What I've Learnt Diz Sem

Time pass very fast. Tmr is a last day for me as a 1st year 1st sem student. Diz sem I learnt many things. Of coz its not from class coz diz sem I skip class quite often. Thx to 'my beloved frenz' here..hahaha...

I will misz UTP. V3's tom yam and of coz him. Who's him?? hahahaha..guess who...Wat can I say diz sem is a dramatic sem. I be an emo gurlz. Crying at nite. Angry at day. hahahaha...when I think it back, its funny. Yup its totally funny.

About couple, m getting used to it alr. At first m quite upset when I see there's a lot of cpl around me but as time goes by, m getting used to it. My frenz know wat i meant. However, the good thing is diz sem i got so many hubby. Like Lemon (at first he declares himself Honey. Then he changes to Lemon coz i dont want to give him my chicken..hahaha..). Then I've my sayang. Nthng wit him. Then I've my contract lover. We'll be contract lover untill at the end of next sem. hehehe..We almost divorce today but we can safe it. He didnt go back diz sem break but he will go to Brunei. Tk care!!! Then I've my high skul frenz. We owez YM together and one day his frenz sign in to YM using his username. Since dat nite when we wanna chatting, he has to write password. 3 killer words. Funny rite?? Although I've Lemon,sayang, contract lover and a guy wit 3 killer words, but they r my frenz. Not more than dat. For me, there's nthng wit the name. We can call everyone wit wateva name we want but the more important things is, who r they in our heart =D.

Hang on. of coz i didnt forget about my sweetheart. hehehehe..b4 dat..congratulation na~~ we juz know each other diz sem. You help me a lot especially wit my relationship wit him and my SP. Thx for the movie, series,animation, advices and everything. U r like my brother (bong). The best thing about u is, u never scold me but owez support me n b at my side. Its funny when u owez back me up when my 'beloved frenz' teasing me.hahahaha..it is a sweet memory for me. hope we still can contact each other although after u graduate.

Diz sem also I make new frenz. Some of them from EE and some seniors. Diz sem also m getting closer wit Nisa and Visa ( Thailand gurlz). They r sweet.

As a conclusion, for diz sem I cry a lot and I laugh a lot. Thx to u who make me cry and thx to u who make me laugh. It is wat I call as memory. My memory as UTP student. I thnk I bttr stop now coz DM is waiting for me.

Tmr is my last paper. So sad to leave UTP. I alr packed my stuff. My room quite messy tonite. Tmr around 2:30 i'll move from UTP. To my 'beloved frenz' dont misz me too much. I know u'll coz i'll too.

Fun

Wat happened today will be one of my memory as UTP student. It was fun. Thx. Pictures will tell everything.

Cake =S

Michael and Andy

Couple of the year =P

Pleeezz~~ Dont laugh..hehehehe

Abg Nizam and Gurlz =P

All of us..Abg with his present and cake =D

Sweet Memory

Me and my rum8

Abu Zar, Farah, Sarah

Rum8 and Abg Nizam

With Abg Nizam =D

First time wearing shawl. How was it???hehehe

Hatred

First of all I would like to say sorry. Sorry for everything.In my life, I never hate people. No matter how bad they are, I still can accept them. Or I can just ignore them. But everything change when I know her. She is someone that I never expect to appear in my life. Honestly, this is first time I hate someone. I hate this feeling. It makes me feel uncomfortable, uneasy, angry, sad, annoyed n everything. I ask my friend and my senior, what should I do? They did help but the feeling burden me. Tonite, I juz cant stop my mind thinking about her and him. Why?? I also dunno. The quietness make it worst.

Sometimes it becomes worst. When I heard her name, the feeling start to come out. I know its annoying to read this kind of emo2 things but my intention is juz to give an advice to the reader. Please!!! M really2 begging you, never ever make people hate you or never ever hate people coz its hurt. Its hurt deep inside you. Its really2 hurt.

Do you know, our feeling/heart is like concrete wall and nail. When we hurt other people feeling, its like we make a hold on the wall using a nail. When we ask for forgiveness from that person, its like we pull back the nail from the wall. You can see there is no nail anymore but do you realize you left a hold on that wall?? thats wat i meant. When we ask forgiveness people will really forget it. However we should know we left a mark in their heart.

This is wat happened to me. I alr forgave her. I dunno.Perhaps m not really2 forgave her. Thats y there is still mark in my heart about what has happened. Deep inside my heart, I pray she will get him. Honestly I dont want it to happen but if they are destiny to be together, wat can I do.

So..plzz!!!! I remind you again. Dont ever hate people!!!

