...I really meant it..It was a wonderful day. I felt soooooooo epi.. Really2 epi. Superb epi. Dunno y. A simple Hi n Hug really made my day diff. It was added wit the sweetest smile I crave for others.
Howeva everything change in evening. M sorry but some1 spoiled my mood. Dat person made me wanna keep silent ol nite long.
p/s: Feel upset =(
Monday, July 26, 2010
Weeeeehuuuu~~~
Hye Ol!!!!
New sem begin tmr...m quite nervous. Actually m not ready yet but at the same time I feel xcted. I dunno y diz sem I feel so energetic. Ive soooo many plans n really hope everythng will be fine. Perhaps m in a gud moods. Or m acting like m in a good mood though m not. Who knows.
In my mind rite now, diz sem will be a cruel semester. Yeaaaa~~ campus life begin tmr. Lecturer, assgmnt, project, meeting, lab. Dats normal. Following same schedules every day. Wake up, class, eat, meeting, sleep and sometimes study for test or quiz. The same bored lifestyle begin.
Diz sem I wanna make a few changes on my schedule n Ive new missions.
1. Gym, Swimming and Diet
Wanna have more stamina n need to shape up my figure. Fasting will help me wit my diet plan.
2. 15 minute Power Scanner
Every nite I'll use 15 minute b4 I go to bed to revise back wat Ive learnt on dat day n the day b4. I'll also wanna prepare myself for the lecture next day.
3. Learnt to say "NO"
Diz is the hardest words 4 me. Need to practise it.
4. Grow Inside Out
Wanna work out on my self motivation n self esteem. Focus on EQ n SQ. Wanna be stronger gulz. " Be stronger but not harder. Be softer but not weaker"
5. Study
If diz sem I achieve my targeted gpa, I've sth waiting for me at the end of diz sem. Wat is it??? SURPRISEEEE!!!!
Wish me ol da best. Pray for me. I need strength, passion n care.
p/s: Am I acting n thinking like m in a fairy tale story?? Magics and prince.
New sem begin tmr...m quite nervous. Actually m not ready yet but at the same time I feel xcted. I dunno y diz sem I feel so energetic. Ive soooo many plans n really hope everythng will be fine. Perhaps m in a gud moods. Or m acting like m in a good mood though m not. Who knows.
In my mind rite now, diz sem will be a cruel semester. Yeaaaa~~ campus life begin tmr. Lecturer, assgmnt, project, meeting, lab. Dats normal. Following same schedules every day. Wake up, class, eat, meeting, sleep and sometimes study for test or quiz. The same bored lifestyle begin.
Diz sem I wanna make a few changes on my schedule n Ive new missions.
1. Gym, Swimming and Diet
Wanna have more stamina n need to shape up my figure. Fasting will help me wit my diet plan.
2. 15 minute Power Scanner
Every nite I'll use 15 minute b4 I go to bed to revise back wat Ive learnt on dat day n the day b4. I'll also wanna prepare myself for the lecture next day.
3. Learnt to say "NO"
Diz is the hardest words 4 me. Need to practise it.
4. Grow Inside Out
Wanna work out on my self motivation n self esteem. Focus on EQ n SQ. Wanna be stronger gulz. " Be stronger but not harder. Be softer but not weaker"
5. Study
If diz sem I achieve my targeted gpa, I've sth waiting for me at the end of diz sem. Wat is it??? SURPRISEEEE!!!!
Wish me ol da best. Pray for me. I need strength, passion n care.
p/s: Am I acting n thinking like m in a fairy tale story?? Magics and prince.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Love
Hye Ol!!!
Wat is love??Can u show me where is it?? Some of u may show ur heart n perhaps there r some of u showing ur head (brain). Y??? Its naturally hppn. Y heart?? There's feeling. Y head (brain)? There's thinking. Some ppl will love wit their feeling and some ppl will love using their brain.My next question. Can u show wat is love?? How does it looks like?? Yeaaaa rite~~ its red n sth like on card.. (solitaire) ..ok back to our business..
We cant tell wat is love...but we can feel wat is it..Am I rite?? Only the person himself know. We cant compare love. E.g: Parents and children. Perhaps out there, some of the children feel like their parents love their sibling more. How they define it??For example, when they arguing (dats wat normal kids do..even me did..hahahaha), normally parents'll ask the eldest to give up. Even worst, the eldest will be punish wihout knowing the reason y. Dats totally cruel. Dats happend. (Dont get me wrong..m not ready yet..juz got it from 1 tv show). Parents should punish the children and at the same time tell them wat they did is wrong n ask them not to do it again. Belief me, they'll understand coz they r not stupid but they juz dont know.
