Hai all,
Thanx to my "great" morning whereby I had a"pleasant" trip to Pavillion. From pavillion then walk to the KLCC. Nice ah? Never expect it will took 2 hours to go to KLCC from my house. Once I reached the office, everyone look at me like im doing a big crime! Ok fine. Im late for about 1 and half hours.
Next, I never expect to spend my 2 hours visit by going to KL sentral and eating the nasi ayam. I had my own plan but dont want to spoil others plan. So, with tears I say good bye. I hate saying it actually.
Conclusion, 2 hours in the morning and evening had give me a big impact on today. This 2 hours create a sweet and "sour" memories.
p/s: Im not crying bcoz you are leaving Its bcoz I met someone that always accompany me when I wanna do or get sth. Its really turn out to be like wat I post before.
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
24 August 2011
Hi All
Actually I've a long list to share. Start with my internship experience, Ramadhan, family, love life, friends, life in KL and last but not least my new life here.. But I’ll choose certain things to be shared.
I love my new life style. Learn to manage the house, bills, rooms, and myself. Honestly it is a challenge to me to have everything in my head. Clean the house and room, pay the bills, cook, task at work place, logbook, internship project and etc. I would say I almost get pissed off with it. But thats how it should be. Now Im getting used to it.
I do have dream to work with my host company. Im imagining how is their manner, how they treat other, how they appreciate other, feel of togetherness and of coz feel the presence of others. Now, Im there. Being part of them is not as easy you see. Three month Ive gone through, a lot of things happened. Mostly make me feel bad. Im happy to go to work, learn something new and get myself involve with the new task. I love keep myself busy. Unfortunately, its not how I want it to be. Everyday I go to work, I just feel Ive to. If I didnt go, they will deduct my allowance. It is not something I enjoy. You know why? It is not because I hate my work, it just that I feel frustrated with the people. Of course, there are some moment I feel happy and most of time I feel unhappy. I did try my best to change. Start with the way I talk, look and work. Sadly, I just realise I make myself look stupid. Im just one isolated girl sitted at the corner surrounded by the cubical. People wont believe me if I said Im the most quite and the one who like to smile there. Thank god, I got my SV. She is the only friend Ive there. She is nice. Beside her, I didnt talk much with other. I dont know, sometime they just bluffing, teasing each other and the one that I dont really into is gossiping about others. Unfortunately, my SV going to resign effectively on 2nd of November this year. I keep thinking myself, who Im gonna talk with. Sigh.
Second, I missed my late grandfather. Normally, when Ive problem, I’ll sit beside him, tell him my problem and he will advice me. I know its sound lame to sit with your grandfather and have a chit chat but I like it. Normally I’ll listen from both, grandfather (father side) and grandmother (mother side). The difference between both are my late grandfather is cool, relax, and his words make me feel calm. Today I cry at office due to something that make me feel offended (not first time). When I came back from work, I took taxi. The driver look exactly like my late grandfather. His smell ( ciggrate made of leave) , his wrinkle hand, his face shape, and the way he talk. I feel like today, I reached the maximum level of my patient with my office mate.Suddenly, I met the taxi driver who exactly look like my late grandfather. Honestly, I feel a bit relief. Although I couldnt share with him what I feel and gone through, at least I can meet someone who look like him.
Just a litle bit sharing about my late grandfather. Normally , the last week of Ramadhan, he will call my uncle and aunt and we will breakfast together. As javanese, we have one culture where by, we will send food to our neighbour or relative at the end of Ramadhan. So, my late grandfather will call all of us to eat and cook at his house. Early in the morning, he will check his birds. He is a birds lover. I still remember, when we promised to “ balik kampung”, I can see him waiting at the stairs in front of his house. I tell you what. He can remember all of his son n daughter car registration number. The one that I wont forget until the end of my life, he will buy us Soto for supper. After tarawikh prayer, he wil buy soto and all of us will eat together. Thats why I rarely eat Soto when Im at Perak although I love it. It is because its remind me of him. He always say to me, “ accompany me”. I missed him sooo much. I dont know. Normally, when I sad, he will be with me and talk to me. Even if I didnt tell him what happened, he will give me his advice.
As a conclusion, internship not only let me stay at KL and let me manage my life myself, I also need to face the challenge. The challenge that Im scared the most. Being lonely and sickness.
p/s: Thanx to those who with me when Im in need.
Actually I've a long list to share. Start with my internship experience, Ramadhan, family, love life, friends, life in KL and last but not least my new life here.. But I’ll choose certain things to be shared.
