Wish

Sometimes I look up at the stars at night,

wishing that you were holding me tight.

I hold back the tears before they slide down my cheek,

prying to God to keep me strong not weak.

I make a wish in the deepness of my heart,

that soon we'll be together, not so far apart.

I think of all the good times we have shared,

I want you to know that I'll always care.

I want you to hold me and never let me go,

I miss you and love you, just thought I'd let you know

p/s I came across diz poem..its nice n meaningful =)

A Thousand Apologies

Sorry that I love you, sorry that i care

Sorry that we've taken for granted the love that we share

Sorry for the heartache, sorry for the pain

Sorry for what you gave if I didn't give back the same

Sorry for the waiting, sorry to waste your time

Sorry if I'm not worth it, you don't have to be mine

Sorry for mistaking something that I thought was true

Sorry if you don't understand why I do what I do

Sorry for my feelings if they're not enough

Sorry if we can't work through all this stuff

Sorry if you can't fit me into your life

Sorry if all I do is cause us to fight

Sorry if I'm cramping your style or getting in your way

Sorry if i don't say the things you want me to say

Sorry if I don't meausure up to what you want me to be

Sorry if I can't be enough to make you just want me

Sorry for apologizing but I don't know what to do

Sorry if my only dreams consist of me and you

p/s I dedicate diz poem to someone important in my life. Someone who owez wit me through thick n thin. M waiting for ya~~

Best Frenz Forever

As the years pass,

and we grow apart,

I want you to know,

that you're in my heart.

You helped me through problems,

through things good and bad.

You helped me keep smiling,

when I was sad.

You helped me with guys,

you made me stay strong.

How will I live,

when you are gone?

And where the years take us,

no place is too far,

we will think of each other,

wherever we are.

You're a wonderful person,

with a good heart to lend,

and I wnat you to know,

you're a really good friend.

p/s I dedicate diz poem to someone who really important in my life =)

bored

i misz those days. We laught together. We fight together. We back together. Te Quiero Mucho~~

Hmmmm~~

Tonite I cant sleep again. Dunno y. M I too full or too hungry.hehehe. Juz now I read someone blog. Its funny. I see how the blog owner grow up. Teenager life. Interesting. I juz cant wait for my time. I wanna learnt sth new. I wanna feel sth new. It doesnt meant m bored wit my life now but I start to appreciate wat happen to me even though it is sad, fun, upset, angry, or watever feeling it is. I start to realise dat although my life is miserable or it doesnt turn the way I plan, it creates memory. Memory dat I cant delete unless I've loss my memory. Ppl keep saying dat world is cruel, life is sucks or wat ever but as for me, its really meaningful. Everythng hppn in our life have reason. I prefer to look wat I learnt from it rather than keep complaining y it happns to me.

This few days I feel m being love. Dunno wat is it supposed to meant but I like it. I thnk around 4 month I didnt receive any sweet2 gudnite wish. I thnk around 9 month I didnt really care about someone. It was since...nvm. At first I feel awkward when someone dat I dont really close wit send me sweet2 sms, sweet2 words , talk kindly wit me.hehehe. Its sound crazy but I like it. I feel comfortable with it. I also feel awkward when I suddnly really care about others. Dunno wat hppnd. Wat m saying here is not only for only one particular person. Its for ol. I really appreciate it.

I thnk I start to move on wit my life. I start to learnt how to make the history be a memory. Memory is memory. Honestly, its quite tough. Its juz a matter of time.

p/s : M not waiting for u. M not hoping dat u'll come back to me. But if one day u come back, u should learnt how to appreciate me and u've to tackle me back. For sure, it is not as easy as b4 bcoz, once hurt, the scar remain forever.

Epi Bday Rum8

Sori rum8 4 everythng. I lied to u. I did it purposely cz if not u'll not come. Btw thx to Sopha cz being the reason for Ada to come...hehehe..nice trick ah?? As her rum8 I try my best to bring everyone important in her life. EE gang, ex- EE gang, Cambodian fam, n Imran. However m quite disappointed cz the one I hope to make her bday more meaningful doesn't help me. M quite sad actually. I juz can't stay cool when she said she feel upset bcz he didn't wish her epi bday. OMG. I dunno how to put it in words. But I juz can't look into her eyes. I feel sori for her. She keep pretend dat she's ok. Yea dats my rum8. She is a gud pretender. Perhaps m too emotional. So, watever wit dat guy. I juz feel annoyed talking about him.

We go back to our party. It is superb. I like the cake. It is a chocolate cake wit white cream. Really nice. Its look like wedding cake. hehehehe. Ermm..btw we bought her a big, short, fat teddy bear. I thnk it is half of her height. With a big tummy and big nose. Soooo cute like me...hehehe.. She look sweet sleep with it. She alr give name to the teddy bear. She call it as 'baby'.

Here, I would like to thx to ol my frenz who help me make her bday memorable. Thx to Sopha, Farah, Sarah, Istor, Azfar, Ayien,Nizam, Imran, Piseth, Rainseigh, Nan, Udom, JJ, Lio,Pitc, and my sweetheart, Davuth. Thank you sooo much coz helping me.

For my rum8, no matter wat, u r still older than me n make sure u get married first b4 me. So, u can tell ur children about us. About our family here. About our story here. Juz remmber diz. Let him be in one part of ur brain called 'memory'. Wat u've to do now is be strong, look forward and move on.

Shock

Dunno y I cant sleep tonite. Everyone seems down. My frenz here, my old frenz, my sister here n me myself. I called my primary skul frenz juz now. He sound sad. He try to deny dat he has a problem. I know he has a problem. The way he talk, his voice. Though I cant see his eyes but I know he really2 sad. Finally he tell me wat happnd. M really sorry for him. I understand how he feels. Perhaps we r in the same bots. Everyone are very sensitive nowadays including me of course.

Now its raining. Supposedly it will be very nice to sleep but I juz cant. Perhaps m shock or cant except the fact. My hand still shacking now. Actually juz now I open someone fs. Someone dat really important in my life. Suddenly my tears..... I saw his pic wit a gurlz. Dat gurlz look nice. Really2 diff compared to me.

I feel sad not bcz I cant accept dat he is taking pic wit her. I feel sad bcz she looks like someone dat I wanna b. Honestly, I wanna b a polite gurlz, gentle, being respect, lovable, 'sopan', pretty n etc. But dats not me. Yea I look like so but the truth is m not. M a harsh gurlz. For those who alr knew me they will understand. I've try my best. I dunno how to put it in words,but deep inside me I wanna b someone else. To be frank I wanna be someone dat can fulfill his requirement. I do feel sad coz I cant be like dat. Sometimes I feel jelez with gurlz who r pretty, gentle, sopan, n baik.

I pray, the one who will be my soul mate will accept me as who i'm. He will be my complement. He nvr complaint about my weaknesses but he helps to cover them. So do I. I pray, I can use my strength to cover his weaknesses. Sweetheart I really need you now.