Relationship

Hye ol!!!

How do u define relationship?? Is it only verbally or bonding between heart?? I've my own definition. I believe so do u. There are some situation where by it makes u feel better n there are some makes u feel down. As for me, I dont really care on how far my networks are (degree of relationship) or how many frenz do I've. I juz care the relationship itself. How well they treat me, do they really help me when m in a bad shape, do they share my sad n happy moment, m i the IP (important person) in their life.

Ive experienced fail relationship. Ive experienced insincere relationship. Ive experienced long lost relationship. M in relationship..hahhaha.. so many relationship, is it?? =_=" When we talk about relationship, for me its sound business.

Wanna share about my brothers. It makes me smile when I think about them. I love them. They r great. Y?? Bcoz they know how to handle me. They know when to listen n quite, when to boost me up, when to protect me,when to stop me n say " hey sis, smile!".The best thing about them, they know when to nag..hahaha...They know I dont like ppl nag on me..Nag, care n remind is 3 diff points. To Davuth, Phoana, Hamzi, Pali, Aj, Im, and Wan, thank you sooo much...U've teach me a lot.

haiiizzeee~~ dont get me wrong. When I said Ive brothers doesnt meant I didnt need love one. hahahaha..People may ask.."hey, u got soooo many brothers and they knew u well, y u still in relationship?? " Perhaps u may answer, " naaaaa...she's guyser (I create the word)" or " she thinks she's pretty enaf to get many guys at once" or " wat kind of gurlz she's..." even worse " doesnt she has pride??" hmmm...u choose urs..

If u r matured enaf, u can differentiate between brother n love one. Can u marry ur brother?? Can u have any xtra feeling wit ur brother?? Can ur brother do love,protect,listen,make u smile,nag at u, at once??? If yes, he must be a super brother..hahahaha..Open up ur mind n ask ur heart, wat is the diff between brother n love one. I dont wanna give u the answer. U need to find it urself. Dats my motto 4 diz sem, " Speak less Think more" .

For u,

When I lost in darkness

U guide with Shine

When I sad in sorrow

U craving me a Smile

When I fall n cant get up

U'll say " hey my gurlz never give up"

When I almost fall down the hill

U hold me tight and forever will

I pray to Allah the All Mighty

We last forever as ever can be

Only Him can determine

When u can say " That gurlz is mine"

Something On My Mind

hye ol!!!

ermmm..I wanna ask u guys..wat makes man be a man??? Heart?? Mind?? Soul?? Body?? Have u ever heard about 3 quotient of human being?? IQ,EQ, and SQ. Honestly m confuse. I dunno how should I be. Strictly its not about my faith. Its about how should I bring myself. Should I be diz or dat?? Wat will ppl say about me??? Yesss I admit m paranoid. Even when ppl look at me at shopping mall, I'll thnk is there any sth wrong on me???

Diz few days I read a motivation book wrote by one of famous motivator. He said dat, juz simply live ur life (feel like some1 had told me b4). I ask my best buddy. Am I listen to others thought tooo much??? Am I??? He said yes u r...aaaahhh~~ he's tooo honest...hahahhaa =_="

I juz need ur opinion. The question is wat is Ego??? People owez said " Juz let ppl talk about u so long as u know urself". If we didnt listen to others, doesnt it meant we r ego??? But if we listen to others, we cant go anywhere...sooo wat do u think??

Some people talk bad about others, make used of others even there are some people who subotaj others. If u the victims, wat will u do??? Will u b quiet or u fight for it?? People never shut their mouth up..am I rite??? sigh~~ m tired of it... =_="

Do u believe on repay??? M not sure whether it is the rite word or not.Wat I meant here is wat u give is wat u get. I do. Y do i said so?? Bcoz I experiencing it now. sigh~~ Wat can I said..Its about time for me to commit n grow up. Wat happn next I juz accept it. I cant complaint it as Ive done the same things to some1 b4. So wat comes around goes around. Lets accept n grow..yosh!!!!

As conclusion, m working on my EQ (Emotional Quotient) and SQ (Spiritual Quotient). Need to repair my heart n brain..oouccchhhh~~~ they fall into pieces..aishhhh~~ How about u?? When u gonna improve urself??


p/s: sory coz i left u wit sooo many question

Does Bygone Be Bygone???

