Sleepy

Hye ol!!

I juz woke up from sleep. I dunno y I feel sooo sleepy n tired today.I think everything went well today. Though in the morning some1 took my breakfast at the cafe. Then I missed my appointment with lecture. Got headache in the afternoon. M having my brunch + dinner at 4pm. Sigh~~~

Ok guys..I wanna go to bed again. Hopefully everything will getting bttr tmr.

p/s: M sorry if it makes u annoyed coz m toooooo concern about u. It juz who I am.

Respect

Hye Ol!!!

1st thing 1st, I wanna warn u guys about my post today coz its quite emo...

M juz feel bad or bttr I put it as upset when some1 look down on woman / gurlz. M not saying dat m a gender basis ppl but at least you should pay some respect on us. Its not fair when u announced in ur class saying dat " guys..I hope u bttr watch out coz gurlz owez find u to do programming stuff". I dunno whether he wanna warns us or he wanna challenges us.

Yeaaa I know dat m not a good programmer. Yeaa I admit it. Since I was in foundy I never give up to give a try on programming. Somehow, I feel dat I should stop. BUT I cant do dat. Can u imagine how I feel?? How depressed I am?? Ppl who r good in programming can simply type everything, compile then run. As for me, Ive to start from the beginner level. When I heard from my frenz dat some1 give the above statement, somehow I feel like diz is not my line. I shouldnt be here.

I dunno. Is it the way he wanna motivate us. I dunno. Ive no choice. Wat I gotta do now is, pay attention and work on it. Let me tell u sth. I wanna prove to him dat yeaaa m bad. But m not the worst. Or at least m not dat bad.

p/s: he owes me a smile. U know y?? Coz I cant even smile to my hubby.. =(

Salt

Hye ol!!

Yesterday my hubby ask me.."do u wanna watch salt(he used malay words)" Then I replied " everyday I watch salt coz I've one desk lamp made up of salt"huhuhu..I juz dunno wat does he meant by salt. I sound silly =_=" hahahaha...Then he laughed n said " dat is the title of movie dear". OMG. Yeaaaaa fineee~~ m not updating myself wit the latest movie.

Then we went for midnite movie.. yeeeppyyyy!!!! finally~~~ we got time together..hehehehe..lalalalalala~~~ we discuss about us on our way there n back to campus..I feel sad for 1 whole weeks. I feel bttr now..

Thank You!!!! hehehe

p/s: get to know n learnt

Learning Outcomes

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5th day. I went to the DCN class n I learnt about connection. About sender, receiver, medium, and data. Suddenly sth pop up in my mind. Its about connection between human being. In relationship we've opposite party. If only 1 party receive or send, the data cant be share or transmit. In connection also, every sender n receiver have their own protocol ( sets of rules). Y do we need protocol? To make sure the rules are executed orderly. Dats happn in relationship. Everyone of us have our own principles, mind set and natural behaviors. We've to make sure they correspond to each other in both side. Wat I meant here is, we've to learnt to respect, and try to configure the protocol. It may helps u to understand each other bttr.Diz protocol kinna challenging but helpful. Guess y?? If we know ppl well, we can act how we should be. How about medium?? Medium acts as a carrier / booster in connection. Same concept in relationship. We need sth to spice up our relationship. Its depnd on situation. Either we'll facing problem, we arguing or we keep silent. It shows u where ur relationship direct to. End of DCN class.

Then I went to SE class. I learnt about designing process. Wat can I say from the graph, when we design a system, its may happn situation where by its fluctuate. Sometimes it goes high up and sometimes it goes lower down. In early stage, we may face many kind of problems and errors. As time goes by, its getting bttr. Howeva, it doesnt owez maintain at the same level. We need to improvise our system. Then the errors occurd again n it goes down. When it reaches its turning point, it'll goes up again. In relationship, if we dont know about the persons well, we may put high expectation on them. When they did sth wrong we blamed them. Or in other situation, we expect dat person doing A but he choose B. Its kinna freak me out. huhuhu...

Lessons for today:

- If possible try not to put high expectation on other ppls.

- Get to know ppls.

- Blame urself instead of other ppl.

- Human r not perfect. They cant do everythng dat we wish them to do

- Sometimes we bttr speak wit silent rather than speak wit words.

p/s: when we think too much its hurt.

Happy~~

Hye ol~~

As I promised I'll update my blog 4 1 whole week rite??So wat hppnd today??

Ive no class. Actually Ive lab today but the lab start from week 3 onwards..Sooo I should appreciate the ample time. Today, m on duty for UTPHost. I like it. Honestly I really2 like it. Here I can be how I wanna be in next 5 years. How should I look like n how should I bring myself. Yeaaaa~~ some of my frenz know me well.. They know I love to be in corporate world. Dats my dream. Pray for me ok??

