Kids

Fuuuuuuuuhh~~~ looks like my blog kinna dusty....hahahahaha...sooo how was thing's going on?? getting bttr?? worst?? or nth much diff???

Wanna ask u guys..wat is the most interesting facilities at my campus??? yeaaa rite...lab, full equip wit high tech machine, wat else?? Beautiful garden scenery..relax n peaceful environment..wat else?? ermm did u ever thing about lift??? aaaaa~~ dats wat m going to share with u....

I spent my last weekend with 24 kids from somewhere around here. It was a superbly great experience. For those who know me, they know dat I didn’t really know how to handle kids. M kinna serious n strict. No wonder I was well-known as a “akak yang garang (fierce sister)” by the kids there.

To bring them here, we’ve to get their parents’ permission. So there we are gathering parent’s permission. 5 of us were responsible for dat. Can u imagine how xcted the kids are?? They r following us here n there juz to make sure their name are in the list. They wanna come to my campus.

We went to each n every house n gets the permission. There is a hope in their eyes dat they can join us. However, there is one boy whose his name is not in the list. He keeps following us. We keep saying we can’t bring him. At the end of the day, he frustrated n start to act weirdly (he is trying to get our attention). He is hurting himself. The things getting worst when his frenz laughing and teasing at him. Soooo, to make things clear I go to him n xplain. Finally he starts to cry. For the 1^st time ever m wiping some1 tears. I dunno how to make u guys understand how did I feel but wat can I say, I feel like wanna cry.

After discussed with my colleague, we decided to take the boy to join us. I went to his house. He is not come from the high level of family. He has a simple house. The way he welcomes me to his house is not like most of ppl dat I knew. He respects me n welcoming me warmly to his house. The things make me feel worst when his mom asked me to fill up the permission form for her. Perhaps the form is complicated to be understood. Sooo, dats how the family is. His mom apologize me coz didn’t serve me anything n even she say thank you soooo many time coz m visiting their house. Perhaps they r poor in wealth but they r rich wit humanities.

So, last weekend the kids came here to my campus. The experience handling them is sth dat I can’t get from books. Now I understand why they are acting such way. Thank God they didn’t swim at the lake or catching the fish by their hand. If not, wat should I answer to their parents??? I still remember one of the mother ask me to take care of her boy. She said “I can allow my son but u please takes care of my son”. OMG. I feel like it’s a heavy responsibility for me. I’ve to care 24 kids which meant 24 responsibilities. Ooooo myyyy!!!~~~

Soooo we had sooo much fun here..We played n watched movie together. M juz wonder. When ppl getting older, they r getting more serious. They said they wanna be more matured. Is it so?? Matured ppl cant have fun?? Really?? I dunno. Personally, I luv being a kid. Obviously I came from a pampered family sooo I luv attention from some1 dat I luv. Hang on!! I luv when ppl giving me his attention but only from some particular ppl only. Helllooooo~~ I hate paparazzi okeyh~~!!

As a conclusion, doing charity jobs had stabilized my life. I wanna be in a corporate (high class/ versatile) lifestyle but I still didn’t forget where did I came from.

p/s: no matter how high u fly, never forget the roots. No matter how fast u runs, never forget to walk.

Holiday

Hye ol!!

Weeee~~ tmr m going back to Johor.. nice ah?? Cant wait for it!!! siyesly!!! hehehe I misz the moment when ppl care about me. Scold me when I didnt eat. Warn me when I sleep late. Nag at me when m down. Obviously, teasing me when I woke up late. Opsss~~ bad habit..hehehe..

Ermm..I didnt pack my stuff yet.Perhaps later. aaaaa~~~ m working on my so called "mini-thesis". Oh God~~ chaiyok2!!! hahaha..

I would like to take diz opportunity to thx to my brother who are doing his practical now. Thx for ur concern for diz 1 whole day coz worry about how m going to go to Mdn Gpng. From morning till I update u wit the latest status. Plus thx coz praying dat tonite will be another black out so dat I'll be scared to stay in room ALONE. =_=" I'll inform u anythng via phones.

Promise (^_^)v Sooo no worry.

