Therapy is needed!!!

Tonite I feel like wanna write something. You should call me crazy or psychiatric. I juz wanna ask u..how do u feel when u feel like someone shadow is following you?? Someone dat make you upset. How do you feel?? Everywhere I go, I will feel she is there. That gurlz is her. This gurlz is her. I juz cant stand it anymore. Its make me feel uncomfortable especially when there is a lot of people. Its getting worse when I start being quiet when m in public area. Dunno y its getting worse n worse. M I hate her dat much???

I juz dunno how to explain diz to peoples. Its really makes me crazy. For a normal people, they can say, "Juz forget bout it ira. Forget about her" or " C'mon ira..u thnk too much about her while she even didnt care or rmmbr about u" or maybe " hahahaha..its funny".How to explain?? Its me who feel it.Yesterday I went to shopping mall wit my mom n diz syndrome happnd. I juz cant speak, have no mood and feel like burst. I told him about diz coz I am so called his best frenz but I dont thnk so. Guess wat his respon?? He laught.

To ol my frenz, plz pray for me..Pray dat i'll be strong. Strong enaf to fight wit her shadow n my feeling. I didnt wish to forget her coz I know its impossible, but I juz hope diz syndrome end. I give myself another 1 year to fix diz things up. If its not work out, last plan is i'll meet psychiatrist. For diz time being, i'll avoid myself from being in public. I know its sounds like coward but I juz cant face it now. I need more time. Plz pray for me and thx.