Nothng to Say

I feel like m having free time tonite, so m updating my blog. Some emo thngs to share wit u.

Actually my parents n my sister came on November 7. They came here by bus. After OnG test, around 2:30pm I went to Medan Gopeng to take them. The 1st question my father asked me was "u never go wash ur car??"hahahaha..i juz smile n gigled. He juz said..hmmmm...Then we ate. After that we went to Batu Gajah. My mother alr booked a room 4 us. M having a wonderful time hang out wit my family. M quite disappointed wit myself coz i cant afford to treat my family dat nite. M having financial prob. So wat to do, as usual my father paid for the dinner. Then go back to our room. We chit chat, laugh, and watching tv. I think ppl may think its normal but for me its special. Around 11 pm my father n I went to mamak stall near by. At dat moment, I feel like I wanna explode. I wanna tell my father about him. Wat he has done to me. About the poem, star and about Ana. Unfortunately, I cant. Dunno y. I try to tell him but I juz cant. Nvm. Maybe its not the rite time.

The day after we went to pizza hut. hahahaha.. I ate a lot. My mom quite shocked. Coz b4 diz I dont like to eat but since staying at UTP I eat a lot. I meant A LOT.M growing but unfortunately wider not taller.hehehe..Time pass by and we r having fun. Sadly, my parents wanna go back early coz m having drama assessment dat day. I keep telling them its okeyh but they wanna go back early. We reach Medan Gopeng around 1:45 pm. Honestly, I feel super duper sad dat time. I feel bad. Wat kind of daughter I am?? Parents come to visit me?? M the one who should go back to them. Btw I forgot to tell about my younger sister. hmmm..so jealous of her coz she grows taller n bigger. She juz done wit her PMR. I hope she will get flying colors and wish her ol da best.

At 2:00 pm,they went back. I am crying at public. hahahahaha. M juz waving my hands n trying to not cry. Seriously, I feel really2 bad dat time. I promise myself. After diz, if m having free time, I will go back to Muar. Distance is not an excuses anymore. Wateva the risk, I've to face coz I dont want my parents come to me. I wanna me myself go to them. I juz realise I cant loose them. If I involve in an accident on the way I go back to Muar its okeyh. At least they will lost only me one person. However, if they involve in accident, they will left me one person.Then I went back to UTP. M crying again inside the car. OMG. I drove back to UTP while crying.hehehe..I owez watch diz in movie but never thought it will happen to me.Yup. M crying while driving. My advice, " Dont try diz at home" =P

If u don't have special one, boyfriend, girlfriend, hubby, bunny or wateva ppl called, u have to be grateful coz u still have ur family. Believe me. They will be there whenever u want them to be there. They owez support u.

Dats ol about my family..ttyl n take care

Epi Bday Awak

poem inside the glass =)

final product..waiting for delivery

bear for him?? hahaha...silly gurlz

glass inside the box

letter surrounded by star inside the box

70 star with poem inside =)

hopefully u owez epi..no matter where u r we r still in the same planet rite?? no worry about the distance...tk care..although the star didn't sparkling as the star at the sky but i wish my star will make u smile when u r down...

izza

4/11/2009

Wish

Sometimes I look up at the stars at night,

wishing that you were holding me tight.

I hold back the tears before they slide down my cheek,

prying to God to keep me strong not weak.

I make a wish in the deepness of my heart,

that soon we'll be together, not so far apart.

I think of all the good times we have shared,

I want you to know that I'll always care.

I want you to hold me and never let me go,

I miss you and love you, just thought I'd let you know

p/s I came across diz poem..its nice n meaningful =)

A Thousand Apologies

Sorry that I love you, sorry that i care

Sorry that we've taken for granted the love that we share

Sorry for the heartache, sorry for the pain

Sorry for what you gave if I didn't give back the same

Sorry for the waiting, sorry to waste your time

Sorry if I'm not worth it, you don't have to be mine

Sorry for mistaking something that I thought was true

Sorry if you don't understand why I do what I do

Sorry for my feelings if they're not enough

Sorry if we can't work through all this stuff

Sorry if you can't fit me into your life

Sorry if all I do is cause us to fight

Sorry if I'm cramping your style or getting in your way

Sorry if i don't say the things you want me to say

Sorry if I don't meausure up to what you want me to be

Sorry if I can't be enough to make you just want me

Sorry for apologizing but I don't know what to do

Sorry if my only dreams consist of me and you

p/s I dedicate diz poem to someone important in my life. Someone who owez wit me through thick n thin. M waiting for ya~~