Lets try ur imagination skills.

Imagine urself are digging. U dig really2 hard.U feel tired n u said to urself " I wanna stop here. I cant go any futher". U feel the winds blow that make u cooler. U sit under the nearby tree. U feel better. U start digging again. U feel tired then u stop. As usual, the wind and tree owez there to comfort u n make u dig again n again. Then u made a decision. " I wanna stop here n I guess its enaf for me". Then u sit back under the same tree.The tree tell u " i'll be here to support u n keep shadowing u from the sun". U pick one by one pieces of ur memories n put it inside a box. U lock the box. U put the box inside the hole and start cover the hole back. U said to urself " Memories, m sorry. Dats the best place for u. U r important coz u've teach me a lot but at the same time u hurt me. Please be there n never ever come again". The day after, u come again to the same place. U saw, the hole r uncover n the memories r everywhere. Slowly u collect back ol ur memories n do the same things as u did the day b4. Its hurt u when u've to see ur memories while u dont want too. The same things happnd again n again.

One day, u tell the tree " m tired of diz. I dunno untill when diz things will go on. I digging n keeping n hurt". As usual, the tree will say " hey little girl, no matter wat, m owez here for u. I owez supporting u n shadowing u. Though its hurt me when I see u cry but m glad bcoz u cry with me. It makes me feel upset when u cry bcoz of ur past. U know wat, though u r using me to cover ol ur memories but its fine with me. I know when I support n shadow u from sun, its make u smile n happy." U ask the tree " M wonder untill when u can shadow n support me. M sooo sorry n thx for everythng. U've done a lot for me." The tree say " I dunno. However, I hope one day u'll let ur memories fly with the wind rather than u keep it here."

p/s: I do hope so

Ending of Somethings Is The Beginning of Another Things

"Today was a fairy tale u r the prince (singing)" OMG m sooo crazy about diz song...huhuhu..wat I wanna tell u now is not about my prince =P but wat hppnd to me along diz semester..

End of January

I came back early...m quite busy wit EMS2010..m the asstnt HOD of PNP..its kind of new experience for me coz m not really expose to diz department b4. I get to know many new peoples. At 1st m quite scared. I started my new sem wit new relationship (^_^)v

February

I started busy wit EMS2010 and H4I. Siyesly, diz sem m crazy wit the evnts..fuuuhhh~~its really2 tiring. I feel good when everybody in the team work hard for the same evnt. Can u imagine the output?? When I see the event successful I feel satisfied, happy, etc. Its hard for me to tell about the feelings. In H4I I get to know many2 more ppls. Ol the sweet n bad memories will b in my heart. My heart was stolen btw..hehehe..dont worry the memories still there, only heart was missing (^_^)

March

Critical month for me. I guess march is the climax of diz semester. U know y?? M pissed off..M burst..m sooo fragile..I learnt sth..Ppl are not owez beside us..sometimes we've to hold ourself by ourself..sigh..wat hppnd really2 make me feel sad..wit stress, emotional unstable I went through diz month.huhuhu.. Thx Allah 4 the strength, thx sayang 4 ur presence n thx for those who be there when m in need...really2 appreciate it... =( ===> (^_^)v

April

Gang of Peers 2010..it was my evnt..I was the PD (project director). It supposedly carry out last year but for some reasons we xtend it to diz year. I love my team soooo much.. I prefer calling them my team rather than my committee. They r really2 supportive... I got my strength from them..thx soooo much guys..i'll misz those who r going for internship, i'll misz those who joint me at mamak, our memory will b in my heart. M proud to say dat, ive xperiencd working wit u guys.

Million thx to u!!! @_@ ===> = S ===> (^_^)

May

I started to focus on my study..Guess wat?? its quite hard to catch up everythng from the beginning. Dats y i need a peaceful mind n soul. So dat it'll be easier for me to revise back wat i've learnt along diz sem. No wonder u'll see me at tasik early in the morning, or evening, even u can see me at mamak at the middle of the night.. I need to get out..btw..m not emotionally down but I juz need some rest..I felt really2 tired..even sometimes m thnkng of giving up..I really2 need some rest..I wish I can rest in peace ( dont get the wrong meaning ). I spent more time wit him. We had fun. One thng about us, we dont need to spent much our money to hv fun. Juz have a walk, funny2 teasing, etc. Final exam. (*_*) ===> (+_+) ===> =_=" ===> (O_O)

June

Basically i'll be at my home..I didnt plan to get out of my house..As I said b4, I really2 need rest..Diz sem is a tiring sem.