Back to our story.Other ppl cant compare our love with wat we did. Dat was totally unfair. Wit experiences I got, I wish I can help. However, there r some thngs we juz see n cant do anythng. Wat hppnd today had opened my eyes. I shouldn't do dat. Yes..its easy to forgive n say never mind but can u forget?? If tooo many never mind, no matter wat, it'll become sth u mind...
p/s: Its easy to say ur r forgiven but did u really meant it?? Ask urself..R u really2 sure u dont mind?? Its up to u..The choices r in ur hand. Be honest n both of u can live happily OR u can keep it then u'll suffer through out the relationship. Plz be honest..at least to urself.
Wat is love??Can u show me where is it?? Some of u may show ur heart n perhaps there r some of u showing ur head (brain). Y??? Its naturally hppn. Y heart?? There's feeling. Y head (brain)? There's thinking. Some ppl will love wit their feeling and some ppl will love using their brain.My next question. Can u show wat is love?? How does it looks like?? Yeaaaa rite~~ its red n sth like on card.. (solitaire) ..ok back to our business..
We cant tell wat is love...but we can feel wat is it..Am I rite?? Only the person himself know. We cant compare love. E.g: Parents and children. Perhaps out there, some of the children feel like their parents love their sibling more. How they define it??For example, when they arguing (dats wat normal kids do..even me did..hahahaha), normally parents'll ask the eldest to give up. Even worst, the eldest will be punish wihout knowing the reason y. Dats totally cruel. Dats happend. (Dont get me wrong..m not ready yet..juz got it from 1 tv show). Parents should punish the children and at the same time tell them wat they did is wrong n ask them not to do it again. Belief me, they'll understand coz they r not stupid but they juz dont know.
Back to our story.Other ppl cant compare our love with wat we did. Dat was totally unfair. Wit experiences I got, I wish I can help. However, there r some thngs we juz see n cant do anythng. Wat hppnd today had opened my eyes. I shouldn't do dat. Yes..its easy to forgive n say never mind but can u forget?? If tooo many never mind, no matter wat, it'll become sth u mind...
p/s: Its easy to say ur r forgiven but did u really meant it?? Ask urself..R u really2 sure u dont mind?? Its up to u..The choices r in ur hand. Be honest n both of u can live happily OR u can keep it then u'll suffer through out the relationship. Plz be honest..at least to urself.
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Expect The Unexpected
Hye ol!!!
Wat do u expect me to write??? hahahaha...Emoooo~~ yaaaa rite dats me..
Btw dats not my point. Wat I wanna say here, there r things we can plan n there r not. If we plan sth, normally it doesnt turn out into wat we plan. Either its getting bttr or worst. Am I rite?? Like we have to catch a bus but we r late. Then we run after the bus until somewhere. Having English breakfast. Playing token game and win (though some1 lost)..Suddnly muvi ( though u r sleep inside the cinema =_="). We dont know wat's going to hppn next.
And today..I never expected some1 will say " m sorry.......". Bcoz I know dat person wont. Wat can I say..past is the past, m epi wit my new life..m epi wit who I am now..m I epi wit whom am I now..
p/s: thank u..thx a lot..u really help me...thank you sooooo much...
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Relationship
Hye ol!!!
How do u define relationship?? Is it only verbally or bonding between heart?? I've my own definition. I believe so do u. There are some situation where by it makes u feel better n there are some makes u feel down. As for me, I dont really care on how far my networks are (degree of relationship) or how many frenz do I've. I juz care the relationship itself. How well they treat me, do they really help me when m in a bad shape, do they share my sad n happy moment, m i the IP (important person) in their life.
Ive experienced fail relationship. Ive experienced insincere relationship. Ive experienced long lost relationship. M in relationship..hahhaha.. so many relationship, is it?? =_=" When we talk about relationship, for me its sound business.
