Steps by Steps

Dear All,


Hellooooooooo to new semester and bye bye to January Semester. So far, everything run smoothly and slow =I . So this semester gonna be my last semester in UTP (hope so =D). I'll be having my convocation day on 21st October 2012. So, I wanna keep my strength to throw "the hat" as high as possible cause it pays and shows how much fun I had through out my life in UTP (#honestly speaking). From FA couple =P to Mamak gang to Event gang and hello bye gang. hehe..


Tell you what, even though this semester is my last semester in UTP but I feel like it is tougher than my previous semester. Why?? Jeng Jeng Jeng...cause bla bla bla.. anyway..thanks to my FA couple for your time and effort. It really means a lot to me. So, this semester I need to keep strong as how my FA couple is. Of course, throughout the journey, tears gonna flowing like waterfall T.T but I take it as my foundation or base for me to float. erk!! =_=" (#rounded people floating easily).  So people, pray for me. I can make it through for 7 month, why not this 4 month... Right?? Yea, perhaps I can say, now the factors are different like distance, time, money but will think about it later. I need to distract myself and get myself back as soon as possible. 


In fact, it is tiring to cry and stop continuously while you feel better after cried and will cry again in few minutes. Its not that I don't stop myself from crying but I just can't bare with it inside. The easiest way is, let it flow whenever it feels like flowing. Like korean said " Ottoke!!" hahaha Crying Machine. 


Lastly, to whom it may concern..please take care of yourself. I'm struggling really really hard to get better as soon as possible so it won't become your burden any more. I know that you'll get annoyed soon but I hope you can bare with me for few more weeks. At least until when I feel like I'm stable and busy. I'll make myself as busy as possible and will try my best to feel better. I'm really looking forward to have couples of visit to your place later. 


p/s: crying doesn't meant your are weak but giving some space for yourself to express your real feeling while gathering strength to bounce back 

If that is Allah will, He will show you with regard nothing can stop Him

Hello everyone,

This week is a heavy week for me. I don't know how to start. What can I say, it taught me a lot. From friendship, love, betrayal, trust, respect and honesty. The hardest part is about memories. It is a bad memories. I feel burden. I feel uncomfortable. I feel hatred. I feel mad. Feel shame. Feel wanna cry all day long non stop. The worst part is feel of betrayed. However, at the same, I feel what happened is a give or sign from Allah. If we try to re-look at the incident back, it is properly plan and executed wonderfully. The hurt, the tears, the hatred are part of the memory.

I am not a type of person who can easily forget what had happened. Either it is a good or vice versa, I will remember every single things about it. From the text, the idea, the moment, the time, the doer, and the discussion of course. It is a painful memory that teach me on how to handle things in the future. I do admit, no one perfect. However, I do believe, people can change. Chances are always there for people to grab. BUT, hopefully, and please use the chance properly and wisely.

When we talk about marriage. Honestly I cant wait for that moment. BUT I have dreams that I aimed to achieve. I wanna prepare myself to be a good muslim, mother and wife. For me, marriage is not only about make "that" relationship halal. It comes with responsibilities. Can I wake up before him? Can I be patient in case I didn't get what I want? Can I understand his situation when he can't meet my expectation? Can I be his makmum? Can I stop from thinking something stupid and crying all night long? Can I feel happy with his weaknesses? Can I calmly said I'm angry or mad at him and can't accept what he did? Can I love him until end of my life without regret it for the rest of my life? Can I stop bring back the painful, unforgettably memory when we fight with each other? Can I be patient when we fight with each other? Can I accept him as how he is and be in love with him with no reasons until end of my life? Can I respect him and listen to him? Can I accept the fact when he leaves me and this world? Can I be with him until Jannah? Can I?

When we talk about friendship, I do appreciate my friends whom I consider as mine. Sad and happy memory we share. The up and downs we go through it together. I do admit, I'm not totally a good friends for people to have. BUT I'm trying my best to give the best as a friend. I don't have many friends because as for me, I do only care for those who really care about me. That's why, I feel hard to loose a friend. Once I decided to break him / her from my circles, then that's it. People come and go as how they want it. Besides my parents and sister, I just have friends here that will support me and be with me when I'm in need. I didn't expect much from a friend. Just a simple care and love is sufficient for me to be strong and get through the problems. When I feel lost and crazy, I need a friend who can grab me and bring me back to the real world. When I feel sad or wanna cry, I need a friend who can lend her shoulder for me to cry on and a couple of hand to hug me, make me feel warm. When I feel happy, I need a friend who can crazily jump like a monkey with me. When I feel sick, I need a friend who can pray for me to get well soon. When I feel burden, I need a friend who I can share the burden with. When I feel blur, I need a friend to explain and give me opinions. This are the definition of friends in my life.

So peps, please, I'm begging and reminding you. Please3~~ don't ever2 hurt your love one and friends. Appreciate them. Because the painful is hardly to describe but the scars can be severe. However, the feel of hatred and angry are the burden that you will bring all the way of your life. What for right? Left it behind. Move on and let it go. Its hard though but no harm if we try.

p/s: pray for me

Something to Tell

Dear all,

When someone telling you a story / asking your opinions / sharing their thoughts

at least

listen carefully. Worst come to worst, just pretend that you are interested with the topic even though you are not. Just don't spoiling other moods who is excitedly share with you

Thank you

Compliment

Dear all,

Have you ever wonder how do people feel after been compliment by someone? Happy? Touch? Upset? Sad? Angry? Let me tell you a story.