As a conclusion, compared to last sem, m happier diz sem..less tears but more laugh..thx to those who owez b there n make me smile n laugh. Those who make me sad,upset or angry, u'll get ur lesson. Ive successfully achieve my mission for diz sem.. Alhamdullilah..

MISSION STATUS : MISSION ACCOMPLISHED

p/s :

- sorry coz didnt update my blog frequently. wat stated above will tell everythng.

- gtg now, my last paper tmr...wish me luck!!!

Do You Ever Remember??

Do you remember saying that together?
Sitting and watching the sunset glow?

Do you remember what you used to say?
That you would be there for me every single day?
Do you remember when you would grab my hand and we would run off to play,
I think of that while I ask for you to come back to me when I pray

Do you ever look back?
And wish you hadn't?
Do you ever remember?

When you meet those girls,
Did you ever think this would happen?
That it would make you dampen?
That you would start to ignore me?
Tell me that friends forever could no longer be?

I just want to know, do you ever regret it?
Do you ever want to mend it?
Do you ever remember?

I do.

27 March 2010

Let me tell u sth. I was involved in Carnival Jom Masuk U ( exhibition about higher education level) . 1st time in my life being an exhibitor. It was fun. Shhhh~~ wanna tell sth secret.. some of the visitors esp students didnt know dat m a UTP student..hahahaha...can u believe dat?? Can u imagine how come cute,small n adorable ira can pretend to be the staff??? They asked me, how much my salary, m i from UTP graduate, which depart m from n even they ask me whether m a lecture?? WAT???Even out of blue moon, there r parents told me dat i look familiar to them. I look like their son's frenz from Terengganu. I was like blur dat time.Hahahahaa...Though I feel tired coz I keep talking the same thngs to diff ppl (feel like a robot) but I feel really2 satisfied. Part dat make me feel so xcted was CAMERAMAN FROM RTM..shoot me when m giving xplanation to the student..hahahahaha...diz is my 2nd time. I didnt turn to the camera.hahha..afraid dat m going to be tooooo popular later. It was a memorable experience being there. However, at the end of the day, I feel headache. Dats my prob. I cant stand being in crowd for a long time. Now m having flu. =S

During the exhibition I saw many types of parents n students. There r:

- parents who r really2 eager for their children education but the children didnt care much.

-children r really2 eager for their education and parents juz supervise them.

-parents who r not really support their children.

-students who r juz hang around n take brochure as collection.

-ppl who r come to our booth juz to collect souvenir from UTP.

They make me feel wanna go back.Sob Sob..i want my parents~~ misz my mom n dad.

Lastly, somethng dat make me feel sooo nervous. I met his sister directly (life). OMG!!! i was thnkng, wat m i suppose to do??? wat will she thnk about me?? wat will she tell their parents about me??unfortunately, we cant hang out together coz m on duty at Ipoh. =( we juz met b4 i sleep n b4 she go back to Penang. At the same time i feel quite guilty to him. M the one who supposed to help him wit his sister but i didnt do much. He asked his frenz to get her sister at Medan Gopeng n even me myself have to ask my rum8 to accompany his sister. hmmm~~

Wat hppnd today, whether it is a gud or bad, I'll take it as experience. Learnt from it n imprve myself.Thx for ur time. gtg now...wanna continue my sleep..hehehe..ttyl (^_^)v

Besday Wishes

sigh~~

I know its late alr but juz wanna wish someone besday here....1st of ol..let me sing for him...LOL

Happy Birthday To You~

Happy Birthday To You~

Happy Birthday To Sweetheart~~

Happy Birthday To You~

I alr wish him everythng (privately) hahahaha...btw...sweetheart~~when r u going to introduce me ur soulmate??? i cant wait for it!!~~ =P