Then to my best buddy 1. Thx for ur suggestion for asking me to go to the field and scream. I like it BUT perhaps I'll use it some other times. =P About ur another suggestion, ermmm I'll think about it. U knew me. Thx coz at least u make me laugh though I've pretend to. =_="

Then to my best buddy 2. I luv u gurlz..hahaha..if God will, we'll meet next Tuesday. Story Mory okeyh??? Thx coz texting me n give me some advices. Luv u soo much.. =)

Then to my "granny" here. Thx for ur treat. hehehe..after diz no more break fast but breakfast togther..okeyh?? u knew me deep inside. Thx a lot =)

To ol (included ppl who I dont know but they know me) happy holiday!!! Enjoy the Hari Raya. Appreciate ppl around u while they r still in ur circle. Who knows, perhaps diz is ur last Hari Raya together.

p/s: Mimomimo I'll misz u soooooooooo much.When I come back, we'll have a date togther..okeyh?? To my Buncit..take care here.. I cant bring u along diz time..sooo sad =(

Hold My Hand

weeeee~~ hye ol!! I knew u misz me..ahaks..here I am..M back..weeee~~ (^_^)v

Ermmm u know wat?? Diz year Ramadhan is the best Ramadhan I ever had. Though tmr is 21st of Ramadhan n we still have another 9 day to go BUT its really2 meaningful to me. Everything is difference. Starting from 1st of Ramadhan until today. I wont regret if diz is my last Ramadhan.

I wanna share wit u about my activity during last weekend. As stated in my fb status, m off to Kampung Redang Punggor, Teluk Intan. I was involved with RECMO-9. It was a great experience I ever had. It is a home-stay program. Can u imagine how do I look like??? M kinna person who hard to mix wit other ppl. I didnt speak much. Sooo~~ wat do u think?? Naaaaa~~ u r wrong..hahaha.. I can make myself feel comfortable there. Ermmm enaf wit it n lets go deep into sth dat may touch ur heart.

In my adopted family's house, my adopted father taking care of her mother. He has maid. His maid will help him. His mother is having a strok. When I look at her, she's remind me of my own grandmother. When I look at her I can see dat she is lonely and wanna share many things but she cant. The most hardest thing is, she is crying when we say we wanna go back. She's not screaming but we can see her eyes is full of tears n drop through her chicks. When I look at her make me think of sth. How will she be if no 1 is taking care of her?? Look. She's fully depends on other ppl. Eat, bath, everythng. Lets say ppl didnt give her food than wat happn?? M wonder, how will I be if m in her place?

During the module I've 1 group members from the villagers. She is nice. She has a fair skin n gentle. She's humble n she has almost every single thing dat malay gurlz should have. However she juz went to school until she is 14 years old bcoz of health problem. She is difference. Her younger sister is taking care of her. She doesnt acts as her age. U get wat I meant?? I didnt ask much about her past but m juz proud of her. ermm..Sth dat touch my heart is during 1 module called " Impianku". She has a wonderful dream.

During the module also I was touched by the kids's dream. One of them wanna be a motor cross racer. He draws the picture of motorcycle. I still remember how does it looks like. Another one, he draws a picture of a man inside of sampan n he is fishing. U know wat he told us?? He said dat " It was the best thing I wanna do bcoz it is my hobby. My late father bring me to go for fishing".

During closing ceremony I be the MC...hahaha...Ok fine dats not the point actually. RECMO gave the orphanage some donation. I feel touch when look at them BUT ive to contrl myself. (Dont wanna be an emotional MC..hahaha). They look so happy. Its hard to say in words but it was a beautiful moment.

We go to 30 August. ermm wat hppnd?? I was involved wit International Iftar. My frenz from Independence Day invited Orphanage and Poor. Again!!! M crying in front of the VIP. Ok fine! m the PnP gurl..hahaha..I asked my colleague to replace me for a while. I ate wit the orphanage. They asked me (in malay) " Sis, lets come to our house n make some activity". waaaa~~~ tacing2..huhuhu.. I dunno. I cant look into their eyes. I feel sad.

As conclusion, I juz wanna share wit u one song sing by Maher Zain entitled Hold My Hand. Hope, my story will make u realize about ur kind heart. Quoted from the Song " We Share The Same Bright Sun The Same Round Moon Why Dont We Share The Same Love"

p/s: Love others as how u love urself

Ethics

Hye ol !!!

Feel like wanna share sth. I guess I found answers for my questions in my class..Yeaaa rite..seems like m applying wat I learnt in class into my life rather than onto a piece of paper (exam). hehehe. U know me rite?? Speak less Think More (^_^).

M taking Corporate Ethics. Supposedly m applying ol theories dat I learnt into business but it seems like suite my life bttr =_=" hahahaha..Though I juz learnt 3 theory of ethics, but I like it. Yeaaa~~ its a dry subject but interesting.

Juz wanna share a few points from my class. Ive learnt 2 theory of ethics: Kantian and Utilitarian. In order to classify them depend on 2 things: look at the consequences or look at the action itself. For both theory have difference perspective. Kantian think about others n not ourself but utilitarian think about ourself n how it effect others. I owez asking around, do we should be selfish? This theory answered my question.

