Lesson From A Bird

Hye~

Kinda weird coz m updating my blog during a day. Ermmm m juz can't wait to share diz story. The story begin when I was walking towards IRC. While arguing (debating actually..lol) with him, suddenly a black, small and red eyes bird appear. Weird ah??

Nthng special about the bird actually but the bird had teach me sth. The bird's wing injured and it cannot fly. It try to fly but keep falling down. It looks funny when the bird fall on its head but its must be soooo hurtful. It keeps trying and keep falling. U know wat?? Although it can't fly, but it jumps bit by bit and try to fly. Still it keeps falling down. U mustn't believe it but yess, it makes a move. It moves from one point to another n its quite far.

Sooo~~wat can u learn from that little bird?? Although u can't go high up or score as much as other but at least u've to try ur best to be better from the previous u . Can u imagine wat will happen to that little bird if it didn't try to fly or even jump?? It can't go anywhere or even worse, it will die there. Another thing is, juz wanna let u know that, its hurtful when u wanna try to help but u don't know how to. Its so sad to juz look at it keep falling and trying but u cannot do anything.

That's all from me. I hope this story will make u think.

p/s: a motivational story during an exam week..ah?? m I high motivated enaf?? naaaa~~

Anything Im Not

Hye! How were things going on?? Better?? Bad?? Or Mixed up?? Arghhh!! Wit diz kind of weather and quiet environment make me feel upside down. =_=” aigooooo Oryte. Let me divide my story into 3 categories: study, emotional and quick update.

STUDY.
OMG!! M in final exam mood!! Aaaaa~~~ can u imagine how was it? Kroh kroh. Juz finished with my 1st paper. LOL. Health Safety & Environment paper. I don’t really know wat I answered. =S Answered it based on my “writing skills”. LOL. Sooo m preparing myself for another 5 papers to go. Gambatte!! Caiyok2!! To ol my frenz, ol da best keyh! Aim high, though u can’t reach the moon but at least u fall on the star.

QUICK UPDATE
For next semester, I was bound with several commitments. For club and events of coz. C’mon! M a eventholic (same as workaholic ) LOL. Ermm m also working on a storyline for a game. Weeehuu~~ m in multimedia line. Quite excited. Hehe =P

EMOTION
Hmmmm~~ diz is the critical part. As usual, the same thing happened. Anythng people do/say will straightly go into my heart. M kinna use to it. So, wat can I do is juz keep silent as my 1st policy for diz semester is silent is better than words. Keep control myself. Arrghhh~~ tired of it.

Another thing is about the possibility of my past bad history to occur again. Lalalalala~~ why must it happen again?? M sooooo sorry. For diz time around, I can’t fight. M effortless. I feel weak. Ive lost soooo many energy during last battle. Juz don’t wanna get involve with the same battle again! LOL Juz kindly reminder, if some1 in, I’ll back off. Sound selfish but m tired with it. When I see it, I will juz sigh n smile. =)

p/s: I watched Megamind. Honestly I learn more than a lot from that story. One of it is, no matter how hard we try our best for others, they can’t see wat we keep inside. Either they are blind or pretend that they didn’t see it. (Taken from Megamind character). Feel like Megamind suite my personality (not appearance) =)

I wish

Feeeuuuuuhhhh~~ After went through sooooo many things, I have made a conclusion. B4 dat, wanna share wit u about wat had happnd to me diz couple of weeks. We start wit my study. Project submission, a line of test and Project Presentation. Unstable mood. Get angry with no reason. Get heart feeling with EVERYONE. Enaf with it. Enaf with complaining.

I should stop saying "I wish". Stop saying "I hope" and "Wat If". Those words lead to frustration. I realize it when I watched a video about Nick Vujicic. I keep complaining y sth like diz, sth like dat and at the end m hurt and frustrated.

Now, I should appreciate wat I've and learn to accept wat I should have although I dont want to. Trying to be the better me. (^_^)v

p/s: thx to u coz being patient wit who I am. The headache me. huhuhu

Smash

Remember diz. Dont let the emotion controls u but u've to control them. aahhhh~~ it was tiring. Fight wit our own feeling. It was ok when we can make things clear.Perhaps our feeling start to accept the fact and we r in rational state. But when we receive another smash! feeeuuuhhh~~ dush dush~~ erkkk~~ we collapsed.

Receiving the same momentum of smash make me tired. weeeeeeeeee~~~ straight go into my heart. please! take 5 needed here~~ hello~~ can u hear me~~ huhuhu.. i was wondering, i wanna smash back, i'll get harder smash. I wanna avoid it, i'll loose mark. So, wat should I do?

p/s: m learning to be stronger but not harder, to be softer but not weaker. however, i dont know how to =_="

Crazy

Owh...U've made my day..u drive me crazy..bcoz of u, my day start at nite..bcoz of u had made my life even more complicated...it was soooooo nice of u...my life turn up side down. Everything jumble up juz bcoz of u..

Juz one more thing. I wanna let u know, no matter how nice and sweet u r, u owe me! Fine I will let u control me diz time. Fine u win! M back of. Remember diz, dont get tooo happy tooo sooon. Juz wait until the exam week. I will teach u a lesson.

p/s: its not for anyone.

Why?

Please change your mode into disappointed mode in order to understand the post.

Have u ever encounter a situation where by u feel dat u r the victim of the situation? Perhaps never. Naaaa~~ let’s make it short.

M wonder..did I ever disturb the other ppl relationship? This is not the first but more than three times its happened. Its kinna offense. M not going to tell u the exact story but juz wanna tell u dat m disappointed with it.

M happy with the progress but I realize the presence of me will ruin everything.

M sorry to say but the best way is making a distance. I dunno how long the distance will be.

p/s: perhaps u don’t know how the feeling was. Juz imagine how the feeling is when excited changed to upset

A Letter

Dear you,

How r u?? Hope u r fine though I know u r not. Actually I wanna ask wat hppnd to u?? Looks like u r not in a good shape. Don't u know dat m owez looking at you without u realizing it?

Do you realize wat had hppnd to urself for diz fews weeks? M soooo worry about u. Don't u feel well? Headache, vomit, fever, hard to breath, etc. Wat diz? Don't you take care of urself? U owez having headache. Why? Again I wanna say, m worry about you. M not only worry about your health but also ur study. I heard dat you owez skip class. Why? Don't you remember your goal for diz sem?

I tell you wat. You r too pampering urself. Sorry no offense. Please! Be stronger. Fight the feeling. Fight the sickness. Fight as much as you can. I feel sad looking at you at one side but I can't do anything. I feel bad when I juz can look at you from a distance but can't do anything for you.

I hope you will feel better after you read my letter. No matter wat, m owez here looking at you and owez be there to support you. Hopefully, one day you will realize the presence of me in your life. You will realize there is some1 at one side of u is worry about you.

Best Regard,

Another side of You