Wanna share about my brothers. It makes me smile when I think about them. I love them. They r great. Y?? Bcoz they know how to handle me. They know when to listen n quite, when to boost me up, when to protect me,when to stop me n say " hey sis, smile!".The best thing about them, they know when to nag..hahaha...They know I dont like ppl nag on me..Nag, care n remind is 3 diff points. To Davuth, Phoana, Hamzi, Pali, Aj, Im, and Wan, thank you sooo much...U've teach me a lot.
haiiizzeee~~ dont get me wrong. When I said Ive brothers doesnt meant I didnt need love one. hahahaha..People may ask.."hey, u got soooo many brothers and they knew u well, y u still in relationship?? " Perhaps u may answer, " naaaaa...she's guyser (I create the word)" or " she thinks she's pretty enaf to get many guys at once" or " wat kind of gurlz she's..." even worse " doesnt she has pride??" hmmm...u choose urs..
If u r matured enaf, u can differentiate between brother n love one. Can u marry ur brother?? Can u have any xtra feeling wit ur brother?? Can ur brother do love,protect,listen,make u smile,nag at u, at once??? If yes, he must be a super brother..hahahaha..Open up ur mind n ask ur heart, wat is the diff between brother n love one. I dont wanna give u the answer. U need to find it urself. Dats my motto 4 diz sem, " Speak less Think more" .
For u,
When I lost in darkness
U guide with Shine
When I sad in sorrow
U craving me a Smile
When I fall n cant get up
U'll say " hey my gurlz never give up"
When I almost fall down the hill
U hold me tight and forever will
I pray to Allah the All Mighty
We last forever as ever can be
Only Him can determine
When u can say " That gurlz is mine"
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Something On My Mind
hye ol!!!
ermmm..I wanna ask u guys..wat makes man be a man??? Heart?? Mind?? Soul?? Body?? Have u ever heard about 3 quotient of human being?? IQ,EQ, and SQ. Honestly m confuse. I dunno how should I be. Strictly its not about my faith. Its about how should I bring myself. Should I be diz or dat?? Wat will ppl say about me??? Yesss I admit m paranoid. Even when ppl look at me at shopping mall, I'll thnk is there any sth wrong on me???
Diz few days I read a motivation book wrote by one of famous motivator. He said dat, juz simply live ur life (feel like some1 had told me b4). I ask my best buddy. Am I listen to others thought tooo much??? Am I??? He said yes u r...aaaahhh~~ he's tooo honest...hahahhaa =_="
I juz need ur opinion. The question is wat is Ego??? People owez said " Juz let ppl talk about u so long as u know urself". If we didnt listen to others, doesnt it meant we r ego??? But if we listen to others, we cant go anywhere...sooo wat do u think??
Some people talk bad about others, make used of others even there are some people who subotaj others. If u the victims, wat will u do??? Will u b quiet or u fight for it?? People never shut their mouth up..am I rite??? sigh~~ m tired of it... =_="
Do u believe on repay??? M not sure whether it is the rite word or not.Wat I meant here is wat u give is wat u get. I do. Y do i said so?? Bcoz I experiencing it now. sigh~~ Wat can I said..Its about time for me to commit n grow up. Wat happn next I juz accept it. I cant complaint it as Ive done the same things to some1 b4. So wat comes around goes around. Lets accept n grow..yosh!!!!
As conclusion, m working on my EQ (Emotional Quotient) and SQ (Spiritual Quotient). Need to repair my heart n brain..oouccchhhh~~~ they fall into pieces..aishhhh~~ How about u?? When u gonna improve urself??
p/s: sory coz i left u wit sooo many question
ermmm..I wanna ask u guys..wat makes man be a man??? Heart?? Mind?? Soul?? Body?? Have u ever heard about 3 quotient of human being?? IQ,EQ, and SQ. Honestly m confuse. I dunno how should I be. Strictly its not about my faith. Its about how should I bring myself. Should I be diz or dat?? Wat will ppl say about me??? Yesss I admit m paranoid. Even when ppl look at me at shopping mall, I'll thnk is there any sth wrong on me???
Diz few days I read a motivation book wrote by one of famous motivator. He said dat, juz simply live ur life (feel like some1 had told me b4). I ask my best buddy. Am I listen to others thought tooo much??? Am I??? He said yes u r...aaaahhh~~ he's tooo honest...hahahhaa =_="
I juz need ur opinion. The question is wat is Ego??? People owez said " Juz let ppl talk about u so long as u know urself". If we didnt listen to others, doesnt it meant we r ego??? But if we listen to others, we cant go anywhere...sooo wat do u think??