For Kantian it has 2 view point: put ourself in shoes of receiver and never treats other ppls as a means but as an end. This apply to high level of organization. M sorry but no offense. This only wat I think n m not totally rite. You may have ur own views. Sometimes, ppl at the top didn't understand ppl at the bottom. Get wat I meant? Its true bos / superior can give instructions to employee/ subordinate. However, do u realize the way u give and instruction?? U r saying like they r ur slave. C'mon~~ Instruction, Order, Ask and Begging is diff. Can't u differentiate it?

Lastly, Theory of Right. It has a lot of points but m juz wanna focus on Aristotle's Theory of Virtue Right. Wat is virtue?? It meant character trait that manifest itself in habitual action. We cant change in a blink of eyes. It takes time. Dont expect ppl may change as wat u wanna them to be. No one is perfect neither me. Dats wat m telling u now. We cant force love and attitude but we can nurture them. We cant expect ppl to love us in a minute..Hellooooo~~ its not a fairy tale okeyh~~hahahaha..Same goes to attitude. Another point, he said dat, we should determine moderate character. Diz answered my question " How to differentiate between arrogant and courage?" The answer is, if u r tooooo courage, u r arrogant. If u r not courage u r coward. Be moderate by juz being courage.

Enaaafff!!!toooo many theories in the early of the day....hahahaha..ok fine..I stop here...

p/s: I found it is a nice says " We can juz bring the horse to the river BUT we cant force the horse to drink". Wat I think is, we don't know whether the horse is thirsty or not. So, y should we bring it there? Yeaa we cant force it. If it didnt thirsty, y should it drink?? rite?? Y must blaming the horse?? U should know the horse bttr. Whether it thirsty or not. Know it bttr..

Attention!!!

Sir Yes Sir!!!

hehehe...Hye ol!!

Sometimes I wish I can go to some place where no one know me..Give me a break plz~~ need my space...It was okeyh if ppl juz smile n wave. I hate catching ppl eyes.. I prefer a low profile act but high profile personal..get my point??

M kinna secretive. Hard for me to share sth personal. U know y?? Bcoz I dont wanna let ppl know my weaknesses coz dat may effect me in term of life.

p/s: Really hate the situation when ppl talk behind my back...

Speak Through Pictures

I May Look Like Diz b4

But Then I Realize

No Matter Wat.. Keep

Coz U Look

If U Didn't

p/s: Pictures tell everything

A Stupid Tree

Hye Ol!!

Wanna share wit u a story about a tree. A Stupid Tree.

Hello there. My name is Mr. Trunk. M a tree. I was planted at the garden. It was a nice and cool garden. Its really comfortable to be here. With the green scenery, birds singing beautiful melody and the sounds of water are flowing from the river.Its nice rite?? Hang on. Dats not the end yet. I was pampered by the human. They really take care of me. They know wat they should do when falls, autumn, spring and summer. Enaf water, enaf supplement and even I was given a treatment when I was affected by the disease / virus.

However, that's the old story. I was moved to somewhere else. Some place that I never imagine of. The place is more or less like previous garden but its not the same. Yea.. There is river flowing, birds, winds but its not the same. Sooo based on human laws, we've to adapt ourself with the environment instead of keep complaining2 n complaining. Hence, here I am. I try to adapt with the new environment.

Time goes by and m getting used with the environment. Howeva, m kinna misz my previous garden. I keep moving on in the new garden. U know wat Ive learnt a lot in a new garden.

I used to help ppl. Dats my purpose. I used to be the shelter, the place for them to take a nap, for kids to climb up and fall down. Without they realize, m the one who hold the land from sliding. Dats me. M happy when ppls are happy. Dats my nature. I breath in carbon dioxide ( acidic but not tooo acidic) n release oxygen for ppls. I take the bad n release the good. Dats me.

Howeva, sometimes ppl dont realize when I need them. I didnt blame them. I juz blame myself. I feel afraid to ask them. I know they will help me by ol meants but I didnt tell them. Ive my own reasons for diz. M kinna sad. Though m strong but as follow to the laws of creation, I do have disadvantages. Sometimes I feel weak. I feel sad.

One day, drought occurred. I asked ppl for water. M crying. I feel weak. They didnt listen to me. Coz m juz asking them from inside of my heart. I keep silent n still standing there as usual. Supporting and helping ppls. As time goes by, m getting weak n weaker. M hoping they will give me some water. I keep hoping and hoping until I became hopeless.

M asking around. " Hey Miss Windy, can u give me some water??" no response. " Hey Mr. Cloud, can u give me some water??" no response. Suddenly come little gurlz and said to herself " Pity diz tree. Its dry. It needs water." Then she took out a bottle of water n shower me with the water. I feel bttr n touch wit the kid.

As time goes by, m getting weaker n weaker. And finally I...

p/s: Used ur imagination to think wat will hppn next to the Mr. Trunk.