I love my new life style. Learn to manage the house, bills, rooms, and myself. Honestly it is a challenge to me to have everything in my head. Clean the house and room, pay the bills, cook, task at work place, logbook, internship project and etc. I would say I almost get pissed off with it. But thats how it should be. Now Im getting used to it.
I do have dream to work with my host company. Im imagining how is their manner, how they treat other, how they appreciate other, feel of togetherness and of coz feel the presence of others. Now, Im there. Being part of them is not as easy you see. Three month Ive gone through, a lot of things happened. Mostly make me feel bad. Im happy to go to work, learn something new and get myself involve with the new task. I love keep myself busy. Unfortunately, its not how I want it to be. Everyday I go to work, I just feel Ive to. If I didnt go, they will deduct my allowance. It is not something I enjoy. You know why? It is not because I hate my work, it just that I feel frustrated with the people. Of course, there are some moment I feel happy and most of time I feel unhappy. I did try my best to change. Start with the way I talk, look and work. Sadly, I just realise I make myself look stupid. Im just one isolated girl sitted at the corner surrounded by the cubical. People wont believe me if I said Im the most quite and the one who like to smile there. Thank god, I got my SV. She is the only friend Ive there. She is nice. Beside her, I didnt talk much with other. I dont know, sometime they just bluffing, teasing each other and the one that I dont really into is gossiping about others. Unfortunately, my SV going to resign effectively on 2nd of November this year. I keep thinking myself, who Im gonna talk with. Sigh.
Second, I missed my late grandfather. Normally, when Ive problem, I’ll sit beside him, tell him my problem and he will advice me. I know its sound lame to sit with your grandfather and have a chit chat but I like it. Normally I’ll listen from both, grandfather (father side) and grandmother (mother side). The difference between both are my late grandfather is cool, relax, and his words make me feel calm. Today I cry at office due to something that make me feel offended (not first time). When I came back from work, I took taxi. The driver look exactly like my late grandfather. His smell ( ciggrate made of leave) , his wrinkle hand, his face shape, and the way he talk. I feel like today, I reached the maximum level of my patient with my office mate.Suddenly, I met the taxi driver who exactly look like my late grandfather. Honestly, I feel a bit relief. Although I couldnt share with him what I feel and gone through, at least I can meet someone who look like him.
Just a litle bit sharing about my late grandfather. Normally , the last week of Ramadhan, he will call my uncle and aunt and we will breakfast together. As javanese, we have one culture where by, we will send food to our neighbour or relative at the end of Ramadhan. So, my late grandfather will call all of us to eat and cook at his house. Early in the morning, he will check his birds. He is a birds lover. I still remember, when we promised to “ balik kampung”, I can see him waiting at the stairs in front of his house. I tell you what. He can remember all of his son n daughter car registration number. The one that I wont forget until the end of my life, he will buy us Soto for supper. After tarawikh prayer, he wil buy soto and all of us will eat together. Thats why I rarely eat Soto when Im at Perak although I love it. It is because its remind me of him. He always say to me, “ accompany me”. I missed him sooo much. I dont know. Normally, when I sad, he will be with me and talk to me. Even if I didnt tell him what happened, he will give me his advice.
As a conclusion, internship not only let me stay at KL and let me manage my life myself, I also need to face the challenge. The challenge that Im scared the most. Being lonely and sickness.
p/s: Thanx to those who with me when Im in need.
Monday, July 25, 2011
Distance
Dear you,
Distance make love grow fonder. But I would say distance may make the love disappear through the thin air. Silence is better than words. But silence is killing you inside. Waiting and hoping for every moments in your life. Every text n message buzzing ur inbox will drive you crazy.
Asking what your heart wants is not a good solution. Why? Bcoz your heart is searching and wondering. Why is this, Why is that. Should be this way, Should be that way. In the end, the point is only "Attention".
If you love someone, never let them go away from you. Hold them and make them feel your present. Make them feel secure and safe. Just to let u know something, Ive lost someone in my life before. I know how it feels. Endless regret.
p/s: I rarely speak what I mean to.
Distance make love grow fonder. But I would say distance may make the love disappear through the thin air. Silence is better than words. But silence is killing you inside. Waiting and hoping for every moments in your life. Every text n message buzzing ur inbox will drive you crazy.
Asking what your heart wants is not a good solution. Why? Bcoz your heart is searching and wondering. Why is this, Why is that. Should be this way, Should be that way. In the end, the point is only "Attention".
If you love someone, never let them go away from you. Hold them and make them feel your present. Make them feel secure and safe. Just to let u know something, Ive lost someone in my life before. I know how it feels. Endless regret.
p/s: I rarely speak what I mean to.