So today we had visit from Sekolah Kebangsaan Tanjung Malim. Siyesly they r kawaaaiiiiii~~~ They r small n cute~~They remind me of my childhood period. Sigh..m getting older =_=" Back to our story. I n my colleague brought them around campus. We went to Chancellor Hall, UTP jungle (garden in front of building 17) then Pocket D. feeeuuuuhhh~~~ kids rite.. It’s quite tiring but I enjoy it. It was fun. Can u imagine, how do I look like taking care of 13 kids?? Perhaps my frenz who know me will laugh out loud. U know y?? Bcoz they know dat my height is more or less like primary school students. So can u imagine?? Funny rite??

At evening my syndrome comes again. Thank god I meet some1. Frankly speaking, she's my twin. She’s definitely known how I felt. She can feel wat I feel. Siyesly. I don’t have to elaborate more. She can get it. Siyesly... We r experiencing the same things, we've same thought, same principle but we've diff hubby..LOL =_=" So tonite I feel bttr. Everythng I kept inside in 4 days alr out..feeuuuuhh~~~ relieeeff~~ Juz now I only asked her " hey, r u ok??" then she told me how she felt. Definitely as same as mine. Then we had a chit chat. Thank you sooo much.

Finally I left u wit some pics

wit my colleague

some of the students

briefing b4 tour around UTP

One of the teachers

p/s: m proud of myself coz m wearing heals today though its not dat high =P

to misz diamond m sooo sorryy~~

Shoes

Hye Ol!!!

Day 3...as usual I went to classes but we've sooo many gaps n it makes me feel tired to wait 4 next class..Everything were fine. I went to Taman Maju to accompany my frenz to buy capsule pillow n one of my senior colleague to buy shoes.

Wat hppnd at shoes shop??? Fyi m a shoes lover. I love shoes. Compared wit other stuff I prefer shoes. Yeaaaa... I've soo many shoes. I like to try on shoes. Then as usual I try the shoes there without any attention to buy it. Then the shop keeper ask me n my frenz " Wat do u wanna buy?" I answrd " We r juz looking around 1st". She went to somewhere else then asked us again " Wat do u wanna buy?" I said " We accompany our frenz". Guess wat her respon??? " If u juz accompany ur frenz then accompany her, dont try any!!!"..OK FINE!!!! IT MAKES ME FEEL OFFENDED. I juz answrd nicely " Ok aunty. Thank you sooo much". I feel like crying. Honestly, I feel like she is humiliating me. Am I sound exaggerate??? M sorry to say. I never eva buy any shoes from dat shop.. EVAAAAA!!!!!! Hellooooo!!! ur shop is not even bttr then Bata!!!!

Yeaaaaa~~~ aunty u r rite!!! Its my fault coz trying ur shoes...Remmber diz name..S*****A!!!!!!! never eva!!!!

After the incident, I prefer to stay quite. I guess dats my style diz semester. If I feel angry or sad or upset, I'll keep silent.

p/s: M crying coz I need my mom now...Really2 need her by my side at diz time. =(

Up and Downs

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My second day...dunno y I fell like wanna write sth 4 diz 1 whole week. Today was funny. U know y?? Coz I n my frenz were asked to leave the class. Actually we cant take dat course diz sem. We've to take it after we came back from internship. I still remember wat the lecturer told us. " Is there any students who r not final year student?? Diz coz was meant to be 4 final year student" We raised up our hand and the lecturer asked " which year r u in??" I answerd " 2nd yr 1st semester". The lecturer replied" m sorry to say but diz course only for final year student. We've case study to discuss n hope u guys would understand. Im sorry but u've to drop diz course". Then honourdly we left the class.. hahahhaahh..I laughed out loud but my frenz almost cry coz cant bare the shame.. For me, it was nice experience coz I got to know how the final year student 's lecturer treat his students. Honestly it is diff.. I like it....siyesly..

At evening I misz my family.I really misz them. I juz came back but really need them now. Yeaaa I've frenz n my hubby but its not the same. Mak Ayah Angah~~ I misz u guys...M crying sob sob sob...I dunno how to tell u wat I feel. Yeaaa Ive sooo many ppl around me. They make jokes, make me smile, but I feel empty. I feel nobody arounds me. M wonder, y cant they differentiate between fake n true smile??? hmmmmm~~ can some1 bring my family here???

At nite I meet 2 guys. One really make me feel annoyd and another one honestly I cant look into his eyes. The 1 who make me feel annyd is not dat bad..Juz he owez teasing me...I hate when he smiles to me though sometime m waiting for it..At least he cheer me up tonite..Another man...hmmmm~~ it is a long story.. I meet him during DCN 1st class.. I asked in ENGLISH I repeat again... in ENGLISH about the class. I never know him. I dunno who is him. I thought he is Pakistanis coz he really2 looks like 1. Tonite I meet him . Guess wat?? He is not. He is malaysian n he his from Penang. OMG!!!! can u imagine how I feel juz now. Soooooo shameful. I know dats nthng wrong speaking in English but I juz dunno y I felt shameful.

As conclusion, today was up and down. I feel up in the begginng of the day, then down in evening then go up again when I meet diz 2 guys, then down again when I came back to my room.

p/s: I need ears coz my ears were tired. Do u get wat I meant??