Some people talk bad about others, make used of others even there are some people who subotaj others. If u the victims, wat will u do??? Will u b quiet or u fight for it?? People never shut their mouth up..am I rite??? sigh~~ m tired of it... =_="
Do u believe on repay??? M not sure whether it is the rite word or not.Wat I meant here is wat u give is wat u get. I do. Y do i said so?? Bcoz I experiencing it now. sigh~~ Wat can I said..Its about time for me to commit n grow up. Wat happn next I juz accept it. I cant complaint it as Ive done the same things to some1 b4. So wat comes around goes around. Lets accept n grow..yosh!!!!
As conclusion, m working on my EQ (Emotional Quotient) and SQ (Spiritual Quotient). Need to repair my heart n brain..oouccchhhh~~~ they fall into pieces..aishhhh~~ How about u?? When u gonna improve urself??
p/s: sory coz i left u wit sooo many question
Monday, June 21, 2010
Does Bygone Be Bygone???
Lets try ur imagination skills.
Imagine urself are digging. U dig really2 hard.U feel tired n u said to urself " I wanna stop here. I cant go any futher". U feel the winds blow that make u cooler. U sit under the nearby tree. U feel better. U start digging again. U feel tired then u stop. As usual, the wind and tree owez there to comfort u n make u dig again n again. Then u made a decision. " I wanna stop here n I guess its enaf for me". Then u sit back under the same tree.The tree tell u " i'll be here to support u n keep shadowing u from the sun". U pick one by one pieces of ur memories n put it inside a box. U lock the box. U put the box inside the hole and start cover the hole back. U said to urself " Memories, m sorry. Dats the best place for u. U r important coz u've teach me a lot but at the same time u hurt me. Please be there n never ever come again". The day after, u come again to the same place. U saw, the hole r uncover n the memories r everywhere. Slowly u collect back ol ur memories n do the same things as u did the day b4. Its hurt u when u've to see ur memories while u dont want too. The same things happnd again n again.
One day, u tell the tree " m tired of diz. I dunno untill when diz things will go on. I digging n keeping n hurt". As usual, the tree will say " hey little girl, no matter wat, m owez here for u. I owez supporting u n shadowing u. Though its hurt me when I see u cry but m glad bcoz u cry with me. It makes me feel upset when u cry bcoz of ur past. U know wat, though u r using me to cover ol ur memories but its fine with me. I know when I support n shadow u from sun, its make u smile n happy." U ask the tree " M wonder untill when u can shadow n support me. M sooo sorry n thx for everythng. U've done a lot for me." The tree say " I dunno. However, I hope one day u'll let ur memories fly with the wind rather than u keep it here."
p/s: I do hope so
Imagine urself are digging. U dig really2 hard.U feel tired n u said to urself " I wanna stop here. I cant go any futher". U feel the winds blow that make u cooler. U sit under the nearby tree. U feel better. U start digging again. U feel tired then u stop. As usual, the wind and tree owez there to comfort u n make u dig again n again. Then u made a decision. " I wanna stop here n I guess its enaf for me". Then u sit back under the same tree.The tree tell u " i'll be here to support u n keep shadowing u from the sun". U pick one by one pieces of ur memories n put it inside a box. U lock the box. U put the box inside the hole and start cover the hole back. U said to urself " Memories, m sorry. Dats the best place for u. U r important coz u've teach me a lot but at the same time u hurt me. Please be there n never ever come again". The day after, u come again to the same place. U saw, the hole r uncover n the memories r everywhere. Slowly u collect back ol ur memories n do the same things as u did the day b4. Its hurt u when u've to see ur memories while u dont want too. The same things happnd again n again.
One day, u tell the tree " m tired of diz. I dunno untill when diz things will go on. I digging n keeping n hurt". As usual, the tree will say " hey little girl, no matter wat, m owez here for u. I owez supporting u n shadowing u. Though its hurt me when I see u cry but m glad bcoz u cry with me. It makes me feel upset when u cry bcoz of ur past. U know wat, though u r using me to cover ol ur memories but its fine with me. I know when I support n shadow u from sun, its make u smile n happy." U ask the tree " M wonder untill when u can shadow n support me. M sooo sorry n thx for everythng. U've done a lot for me." The tree say " I dunno. However, I hope one day u'll let ur memories fly with the wind rather than u keep it here."
p/s: I do hope so
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