Monday, July 18, 2011
Prince Charming and Cat
Dear all
Quite a number of day I didnt visit my blogging world. What? Visit? Sounds soooo formal.. errrr is it a sign that telling Im getting professional? teeet obviuosly not..hahahaha. JK.So for today entry I would like to share about prince charming. Of coz not shrek or cinderalla's and snow white's husband plus not even think of beauty's beast. Its about my prince charming. feewwww Im melting...hahahaha crazy me
Im pretty sure, the girls out there do have dreaming about someone to be their life partner. (Excluding actor). So do I. hehe. Dont laugh if I said I do have dream to marry a prince. From which royal blood? errr I didnt think about it. hahahaha. To make it short, everyone would love to have a better and capable to create their life as what they dreams of. So do I.
Letting go your own dream and creating a new one are two difference things. I know Im thinking too much on my future but Im a type of person who is aiming for something. It will leads me on where and what should I do now. It doesnt mean Im trying to challenge my destiny.Obviously not. I do believe in this, " God didnt change one destiny accept he himself".
Somehow, without I realise, I became too forcy. Arrogantly, I'll ensure people around me will do and follow as what I want and planned. Without realising it, Im hurting others feeling and killing myself. There is only one word would describe the entire thing I did, 'WORRY'. Im just couldnt sit silently without trying my hardest to get something I want. If I didnt get it, I wont regret it.
After all, I would like to apologize who ever may or had involved with me. It just, Im worry about my future and myself. I do agree it sounds selfish but Im so sorry, I have to. Im sorry for the pressure that I put. Im sorry for my stubborness. Im sorry for me who is being selfish. Just to let you know, in the end, you also will get the benefits. Im not the one who success. Im not the one who got good placement. Im not the one who considered to be successful. You are the one.
Lastly, I will do everything I could to be the shoulder you can lean on, backbone to support, wings to make you fly higher, brain to rationalize, and heart to love. Perhaps you may heard this, to get the medicine, you must get the poison. I might be the poison who keep smashing, pressuring, and make you down, but Im also trying my best to be the one who can cured you.
p/s: why do I love cat? It may has sharp claws and teeth but it also cute and tame. Sounds like me ah?? LOL
Quite a number of day I didnt visit my blogging world. What? Visit? Sounds soooo formal.. errrr is it a sign that telling Im getting professional? teeet obviuosly not..hahahaha. JK.So for today entry I would like to share about prince charming. Of coz not shrek or cinderalla's and snow white's husband plus not even think of beauty's beast. Its about my prince charming. feewwww Im melting...hahahaha crazy me
Im pretty sure, the girls out there do have dreaming about someone to be their life partner. (Excluding actor). So do I. hehe. Dont laugh if I said I do have dream to marry a prince. From which royal blood? errr I didnt think about it. hahahaha. To make it short, everyone would love to have a better and capable to create their life as what they dreams of. So do I.
Letting go your own dream and creating a new one are two difference things. I know Im thinking too much on my future but Im a type of person who is aiming for something. It will leads me on where and what should I do now. It doesnt mean Im trying to challenge my destiny.Obviously not. I do believe in this, " God didnt change one destiny accept he himself".
Somehow, without I realise, I became too forcy. Arrogantly, I'll ensure people around me will do and follow as what I want and planned. Without realising it, Im hurting others feeling and killing myself. There is only one word would describe the entire thing I did, 'WORRY'. Im just couldnt sit silently without trying my hardest to get something I want. If I didnt get it, I wont regret it.
After all, I would like to apologize who ever may or had involved with me. It just, Im worry about my future and myself. I do agree it sounds selfish but Im so sorry, I have to. Im sorry for the pressure that I put. Im sorry for my stubborness. Im sorry for me who is being selfish. Just to let you know, in the end, you also will get the benefits. Im not the one who success. Im not the one who got good placement. Im not the one who considered to be successful. You are the one.
Lastly, I will do everything I could to be the shoulder you can lean on, backbone to support, wings to make you fly higher, brain to rationalize, and heart to love. Perhaps you may heard this, to get the medicine, you must get the poison. I might be the poison who keep smashing, pressuring, and make you down, but Im also trying my best to be the one who can cured you.
p/s: why do I love cat? It may has sharp claws and teeth but it also cute and tame. Sounds like me ah?? LOL
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
To My Best Buddy
Hi All,
" If he is for me, get rid of the gap between my heart and his. If he is not for me, make me feel calm with what You had planned" .
To my beloved best buddy, Happy Birthday!!!! Thank you for your time and effort to comfort me. Be a good listener. Be the one that I can fight with. Be a positive side of me. I still remember the moment when I asked you to find a new grilfriend, you said " aishhhh, I have many responsibilities; to my parents, studies and you". I said " what?? me??" He said " yeaaa, you. How can I handle both, my girlfriend and you, the emo2 girl". =_=" grrrrr yea thats you. toooo frank.