Once upon a time, there was a low profile, lame and unorganised girl. What in her mind is, she doesn't care what people might think about her so long as she feels comfortable with herself. She was surrounded with beautiful girls. It drove her to be one. However, as time goes by she gave up. This is because no matter what she did, she will end up makes herself look stupid and embarrassed herself.

Her best friend is one of the most popular girls in school. To be honest, it’s been hard to her. Of course, she feels jealous but friendship is more important than beauty. She kept it inside without letting her friend know about it.

After a while, this girl felt in love with someone so called "retired womanizer". As a successful womanizer, of course he was surrounded with tremendous beautiful girl. It makes her felt so insecure. The worst part is, in rank 1 -10 she just gets 6 to 7. Means, she’s not even pretty in his eyes. It is more than enough to make her unmotivated.

Since that day, she always looks at beautiful girl and say, hey that girl is beautiful. In fact, she’s actually saying, I’m not like them. She love attention and always wants to be the centre of attraction. She loves when someone said she has nice cloth, look different when she put on makeup, looks this and that.

Her boyfriend (her boys buddy) never said anything about her appearance exept condemning her. Again, she feels down and less motivated. She did watch a video about beauty. In the video stated that, beauty is abstract. We can’t define beauty. But still she needs a compliment.

Recently, she met a guy. Actually she knows about him long time ago but never talk to each other. He is retired womanizer, sweet talker, handsome and gentleman. To be honest, being compliment by him is something that she never thought. Hellooo~~ you are being compliment by womanizer ok! LOL.

Tell you what, even though it is a lie but at least in some way, it makes her feel better and appreciated. By saying, you are not beautiful but cute in your own way is enough to make her smile all day. Instead of saying pretty rather than beautiful is unique in a sense of appreciating the girl existence. To the man who has complemented her, thank you so much. I know you are lying but at least I’m happy to see her smile and get blushing.

p/s: I am beautiful as the way I am ^_^

Patience

Dear all,

I am sooooooo happy and I don't know how to express it. Alhamdullilah I got 4.00 for my internship!!! The flat four (4 flat). hahaha.. I screamed out loud when I know my result. The thing is I got a dream that I will get either B+ or A-. That’s why I am so nervous to wait for the result. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! Still wanna scream now LOL

I know its sounds silly to be happy about it but for me it is something that I should be proud of. C’mon! 4 years studying in UTP and never get DL award. Suddenly I get 4 flat. It does really help me a lot.

Alhamdullilah. The tears, anger, stress and sadness are paid with the good result. I would like to thank to those who are always supporting and help me through my internship. It’s pretty hard though. However, with your support and guidance, I manage to get through it.

So peeps, what can I say, in whatever things you do, be strong and patience. He has a better plan for you. If you didn’t get the pay right here right now, do believe you will get the pay later. And if someone makes you feel bad, mad or sad, do believe it’s not your job to punish him/her. Let them be. Forgive them. He will arrange something bigger for you to teach them.

p/s: Human interaction is like nail and walls.

Happy Birthday Abang! =D

Dear All,

Look Deep Inside The Eyes, What Did You See? =D

This silly girl had plan something for him, a day before his birthday. From
UTP ---> Zoo Taiping ---> Gunung Lang Ipoh ---> Jusco ---> UTP ---> Tesco Pengkalan ---> UTP

This entry is dedicated for him. =D

Errr...

Honestly, he looks like this when he's stress or angry =S

I can't tell you how I feel but I am "The Crying Machine", my tears burst out when I see his smile. hehehe..We do enjoy ourself yesterday. Since 7.30, we leaved UTP and back to UTP around 12 sth. Once we reach UTP, our friends are waiting for him. ngeee ngeee. Prank time! Sorry lalink~

Happy Birthday Sayang! May Allah bless you. Hopefully, you are getting better as compared to before. Be happier, more successful, cheerful, less stress, more productive. In short, be more positive and less negative. Semoga sayang berjaya di dunia dan akhirat. You are the best thing I ever had. Alhamdullilah.

p/s: will always remember this " Just wear it, you look nice with it". Glurp~ Blushing!! =D

What Do People Mean by Be Yourself?

Hai all!

How's thing going? I would like to ask your opinion. Have you heard people said to you " c,mon! be yourself. Everythings gonna be fine". What do you think about those words?

For me personally its hard to be myself. hehehe why? Coz I keep looking at others and said "Why I cant be like them?" Look at it in good perspective, its good for our bettermen. But what if the other way round? It tends to make us not thankful with what we have.

Take it this way. If you are trying to look beautiful while you are not, it makes you look horible. If you are trying to get attention while you are not the centre of attraction, it makes you look desperate. Lets combine both! You look horrible and desperate..tadaaaa! magic...hahahaha..Just feel like playing with words tonight.

So people, the points are; be yourself and be happy with it. Because you look stupid when you try to be like others..hehehe and such a pitiful when he doesnt notice it...

p/s: its been hard sometimes. wish you know this =D