Anyway best buddy, you are a great guy. We be friend since I am 10 years old n you are 11 years old. You are one of them who keep teasing me n I will chase you guys all around the school. I feel good when I think about our chilhood. You and your gang teasing girls, feel good being popular and playing with the girls feeling. Group of popular guys who think they are good enough. hehehe..
Lastly, I wish you'll find your future wife soon. I want you to be happy. I feel good to have a best buddy like you. Let me tell you something, I would not allow any girl playing around with you. If she messing up with you, meaning she is messing up with me. You know rite who I am referring to? hehehehe...gotcha!!!! Again, happy birthday best buddy!! I hope you'll be happy forever and be stronger. Stay cool as you always do.
p/s: there are big ship and small ship. The best is friendship (^_^)v . Drop by sometimes, I'll treat you. Promise ^_^
" If he is for me, get rid of the gap between my heart and his. If he is not for me, make me feel calm with what You had planned" .
To my beloved best buddy, Happy Birthday!!!! Thank you for your time and effort to comfort me. Be a good listener. Be the one that I can fight with. Be a positive side of me. I still remember the moment when I asked you to find a new grilfriend, you said " aishhhh, I have many responsibilities; to my parents, studies and you". I said " what?? me??" He said " yeaaa, you. How can I handle both, my girlfriend and you, the emo2 girl". =_=" grrrrr yea thats you. toooo frank.
Anyway best buddy, you are a great guy. We be friend since I am 10 years old n you are 11 years old. You are one of them who keep teasing me n I will chase you guys all around the school. I feel good when I think about our chilhood. You and your gang teasing girls, feel good being popular and playing with the girls feeling. Group of popular guys who think they are good enough. hehehe..
Lastly, I wish you'll find your future wife soon. I want you to be happy. I feel good to have a best buddy like you. Let me tell you something, I would not allow any girl playing around with you. If she messing up with you, meaning she is messing up with me. You know rite who I am referring to? hehehehe...gotcha!!!! Again, happy birthday best buddy!! I hope you'll be happy forever and be stronger. Stay cool as you always do.
p/s: there are big ship and small ship. The best is friendship (^_^)v . Drop by sometimes, I'll treat you. Promise ^_^
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Dear My Heart
Dear My Heart,
Dont only keep thinking that you always get hurt
Dont only think that you are alone
Dont only think that you are empty
Dont only think that you need to collect the pieces of yourself
Dont only think that you need to find love
Dear My Heart,
Please be strong
Please keep moving forward
Please cheer up
Please enjoy your life
Please be happy
Dear My Heart,
U know what Im thinking right now
But please dont think of something stupid
Please my heart
I care about you because I need you through out my life
Dont only keep thinking that you always get hurt
Dont only think that you are alone
Dont only think that you are empty
Dont only think that you need to collect the pieces of yourself
Dont only think that you need to find love
Dear My Heart,
Please be strong
Please keep moving forward
Please cheer up
Please enjoy your life
Please be happy
Dear my heart
Dont give up to love
Dont forget how it feel
Dear My Heart,
U know what Im thinking right now
But please dont think of something stupid
Please my heart
I care about you because I need you through out my life
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Provoke
Hi All
Define give up. Let it go? hmmm what about give more? hehehe Why give up? Not give down? Give left or right? Its sound weird when I said give up means give more. But yeaaaa..I try to give up..LOL
I'm trying my best not to get pissed off by others, but it just me. I would say "whateva" but that is nt what I mean actually. I hate being provoke. Although Its for fun but if it keep happening continously, how would I feel? You are trying to be funny with other people, but do you consider other people who are related to that person? You never do.
If I didnt say anythin doesnt mean I'm ok with it. It just that, I'm trying y best not to let you messing up my life.
p/s: Avoid to get sth meaning you are trying to get it
Define give up. Let it go? hmmm what about give more? hehehe Why give up? Not give down? Give left or right? Its sound weird when I said give up means give more. But yeaaaa..I try to give up..LOL
I'm trying my best not to get pissed off by others, but it just me. I would say "whateva" but that is nt what I mean actually. I hate being provoke. Although Its for fun but if it keep happening continously, how would I feel? You are trying to be funny with other people, but do you consider other people who are related to that person? You never do.
If I didnt say anythin doesnt mean I'm ok with it. It just that, I'm trying y best not to let you messing up my life.
p/s: Avoid to get sth meaning you are trying to get it
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